Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Olivenose]

Dear J,

We've been avoiding each other for... God, how long's it been? The whole school year so far?
We dated once.
In summer between 6th & 7th grade.
Why have we not talked since then? I really like you as a person, and you followed me on tiktok but don't ever message me, or talk to me irl. I really wanna be friends again. Please don't take this as me trying to flirt with you, or ask you out. It's not. I just miss you being my friend.
Sincerely, O

[MoMoYA]

I’m sorry I don’t want to be around you anymore. I don’t hate you or even dislike you, but something about you makes me uncomfortable. I always feel on edge at your house. When we had class together it was easier, but I just don’t know anymore. I can’t believe your mom did what she did. I can’t believe she told you what she did. I expected that as best friends the things I told you would be confidential, not that you would tell your parents everything always. I trusted you, and now I feel like I can’t tell you anything. I have always kept your secrets from everyone. Parents, friends, everyone. I feel betrayed. The things I shared with you were for your eyes only. You didn’t even ask. For all this time you’ve been sharing these things with your family behind your back. Why? What made you think that was okay? And the things I explicitly said were secrets, what about those? How do I know who you’ve told? I feel weird thinking about how we haven’t talked in a while. I don’t know how I feel about you anymore. The worst part is, you don’t even know you did something wrong, and I’m too scared to tell you because I bet you’ll tell them that too.

[phoenixlikeslemons]

.

[| nefelibata |]

To C,

Why do you always talk about others behind their backs? You're so oblivious to how rude, loud and painful you are. You have wonderful parents, haven't you learnt any manners from them? Look, I don't hate you. I don't think I could ever bring myself to hate someone, but when you can't keep other's private information and spread rumours just so you can laugh at them, I come very close to hate. You expect me to laugh along to your sarcastic and vulgar jokes about my close friends. What the hell is wrong with you? Don't you have any respect?

I don't understand how someone could be so insensitive and mean to be able to imitate somebody for something they cannot help or control. Her speech impediment? She's trying so hard to gain the confidence to speak to others. His high-pitched voice? It's not his fault, how dare you assume he's gay.

I am so close to losing it with you.

[eneraa]

hello. it's been a while. i feel like i start every one of these letters with "it's been a while" but honestly it has
i don't think i've seen you in what, six months? that's a long time. people can change a lot in that time.
it's been almost a year since what happened. it's almost been a year, and here i am writing letters to you on a furry site with nobody to read them except my sad, tired eyes. i know i was a huge pain to deal with. i know i was clingy, and annoying, and rude, and a horrible person to you. and i don't know if i've changed, but i just hope that you're doing well.
if i'm being honest, all i ever wanted was for you to be happy. i didn't know how to help, so i'd just remind you that i loved you any chance i got so you'd remember. i wanted you to know i was there, so you wouldn't do anything... dire.
im gonna sound like a whiny little brat by saying this, but i miss you. a lot. i miss talking to you. i don't even miss being in a relationship, i just miss... you. the idea of you, talking to you, being around you. you emit such a positive and amazing aura and i feel horrible for stripping that away. i was emotionally exhausting and a disgusting person, and i hope you can forgive me.
anyway, screw all the venting nonsense. have you been doing ok? how's being a rocket? i mean, i'll be there with you next year but i don't think you'll want to see me at all. i ran into j, he ignored me. i ran into p, he ignored me. b and l talked to me for a bit, but it was... awkward. l is even worse haha, she's doing some stuff, right? i know you're still in touch with a lot of my friends but just... it hurts knowing you talk to them and not me. it's understandable, but it hurts. you even blocked me on instagram heh
i don't know where im going with this. i don't know the purpose of this letter, or if you'll ever read it, or if i'll ever even see you again with the current situation here but just know that i still care. and i always have. cared that is.

- someone you used to know

[Siberia,]

you're probably gonna read this. if you think it's about you, then yeah it is and i'm sorry i'm too much of a coward to say it to you directly.

Ever since we met back in January, you've been nothing but loving, accepting, and supportive to me. I'm so grateful I got to meet you, you've made my life a lot better just by being in it. It makes me really happy that you don't mind the weird things I say and do sometimes, and that regardless of everything you don't think any different of me. I love the time we spend together and I know sometimes I'm not that great at expressing yourself and I'm sorry I'm not better at it.

I remember coming out to you. I remember how scared and worried I was you wouldn't love me anymore. I remember how sick to my stomach I felt when I sent you that message. I remember trying so hard to not cry typing it. I was scared, but somehow I knew you'd accept me, even if you didn't understand. I can't tell you how much it means to me that you love and accept me, especially after what happened with Lee.

And I remember everything that happened when Diane moved in for awhile. I remember how scared I was all the time, more than usual. But more importantly I remember how you were always with me. I remember messaging you saying I needed you and you said "I'm here". I know it was small. I know it wasn't much. But to me it meant everything and I never knew that two short words could ever make me feel so safe and loved. No one ever said that to me before.

I remember all the sleepless nights I had staying up with you that usually would've made me feel so bored and alone, but they're not anymore. They make me laugh and smile and they make me feel so happy now. I love all the stupid things you say while you're on your sleep meds too, you say the most cursed things on them but they're so funny. But you're just as funny when you're not on them.

