TheComfortCorner | V.8

[arctic Wisteria]

This is so toxic what I'm doing.
I love you. I loved you for so long but I need to let go.
You're only hurting me and I can't take it crying every night.
This isn't okay...

[quit-cs]

just as i feel better from the offsite anonymous hate, i receive more. im done. im never ever posting my art anywhere ever again, i hope those anonymous people are happy. i have no confidence in basically what's going to be my whole career

[mynameisbacon]

just as i feel better from the offsite anonymous hate, i receive more. im done. im never ever posting my art anywhere ever again, i hope those anonymous people are happy. i have no confidence in basically what's going to be my whole career

Aww, don't feel that way! Though there can be haters, there are always fans, trying to push through the crowd. Don't mind them, your art is beautiful, you should be confident!

[♡Mewlin♡]

*snuggles the bun extremely tight*

[Monomares]

guess who didn't sleep again last night
have to reschedule my BW appt. bc I'm in such bad shape
I just want to cry sometimes

[dakotapaws]

you told me its pretty likely youll stay with me. i hope thats true. but why am i so insecure now? nothings really changed i dont think. you dont say you love me anymore until you get your emotion sorted, which i completely understand. maybe its because it feels like our communication has taken a downfall. you never really checked up on me to begin with, but i knew you still cared. now i dont know. i keep hoping ill wake up and see a message from you that you love me, but i cant just hang on for months and months still head over heels in love with you and reaching for you when you arent there. i dont want to ask or push to know because youll shut me out more than you already have. i honestly enjoy having you as my boyfriend. you make me happy and help me be less pessimistic. i did tell you i dont want to be drug along until ylu throw it at me youre done. i know i over worry and over think, but you dont give me anything to go on. i have ask and be even more of a bother to try and find out. its been weeks, a. do you even really think about it? im fine waiting, i am. but you avoid all my begging to have a real conversation with you. not even about that but anything in general. we unfortunately are long distance now. communicating is even more important since we cant see each other and you ignored me asking to facetime. i need to know, a. something. anything. please.

i hope i dont just make everything worse, i swear i dont mean to. i do love you. so much.

[.rin okumura.]

College is turning out to be a bust...
I haven't gone to one of my classes in 2 weeks, I'm horribly sick and I just wanna go home...

I love what I'm doing regardless. I love my theatre classes and I'm so happy I switched my major to Theatre. I've made so many wonderful friends and I feel apart of something..

So why am I having all these conflicting emotions??

[farewell]

(Not looking for advice or responses - just want to rant)

I've exhausted all of my resources. It's all just a matter of time now. I don't want to wait but I have to. Once I finish college in December of 2020, I know everything will come together. I'll be making a substantial amount of money and I can get my own place.

[dogbrain]

i am sorry if this is against the rules. there is truly NO ONE i can talk to about this.

nothing anyone can do, and not something i enjoy talking about.
my dad is an alcoholic. he relapses a lot. buys NA (non-alcoholic, but like low percentage alcohol) beer, buys pounders (? i don't really know what they means, but they're huge cans). we try to limit his intake, of course. mom said only three cans. he used to get a case of pounders, drink them all in one night. ranging from 6 cans to 24 cans. raging alcoholic. ever since i can remember. sure, he was sober for 2 and a half years, but relapsed when he lost his job(s) over a course of a year. sometimes we lived high on the hog, other times dirt-poor. my dad has no job right now, and is spending all the money on things he wants...we seemingly get food every month, but usually cereal and the basics (bread, milk, lunch meat, frozen dinners). if he keeps it up, we will barely have enough money to scrape by with. food pantry gives us good food! but, it is embarrassing at times. i can always go to my boyfriends, they have food and such. but, that makes me feel like a burden...i am soon going on vacation...19-21 with my boyfriend and his family. yes, i am very excited, but also loathing the fun I'll have only to return home to negative energy that really tears my insides apart.
parents argue. they don't abuse each other nor me, but verbal abuse...swearing, yelling on the top of his lungs. my dad is a naturally loud person, so you can imagine when he is under the influence and not getting his way. justifying his way to get beer. he is most like a child, whines and whines till he gets his way... why is my mother still with him, you ask? me. i used to always say I never wanted them to split, because I do love my dad! I do...nothing will change that, but just...it's what he becomes, that I don't like. he truly becomes a monster...it only took me 13 years to figure that out. i don't like realizing the truth. i want to go back to when I was 4, when I didn't understand or even remember...i can't wait to move out. i haven't got my license yet, and i honestly suck at driving. i'm scared. i want to get a job. make money. become an author. i want to go to college, but my parents argue about money so much...i mention paying for college, they say, "Well fill it out!" ...I don't know how and neither do they...they never went to college. i can't go on college tours because our vehicle can only do so much... ehh. this is getting too long.

tdlr; if my elementary school knew about this, CPS would have been involved...and i would have been taken away from a family that DOES LOVE me. so, that's why I can now talk about this as an adult, openly. again, no one needs to respond and this may even be against the rules, but i needed to type it out.

[v1s10ns]

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