TheComfortCorner | V.8

[Guest]

im not even old. Grown but not old.

I feel like I have no friends even though a number consider me one. But they dont text me and when I try. We both have this mutual "let's be dry, leave each other on open, etc."

I hate seeing the i get left on read posts. We all do shut up.

I don't want to lose my best friend but she always gives me these. I can do better or im so alone vibes on her stories and posts.

She knew I wasn't doing anything and did things I would've enjoyed with her. She had the audacity to text me "I'm bored."

[Vixem]

So basically my grandfather had cataracts and needed surgery on the 2nd of October (which he got done) and now he has to wait until the 23rd of October to get checked up on.. He’s not doing too well. He loves gardening, riding his bike, pottering around the house and painting but he can’t. Because of this, it’s triggered his depression and now he might have to go back
into a clinic. He refuses to leave the house see anyone apart from my grandmother and leave the house.. He’s nearly 80.. I
hate seeing him so down. I want to help him but I’m worried I’ll make it worse. I am also worried about my grandmother..
Since I can’t visit them, I can only text her. She’s saying she’s fine but I know she’s not.. She takes care of him so well but
she needs someone to take care of her. Her back is getting worse and if it gets worse she’ll have to get surgery done again, then, who’s going to look after my grandfather?

I feel so useless right now, I have no clue on what to do.

[deoxyribonucleic]

i think im going through withdrawal, two nights ago i forgot to take my meds and im shaking like hell . this isnt good at all but no way am i going home again, im so behind already. im just scared

[teabug]

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[Guest]

i hope i dont fail.

[the folly of man]

gee thanks anxiety you're a real pal
you know I love it when you make the minutes feel like hours when I just want to do school and get it over with. 👍

just kidding.

I hate you, anxiety.
you're horrible.

I don't want to be stupid anymore.
please just leave me alone so I can try.
please.

I have the potential. you could ask any of my family members and they'd probably agree.
but you,
you are holding me back.
you're screaming while I try to focus, throwing the words around the place so I can't read them.
it's not me, it's you. all you.

[fiirstcrush]

i wish my dad literally did not make me feel like complete and utter trash everytime I do something remotely wrong!!! I was talking to him with my headphones on (No video playing or music.) and I couldn't hear what he said ( I HAVE HEARING PROBLEMS ) and he was like "well thats why you're doing bad in school!" like no its not.. its because internet school is very hard for me as its too fast paced unlike irl school. I wish he could treat me like he loved me sometimes. oh and not to mention dinner is only what he wants, if i want something else he goes "oh well thats not how i was raised u cant just be a special little snowflake and have whatever" like sorry?? I was ok with what we were gonna have with dinner but I wanted something else that doesnt mean i wont eat dinner at all

[Starwood in Aspen]

I am so tired. And yesterday I sprained my ankle pretty bad. I went to the doctor on campus to see if I could get a bandage. Nope. Just rest it ice it elevate it and take some ibus. Well that's all well and good but I have to walk to get to classes. Plus the headache I have right now among other issues.... Is just really making me not want to go to classes today.

[halo]

i'm the worst. a worthless idiot. i look like a girl. i'm stupid. i can't even do anything right. i'm a disgrace. i'm absolutely disgusting and i deserve to die for being a waste of space and oxygen. i'm just waiting until the day it's all over so i won't be able to hurt anyone anymore. i can't breathe. i can't breathe. i can't. i can't. i can't. i can't do anything. it's all my fault. all this noise in my head is my fault. it's my fault for being born. i shouldn't have done it. i shouldn't have forgotten my place. i shouldn't have. i should've known i can't have friends because i'm a worthless, disgusting, disgrace of a human, waste of life, useless, idiotic, coward & liar.

[cornspurrd.]

i wonder what it feels like to love yourself
i wonder what it feels like to wake up.. And be glad you're alive.
to look in the mirror and not wish you where someone else
to have somebody to hug you when you cry
to eat and not worry about weight
to smile.. And for it to be real.