I remember all the times I've come to you crying or about to cry and you don't say anything bad about it. You don't tell me to grow up. You don't tell me to "just calm down", you let me talk it out and you try to be supportive. You're there for me when I need you, and that alone means so much to me. You don't always have something super mind blowing or amazing to tell me to change my entire worldview, but you don't need to. You already do that every day by just being yourself.

And I know there's so many people who don't like you and treat you cruelly for things beyond your control. And I know it hurts you so much, but you're so strong and resilient you keep going anyway. I don't think you realize how strong you are, but I hope I can be like that someday too. And I really hope that one day you get to live in a world where people are kinder to you. I don't hope for anything else as much as that, actually.

And I know that you do completely normal things that people get annoyed at you for. But I like it when you ramble about random things or you won't stop talking about something you like. And I like it when you talk about conspiracy theories with me, it's a lot of fun and you always have something to say that I haven't heard before but also isn't stupid or harmful to anyone. And I love it when you tell me about your stories with Sam, I know I always make jokes about it but I think they're cute and I kind of relate to them a lot. I actually used to daydream about that sort of things all the time. And I love it when you don't stop talking about your wife, too. You always have such cute stories about her and you've said nothing but sweet and loving things about her to me and it makes me so happy to hear them.

And I'm really proud of you. I'm proud of you for always trying to become a better person. I'm proud of you for always being so strong. I'm proud of you for realizing who you are. I'm proud of you for slowly, but surely, learning how to be more open about your problems and not being anywhere near as self destructive as you were when we first met. And I hope that even if it's just small things that I do, that they help you. Even if they don't make much of an impact either. And I hope that I tell you things that make you think "Wow, this kid adores me" because I really, really do.

And I'm so happy and grateful that you've let me be as close to you as I have. I'm so grateful that you've always loved and accepted me regardless of everything wrong with me. I'm so grateful you've never gotten mad at me and told me I was ruining everything. You've never hurt me either, and you never will. You don't have to worry about it. You don't have to worry about anything, because you always gave me the family that I could only ever dream of having. And I know I'm not yours, but I'm glad I make you so happy anyway.

But thank you for everything. You mean so much to me. And I hope you think of this sometimes when you really need to. I'm really proud to even just say I know you. sorry this is so long, thank you if you read it all.

[AtlasHyperion]

Dear Pygmy,

You're a nice cat, as cats go. I adopted you last November. It feels like you've been here for a billion years already. I know you don't speak Human, because (contrary to popular belief) you're not supremely intelligent and actually controlling your people, you're just kind of dumb, but I'd like to say something to you anyways.

Please, be smarter. Stop running into screen doors. Stop hitting your head on windows. Stop climbing up on tall things and jumping down just to see what happens. Stop crawling under all the carpets in the house. Stop eating entire pans of mac and cheese. Stop getting your head stuck in my tea. Stop kicking all my coworkers out of the video calls. Stop trying to play the mandolin.

I'm saying this because I care: stop being dumb.

Thanks and sincerely,
your loving owner

[JustLivinTheDream]

You say “Do you think I’m stupid.” But not once did I ever think you were. But neither am I. Every time I’m with you I feel this tension that I wish would end because it’s tiring not only for me but for you too. You are going through a lot I get that, I really do. I’m trying my best to help but apparently my best isn’t enough. I try and introduce you to new people but you always find one thing wrong with them and then automatically dislike them. I know you have standards and thats great but not everyone’s perfect, they all have their flaws, so if you go nitpicking every new person you meet, you’ll never make new friends. It isn’t my fault that I’m growing. Do you want me to stop trying and give up? Because that’s what I’m getting here. I don’t pay attention to you for the tiniest bit and you automatically shut down into your own little world. You hate me don’t you. Say it... I know you do... I’m not stupid. If you hate me this much why are you still acting like my friend. I thought that if I tried to help and make everything go back to normal but I only see it getting worse. I talked to your mom and the guidance counselor both helped a lot but neither helped you. I understand that your home life may not be the best. And sometimes you rather be any place than home but I can’t always be there for you. Those are the times you have to be there for yourself. You say how you want someone to love and love you back as much as you do to them but why not try and love yourself first. You call yourself names and talk bad about yourself but you aren’t a horrible person. Learn to be optimistic and not pessimistic it would really help you. Learn to be there for yourself before anyone else because you always come first. Patience... I keep saying it but you don’t listen. I know you said you don’t want to wait any longer trust me I know. But if you aren’t willing to wait just a bit longer, then the only person that is responsible for your unhappiness is you. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. You aren’t a bad person you’re just going through bad times. I’m still pondering whether or not I’m going to send this because I don’t know if you reading this will make things worse or better....

[| nefelibata |]

To A, E and J,

I needed to answer that call. You don't even understand how important it was to me. Even though it wasn't for a job interview or anything similar, that person needed me. I promised them I'd answer but you thought it would be hilarious to decline. I tried to call them back and
they aren't answering or responding to my messages, I am so worried.

You also put me in such an uncomfortable position which you knew I couldn't leave. Why are you guys so mean to me?

I hate you all.

[breadstick]

,

i genuinely can't tell if i'm just reading into things or if you're actually off with me. if i bring it up to you i'm just gonna make a fool of myself regardless of if i'm right. but i'm so, so sorry if i've done something wrong.
love you dude.

- cass