TheComfortCorner | V.8

[Indigo -]

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i wonder what it's like,
to not have to stay up every night
because nightmares

i wonder what it's like,
to have no anxieties in life
because i worry all too often

i wonder what it's like,
to not be afraid of every shadow
because fear is a black hole

i wonder what it's like,
to be a carefree normal girl
because i'm not

[rover]

i feel overwhelemedddddddddd ooohhhhhh
aw, i don't know
i wish i was a super good friend, person, sister, daughter, and family
i want to treat the people around me better
so i decided that i should try to handle myself
and my emotions
or try to-
but it's really really hard!
expressing them the right and correct way, in a good way
is hard
especially when i feel mad, sad, or upset
sometimes people feel that way,
and end up hurting others
even if they didn't mean to-
i want to avoid that!
it is very avoidable
if i do it correctly!


i lashed out
a lot
and when i did, people became upset and confused
i try not to-
so
i ignore(d) my own feelings and thoughts
i know i do, i know it's not a good thing to do
i try not to
i've been getting better at not ignoring them
and actually expressing them (in a healthy way)
because i know that everyone's feelings
including mine
are important
but
i want the other person to feel happy
and me too-
at least a little more even
to keep our life sparkly~
to make them feel less unhappy or stressed
because i know
that life is hard
and not very sparkly sometimes
so i still ignore my feelings/thoughts
sometimes
just sometimes
not always
just sometimes


i know i'm a bit naive
and immature
in the things i say and do


i had this bad habit of changing myself
and my personality
because i was a people pleaser
this started around five years ago
i was constantly tired
and sad
it would be mentally exhausting for me
to keep up the happy attitude
to act hyper all the time
to act the way people wanted me to
or to act the way that would make others happy
i would pretend to believe some things
or like other things
to please others
it made me so unhappy
so i fell into a depressional stage
but recovered
thanks to my friends <3
but again i fell back into the bad habit
another depressional stage
my friends rushed to my aid
i am so grateful for them
they are the closest beings to angels
i love them so much
so here i am again!
recovering
each time i recover, i grow mature-
which i'm glad about
i've come to realize many things
and also believe other things that aren't true/healthy
because i'm still a bit young


i think that right now i am realizing a lot of things
about myself (and my bad habits)
about others
about life in general
i've changed a lot in the past year
it's astonishing
but i think this change is overall good
i hope that i grow a bit more
and that my eyes will open
to new things
i want to be more open-minded
more considerate
kinder
wiser
more responsible
brave
and so many things


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i ranted here today
because i was feeling a bit upset
and overwhelmed
because of some things
but now i feel a lot better!


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i've been trying some meditation
and listening to asmr
and using different ways to calm down
it's been working!
the effects are super surprising-
my life improved a lot
(including others)
ever since i started this a few weeks back
but i know it doesn't always work for everyone
so if people are reading this...
i suggest you try them <3

[~IronRose~]

So, I think I might be gender fluid (I am biologically female), and given that I am pansexual it kinda makes sense to me. However, this new discovery kind of sucks because I can't bind my chest, I have been advised over and over that I shouldn't bind due to my chest size and it makes me want to cry because my chest size is the biggest indicator that I am female even when I try to be more masculine. I don't know what to do, I don't want to get a reduction because I'm perfectly happy with my size when I feel feminine but I can't bind...I feel like I'm at a cross roads and I'll never be able to express who I truly am.

[䏠xote]

i can't anymore
im sorry
im so sorry
im so, so sorry
im sorry

[cornspurrd.]

i feel so weak and stupid. isolated from society, trapped in my own brain. i hate this.
I'm not okay.
.. i'm going to break

[mandalorian]

my mom: giving the same speech she's given to me ever since i got my medication
me, in pain, tired, sick: i know
my mom: wow I cant BELIEVE how RUDE you are i'm just trying to HELP and you're being so RUDE to me i cant BELIEVE you!!!
me:
my mom: you're nOt EvEN tAKInG cAre Of YOuRSElF HOW yoU're SuPpoSED tO!

like ok. it's one thing to take care of yourself properly it's another thing when you cant actually take care of yourself because your body refuses to let you. when i try to drink a full glass of water after taking my pills my body throws it back up so i cant hold it in. by the time i'm finished eating and supposed to take my pill i feel so nauseous and tired that the idea of putting anything else into my body, even water, is something i'd really Rather Not Do. it's one thing to try and ""help"" me with my medication when we dont even know if the medication is working, and when i try to tell you that it Obviously Isnt you just ignore me and tell me to take advil and get over it. i'm so tired of living like this, i want to be healthy again

[Mooshidog]

I feel like my heads underwater

And I have a concert tomorrow.

[Arlecchino ♡]

when did i stop mattering to you

[v1s10ns]

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[onion]

i have nowhere to go. nobody to protect me anymore. no safe place. i feel isolated and trapped. i just want it to stop.