by 겨울 꽃 » Tue Aug 06, 2019 10:33 pm
Dear G,
You call me immature about the breakup yet you send your friends to my DM’s to attack me and falsely accuse me of things I never said or did.
You call me childish yet you’re the one who assumes, jumps to conclusions and doesn’t listen to me.
You call me sensitive yet when I don’t message you for a few hours you think I hate you and question my love for you.
You call me stupid even though I remained calm throughout the breakup even when you brought in my personal life, yet, as soon as I bring up something even remotely close to/about you, you play the victim and act like I’ve said the worst thing ever.
You don’t understand how much this is killing and hurting me. I tried so hard to make things work for us yet you jumped to the conclusion I wanted to break up with you. You don’t even know how many times I stayed up until 4am just to freaking call you, just so I could hear your voice and make sure you were okay, even when I had school. You made me smile and gave me happiness when things in my life took a horrible turn. When I got rushed into hospital, the only thing I wanted to do was message you so you didn’t have to worry about me, but when I did, you didn’t seem to care.. Whenever I hopped online, the only things you spoke about were how other guys tried kissing you and topics that you knew triggered me. I felt so left out in group chats and that I’d be judged if I typed something. That’s when I knew something was happening to us.
And now we’re strangers. Your hatred towards me hurts so much, you don’t even understand the excruciating burning pain I get in my chest when I think of you now. I wish you’d talk to me instead of getting your friends to call me an idiot and way more crude things.
I didn’t want it to end this way, but what did I expect..
And now I’m quite literally dying because of this stupid cancerous disease and I won’t have you by my side any longer. I guess that’s what hurts the most, not having you with me anymore. Knowing you’re happier with someone else. I hope they enjoy your sweet morning messages, loveable personality and beautiful eyes just as much as I did.
I love you.. I always have and I always will no matter what.
Kindest Regards,
your now hated ex