TheComfortCorner | V.8

[cherrykun]

I really like this one guy called Ben, so I told my friend about it. Teachers and parents and preachers always, uh, preach, the same thing -- friends listen to what you have to say and they don't spread rumors or embarrass you. Not in this case. 5 days ago at lunch my and my friends were sitting together. Ben and his gang were at the table in front of us. My friend screamed at him, BEN!!! AG HAS SOMETHING TO SAY TO YOU!!! and I was sitting there like, wut?? Ben turned around and stared at me like I was an idiot. My friend then whispered in a sugar-coated tone, go say hi! I looked at Ben and waved. Putting an annoyed look on his face, Ben turned around back to his table. His friends acted like nothing had happened.

Now, i'm just really depressed. I ask to go to the nurse's office just to lay down and not see anyone's face. The nurse assistant, whom desk faces the window unveiling the cot room, is nervous about my mentality. She sees me karate-chopping the air while staring into space. It's because I control myself that way. Hitting thin air. While (I think) nobody is looking. When someone is looking, I flinch briskly. My head pounds, and I don't know what to do. Please save me,

[Silverfang]

I have other far more negative things happening but I'm just angry at myself right now on CS. I see I have trades but I'm too anxious to look at them. It's stupid i know... happens with emails too. Anxiety is absurd and I hate how it controls my internet life too. Makes me look like I'm ignoring others.

[Guest]

just tired of boys.

and people.

[onion]

got denied for social security benefits for the second time :) yay :) haha :)

[connoisseur]

My head is pounding.

I've been struggling with my lack of focus and attention. I'm known to have a short attention span in my family and basically where ever I go. I can't fully focus on something unless it requires me to engage in it. That's why I'm always playing stupid rhytmn games or reading things on my laptop or phone. Or at times I get too invested into my schoolwork that I end up being late to other classes for not noticing time passing. Even during lectures, I space out. I know that's generally normal for everyone, but I don't WANT to space out. My vision gets blurry and my focus is gone, and I try to rapidly blink, and when my eyesight adjusts everything tunes out again, my hearing goes muffled and I have to put my head down so I don't look weird during an episode. This doesn't just happen during class either. It happens when people are talking to me and even me trying to talk to someone. When people ask if I was listening I joke around and say something stupid like "Sorry I heard God's call, Jesus speaks to me," and they laugh it off. But I feel awful afterwards and it's basically a struggle to not... like.. drift away from reality. When I study, it takes me hours because for every four minutes I spent looking at a chemistry equation, I spend fifteen doing something totally unrelated just because my head aches for those four minutes of paying attention. And of course, when people explain something to me and they ask if I understand, and I say my head hurts they think I'm joking. Probably because I joke about these things alot.

I want to talk to my legal guardian about it, but I feel like she wouldn't take me seriously. She'd just say something to dismiss it and I know I'll feel even more worse than I already do now. I've told my mother before about my issues and she promised to take me to a doctor or something, but that was... three or four years ago? Things have gotten so much worse since then.

[2246]

what have i done

[mandalorian]

i just,, i dont know what to do
i feel so nauseous all the time and it's been so long
if the blood tests come back and they dont find something then what am i supposed to do
i just want to lie down and sleep forever at this point

[.bluejay.]

I really, really miss my horse. I had to sell him to afford to go to school, and I really regret it. College isn’t worth having to say goodbye to him, not by a long shot. I feel like horses and barns and country are home to me, and I couldn’t be more homesick for those things. It’s been eight years since I haven’t had a horse in my life and it really just hit me these last few days how much it hurts and how much I miss that. I feel like I’m missing a piece of my heart without a horse, and it’s killing me. I was driving to class yesterday and just broke down crying thinking about my horses over the years. I don’t know when I’ll have enough money to have another horse, but I’m afraid it won’t be for years and years. I’ve got a lot of school still ahead of me, then low paying, starting jobs before I could even dream about being able to afford another horse. I don’t think I can last that long without a piece of my heart. I’m crying again just writing this post, but I just needed to get it out somewhere. I don’t know what to do. I just want my horse back.

[Atlas ♥]

This idiotic headache (or a migraine, I'm not too sure) has lasted three days and it's absolutely debilitating.

I cannot lie down because my stomach churns and makes me feel like I'm going to throw up. I have a fever, my head is spinning and I can't stand up for too long. I legitimately ran out of ideas on what to do. I've tried medication, running a bath, meditation, resting, ice packs, ice cream and cold/hot drinks, you name it.

I have work tomorrow and I have no idea how I'm going to cope for 8+ hours. What if I pass out? What if I'm not able to call in sick because they need me?

I have no idea what to do.

[lupins]

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