Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[enchantingxrain]

Dear best friend.

You don’t get how you hurt me. You don’t think there is anything wrong with hiding stuff from me. You think I'm dumb, you think I'm stupid. You don’t get how i hurt. You go play around with your boyfriend. And i get to sit here with no one. Not even my friends get it. They don’t want to help. They would rather see me like this then do anything. I need some new friends, ones who don’t think that hiding is okay. I don’t want to be put in the dark more than I already am. I feel so crappy. I feel as almost as you threw me away. I know you see it as, I’m over overdramatic. But I can’t with how i feel. Everyone wants to be your friend. But as soon as they see me, im unseen. Im the worst version of myself. My personality sucks. And people see it. I get why they don’t want to be friends. Im trash either way. But why when i cry to you, when I tell you my problems you just stare at me. You let me cry. And for some reason you are tearing up. We have had some great times. Some people might call this a golden friendship. But people have left me for their boyfriend, and their better friends too. Im used to it, go ahead and leave. I’ll just deal with it again. One more friendship I caused to end added to the list.

[K#%!]

dear Y,
how are you doing up there? :)
is it a nice place? i hope it is.

my life is going downhill, but
i'll try to fix it. i promise.

man, it has been almost 2 years
since that happened. i wish it
never happened. i wish you were
still there. you didn't deserve that.

anyways, i hope you're doing well
in heaven!

- Neil

[zimmerman.]

Dear D;

Im sorry I was such a horrible girlfriend. I’ve hurt you and beat you down to the point where you no longer want me. That’s something I have to live with the rest of my life. I’m sorry for everything Ive ever done.

Best wishes,
Love,
Xplr.

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Dear A;
Im sorry I ruined our friendship. I’d take back my wrongs in a heartbeat if I could.
I don’t want a second chance because I don’t deserve one.

Im sorry.

Best wishes to you and your future.
Sincerely,
Xplr.

[dakotapaws]

x,

i really wish i could be someone else.
to start over. to stop thinking about everything in my head.
but i cant and?? i dont know what to do.
its overwhelming. and i dont know how to stop it.

me

[Lostfairy]

Dear... well, I don't know - God, I suppose.
Why do I have this big lump of shadow and doubt and fear and sadness just stuck in my stomach? Day after day, it grows bigger.
I miss them. I fear I'm losing them.
What can I do?
I feel alone. I have my family so I'm not totally alone but I sometimes feel like I'm standing at the edge of a field and everyone's on the other side, enjoying life and forgetting to keep in contact like we promised?
I... I hate this. I feel like my feelings are one-sided. I feel like there's a layer of glass getting built between my side of the field and theirs. It's getting thicker everyday, yet I can still see through to the other side because it's glass.
I'm trying to come up with ways to shatter it but I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only one fighting. The only one noticing the glass wall getting bigger and thicker.
I'm running out of ideas. I thought I could break this but my hands are getting cut and tired and bruised.
My hands have faint scars from times before this where I tried and then walked away because I didn't feel like it was worth my energy.
Sometimes I wonder about those times before. Did someone else make this glass wall or did I? Did I get hurt because of them or did I cut up my own hands and ran away?
I don't know what do, God. I feel like sometimes my hands cause death and I don't know how to stop this.
Am I too feeling and emotional? Is that why it feels one sided?
...God, I have a question. Why did you make me so emotional and vulnerable?
It makes me hurt for people who I don't even know. It makes me love so hard and much for people who might not even feel the same. It makes me overly happy some days. Overly loving. Overly sad.
It makes me feel like I shouldn't be this emotional. Why do I love and laugh and cry and hurt so easily?
Sorry for venting, God.

But thank you for giving me EXO, they always comfort me and cheer up. I love those boys. <3 I'm so glad I know them.
-K

[buzzy]

friends,
why do you guys care so much? i can't speak up, i know, but i just want you to be happy with the rest of the group. i wasn't myself. i'm not myself. i know. i'm not that happy girl always making jokes and cheering you all up, and just trying my best to make you all happy, but i can't right now, i'm sorry.
i keep pushing you away. stop caring so much. i just want you to be happy. don't worry about me, i don't want you to waste your time worrying over me, when you could be having fun with everyone else.
it's just, i'm not anything special. i'm easily replaceable. you say that something like that would never happen, but you say that now. it's going to happen though. you don't notice, but it's already happening. you don't care. it's fine, i get it.
just don't worry, about me okay?

[Soll]

i love you and all but i don't want to hear about your crush 24/7,,can't we have a normal conversation like we used to??

[ukagaka]

dear d,
im sorry you slipped from my mind in the latest years. i wish i had photos of your tiny form. my new cat looks a lot like you. he sure is not like you at all though, outgrowing you by a ton. you always stayed like a kitten. i miss you, you were so sweet. i wish i still remembered how you looked. i still remember how you felt to hold and pet.
dear g,
i still feel immense guilt for how i wouldnt let you close in your last days. you just wanted comfort and i was stupidly scared of you getting sick on my bed. im glad i still spent time with you out of my room. im glad i have photos of you. your kid is still a grouchy fat cat. my sister misses you

[| nefelibata |]

Dear G,

I shouldn’t have messaged you.

I don’t know why I put myself in that position. That horrible feeling. That excruciating pain I had to endure for months and only recently overcame it. Why did I do this to myself. God, I miss you so much. I thought maybe if I messaged you, I would’ve been able to alleviate some pain. But now that our conversation flow has decreased, I keep blaming myself. I keep asking myself if it was me. “You still love me”. You said it as a joke, but I think we both know deep down I truly do. Even though I replied “no”, I think you too, deep down wished I said yes.

We’re both in pain, using dark humour and angst against each other.

I’m sorry things turned out how they are.

[Crumbcake]

Dear ???,

You are so precious to me, and I hope that maybe we'll actually be able to meet some day. Move in together like we've planned, into a snug little house near the woods, how lovely that sounds, does it not? We can adventure together, share the rest of our lives together. I truly feel like we were meant to be. I love you so deeply, I don't have words to describe it, and I know you feel just the same. I really hope it lasts for eternity and longer. You mean the world to me and more, you loveable dork. I just don't want to seem so clingy.

From, me.