by General Bacon » Mon Mar 16, 2020 4:09 am
Hey,
I just wanted to get some stuff off my chest. I know you wonβt read this, but even so I want to say it. I want to tell you Iβm sorry. Iβm sorry for all the grief I caused you. No, I donβt expect you to forgive me you donβt need to. You have no reason to and Iβm okay with that. Even though I was in a rough patch of life I have come to know that it was no excuse to treat you how I did. I know how much pressure I put on you, I know I made you feel guilty for things you should never had to worry about. Iβm sorry for that. I know I made you feel alone and like nothing you did was right. Iβm sorry for that too. I know how much it must have hurt with each call I made to you and each time you had to decide to not answer it. I know I sent long unnecessary messages with hurtful things, because I didnβt know how to self control. Iβm sorry too for all of that. Thereβs so many things Iβm sorry for, and in the end I wish I had the mindset I had now, if I did itβs possible we could Have remained friends. But who am I kidding, I wouldnβt have this mindset if things didnβt happen like they did. Aside from saying sorry though, I do want to also thank you. I want to thank you for accepting me for how I was. For playing with me for countless of hours on so many games. For staying on skype for hours on end and keeping me company. I want to thank you for all the times you comforted me and always encouraging me. You had my back and I didnβt have yours. You were my best friend and lover and I didnβt respect that. Im so sorry, but also thank you for the time we shared together. I wish I could fix it all, but whatβs done is done and I am truly sorry. I wish you nothing, but happiness in your life. I wish for you to become the best artist you can become, you did wonderful art never forget that. Donβt let jerks like me get you down okay? Youβre better than that, you donβt need them. No matter what life throws at you, I know youβll get through it, even if itβs hard. Youβve got this. You have people that believe in you, I believe in you for what itβs worth. Iβm sorry if Iβve made believing in yourself harder than it should be. Iβm a real loser for that. I know I could say a thousand sorries and it will never fix what I have done and I understand that. I accept that I lost an important person in my life, because of my own actions. I will not blame them on anyone, but myself.I should probably wrap this up though, but take care of yourself, okay?