TheComfortCorner | V.8

[quit-cs]

well i feel like ive slept about 8 minutes :,)
even though i know i got more i just feel so tired

[VillagerTeddy]

I don't know if you ever come on here anymore, but I'm putting this on here anyway.
I'm not sure if you're 100% better. I'm not sure if you can be 100% better, but I know you have changed. Not in a bad way. You're back to you. I honestly never thought you would come back from where you were. But you did. And I'm so so thankful. I know I should have done better in supporting you. But I'm so proud of you for getting through it. And if it ever comes back, please be honest with me. I sometimes wonder if you would have told me you were cutting at some point if I hadn't seen it. I think you would have, but you were protecting me. Thank you, for trying. But I always have just wanted to help you. I came up with the idea of having a party just for you, celebrating how amazing you were. I didn't do it because I didn't think you would like it, but it's still in my notes, all planned out.
I remember that I was so ready for you to text me something that indicated you were leaving, and to drive to your house to help you. That's why I was always so tired. I stayed up late at night, waiting for a text. It never came. I have never been so thankful.
Just know, that you are my world. You are everything to me. (Don't take that as pressure) You have so much potential. You can change the world. You are amazing. I'm so excited for the future when you do incredible things. I love you more thank anything ❤️❤️

[v1s10ns]

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[bellini]

stop please stop please stop please stop
Why today I hate this I hate this so much stop
I’ve cried too many times today I hate it I hate this so much

[snubbulls]

i just had one of the worst anxiety attacks in my life. my parents went out and left the key out for me, but they didn't put it where they told me they would. this led to me panicking about whether or not i could get into my house, and eventually i got anxious to the point of trying to bodyslam a door in. (i know its a bad idea, but i really wasnt thinking straight.) it didn't work, but broke the door a bit. i found the key after like an hour of panicked looking.

however, now i have a broken door that i have been trying relentlessly to fix (and have made some progress). i don't think i can fix it without my dad's help. if i tell them what i did though, i will get in really awful trouble and maybe some other bad situations. i really don't know what to do and i'm still so anxious and jeez everything is jsut going downhill in my mind right now. i'm inside and trying to fix it, but everything i do seems to break it more. i just hate that i can't think straight while i'm having a panic attack. if i was'nt so stupid i would have eventually found the key and none of this would have happened. i hate my anxiety so much and i hate that it makes trying to think in situations like this so hard.

my head feels like it spinning. i might pass out from anxiety

[Mooshidog]

I kinda slightly broke my flute.
Haha.

[SolsticeTheBanana]

Dear god I am so glad I’m still here. Dear god how it hurts to think about what I could’ve done. That door was wide open. That door was the one I wanted to enter. I almost turned the knob. You told me something else. Showed me a different door, that I couldn’t see at the time. I hope you know you’re the only reason that I exist to breathe today. That I get to smile today. I hope you know that I value you more than anything. I would lose my dreams and my future just to keep you safe. Thank you for being the reason that I wake up every morning and look past where I used to be, and see something more than darkness and loss in my future. You showed me it’s ok not to be ok. You believed in me even when I didn’t even belive in myself. I promise I won’t shut my mouth and hold everything inside again. I swear I’ll let you know my mind, and I hope you’ll do the same. I love you, honest to god I couldn’t value you more. Just... Thank you ❤️

[Faker]

I sleep too little and I eat too much.
Too many sweets and snacks.
Dizziness and feel sick especially after exercise.
Three through four hours of sleep everyday. I need about eight or ten. Ridiculous. It is difficult to sleep.
Lack of sleep and overwork nearly made me faint last week.
Insecure about my weight. I skip meals until the hunger gets unbearable. I end up eating too much when I do. I then feel upset about it. I want to throw up everything I eat. I tried to a few times...
The Body Mass Index calculator said I am just barely underweight. I have trouble accepting it. I still want to lose my fat... I can see it.
I constantly weigh myself and stare at the mirror. I freak out if I notice any changes.
Why did I get uglier since puberty started....? I do not want to sound egotistical but I was actually very pretty and cute when I was younger. Maybe I will become prettier after it.

[Starwood in Aspen]

Glad to know I'm not welcome even among friends.... great.... So I was visiting some friends in their apartment right? And I was in the central dining/seating/kitchen area, 2 of the people were in their rooms, and 2 were sitting out talking and studying and hanging out with me. well.. one of the 2 people in their rooms, we'll call him T, walks out of his private room. I smile, and say hello, he grunts and goes back in his room. I just shake it off, because I know he doesn't really like me that much and whatever. so he comes back out a short time later, heats up food and hides again. All this time all i have been doing is eating a bowl of chili (The reason for my visit, homemade food. ) And talking with my 2 friends. Well, my friend gets a message on her computer... its T.... Tell her to go home... Second message was just "Please". I was INVITED by the other 2 friends mind you!!!

Now I knew he didn't like me... I really don't care if he doesn't like me... but that... thats gone beyond a general dislike. the fact that I can't even be in the same apartment as him. thats hating my everliving guts... and I don't even remember doing anything to make him so angry at me. Maybe he is bitter about me being clingy with my ex (The other friend in his room in the apartment, and honestly we are both over it and at a mutual friendship at this point anyway). I don't know... It just really really hurt and still kinda does.... I just feel like nobody really wants me around....Being a senior in college with trust issues trying to rebuild a friendgroup nearly from scratch is not as easy as it seems...
and then there's the whole roommate issue.. you would think that having a room to myself would be nice after my last roommate. But being alone gets to you after a while. I have been holding conversation with my betta fish almost on the daily. Lol. Shes a good listener though.
Plus my phone is not charging properly, but hey, I just applied for a job at a local store so maybe I can make enough money to buy a new charger.
Sorry for the somewhat long rant. its been a long day for me.. lol.

[fester !]

my dads heart is playing up again
im used to it and it was long overdue to happen again. he went months without anything serious it was gonna happen at some point.
doesnt make it any better.
he's probably gonna be in hospital all week now
theres a chance he wont but i highly doubt it
i guess its all okay as long as he doesnt die
he better not but if will is anything to go by he has a pretty strong will to live