Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[buzzy]

dear n,
i'm an awful friend. i'm sorry. i know you said it wasn't my
fault, but i just feel like it was. i hope you're doing okay,
that your foot isn't in much pain. but seeing how you we-
re this morning makes me cringe. i hope you rest well. -m

[venkos]

oh boy here we go.

dear h,
did i do something wrong? you
keep ignoring me & i don’t
know what happened. i
thought we were such good
friends and now.. i don’t even
know. please talk to me again,
i miss you.

dear f,
sometimes i can’t stand you. you
hurt me so much and you’re so
rude sometimes and i honestly
don’t know why i tolerate you.
but i do. and i’m willing to
move past it. so please, just
let us move past all of this.

dear k,
ohhh dear. i met you yesterday
and i’m already in far too deep.
i had no idea i could be this
attracted to someone. you’re so
pretty & you honestly seems like
such a genuinely sweet person &
i want to get to know you so badly.

dear a,
i’m so, so scared you won’t accept
me. i know it’ll be hard, but i’m
still going to be the same person!!
i hope you’ll still love me.

sincerely, me.

[深渊,,]

dear ___

i hate the way you make me feel. i don't know how i should feel. not with
everything you say and do. are your words syrupy sweet and as real as the way your
heart beats, or are they the saccharine drops of poisoned blackberry wine and
the glint of a naked blade drawing a carmine blood line?

you're a beautiful beginning and a bitter finish. you're a gorgeous start and a wilted
end.

are we blooming, or are we dying? i don't know.

all flowers fall in the end.

- rai

p.s. if anyone from the group chat sees this, you know who you are, you
all mean the absolute world to me.

[Midnight_Shadow18450]

Edit: it felt pretty good to get that off my chest.

To a former friend,

I’m still incredibly hurt by what you did. And how you have treated me in the past. I still don’t feel ready to talk to you.
It really upsets me that I have always been flexible with you. And incredibly patient/tolerating. And the one time I ask you to be flexible, you try and make me seem like the bad person, and try to emotionally manipulate me.
I cannot believe how selfish you acted. I asked to change plans so I could see my nephew on his birthday.
An event that happens once a year. And you scream at me (online).

I’ve always accommodated you. Changed plans for you. Put up with you constantly being late whenever we met up, even if I picked you up from over the road from where you live! I never once complained about you being late. But you clearly took me for granted, and took advantage of my kind nature. If you can be on time for your job, then why couldn’t you be on time for plans with me? Ever.

We (my friend and my sister) planned my wedding stuff around YOU. And you dare tell me I don’t take you into consideration?! How dare you! I was even planning the room lighting and entertainment around YOU cos of your medical stuff!

When we had the fight before Christmas, my last message was telling you you could talk to me when the dust had settled. You didn’t read that message for 6 weeks.
During that 6 weeks, I could have really done with support. You KNEW my mum was having major surgery for her cancer, knew how hard it was for me to cope, because of my mental health issues, and you didn’t even bother to ask how she was. Didn’t wish me Merry Christmas. By that point, I knew you were willing to throw away 14 years of friendship over your selfish, child-like, entitled, temper tantrum.

Which is when I cut you out of my wedding. You hadn’t read that message, so were clearly ignoring me. So I removed you from the bridesmaids chat, and deleted you from my Facebook friends.

Then you finally read that message. You finally talk to me, telling me you ‘were as you (I) said, letting the dust settle,’ and that you missed me and had been ‘giving me space cos of everything going on.’

Rubbish. Absolute rubbish. You had only just read that message (after 6 weeks). If you had truely cared about me, you would have reached out sooner. Even a ‘Hey... how’s your mum?’ Or a ‘Merry Christmas’ would have shown you actually cared.

But no. It took me removing you from the bridesmaids chat and Facebook for you to message me. So no, I do not forgive you. I’m tired of the way you always treated me. Acting entitled, jealous, selfish, being all ‘oh woe is me, life’s not fair to me!’I was sick of treading on eggshells around you.

So it’s over. I know you have probably gathered this as it’s been almost 8 months since we spoke. But it’s taken me that long to be able to write this down.

From,
Your former friend.

[ParaKitty]

Dear skin,
You ain’t it
I’m trying ://
School is coming and uhh pls clear up soon :))

Dear a&r,
Please hit the DMs, we’re lowkey uneasy
after a certain amount of cheesiness & flirting
in the group chat. We’re happy for y’all though.

Dear mom&gma,
Aannndd this is why my self esteem sucks. Thankss

[queen nyra]

To M,
I used to friendly call you dear, and I'm not going to start again.
You and I have been writing together for six years now, even though I should say only the first three were of any quality. We wrote for fun, for sake of storytelling, to escape our problems for a few hours a day in a world of fantasy only you and I could enter. I've always been there for you.
Three years ago she came along. I was happy for you then, but time of one month and you pushed me further and further away. Oh, you still had the face to trouble me with your problems but you never really cared for my opinion. Not anymore. Sometimes you would ask me how was life, but you never answered back after I actually told you.
Why ask me anything if you won't be there for an answer in four months?! Seriously??
You stopped writing the fic with me the night before Christmas Eve, seven months ago. I was happy, I thought that last post was a Christmas gift for me after months of scattered messages...I hoped to find you online the next morning and we could wish merry Christmas to each other like we always did...but you weren't there. Nor were you the next month, for Easter, your birthday, nothing.
Why should I be there for you now? Because you are bored for thirty seconds?
I am not going to answer any of your texts until I see you writing me for two days in a row. I want you to know how it feels to be left hanging.
You always claim you don't have a speckle of time for me. Yeah, in the era of the internet...sell it to someone else.
I really wish you could read this, but, hey, you wouldn't answer before goodness knows how long, so who cares.
I only wish you had the guts to tell me that the curtain needed to fall over the show when it was time, and not leaving me waiting, hoping...

Farewell, I guess.
N.

[K#%!]

dear L
it has been a
while, isn't it? i
bet you forgot
about me already.
i wish i could
talk to you again.

- Niko

[Raptorfang]

I figured recently that my old posts on this thread have a lot of old emotional baggage I wanna detach myself from, so I'm going through and getting rid of them to help move forward. This is sort of cathartic I guess. Ok peace out.

[buzzy]

dear the cowboys,
i love you all.. so much... during the last year, i've had such a hard time keeping a smile on my face. i was dealing with such bad mental illnesses. i had to distance myself from loved ones, including family. you all just changed my life around completely. asher, you make me laugh and smile even when you tease the things i'm most passionate about, in reality i don't really mind it. adia, you're the funniest in the group, and even with some drama that happened between us i'm happy to say that we made up and are now best friends. isabelle, you're literally the best?! you're so funny and creative, and you're not afraid to be yourself and i really do admire that about you. amanda, we've been friends for about 6 years now and i've loved every second of it. i love how we can fan girl about literally anything together and adfksjd; i don't know what to say because there's way to much to appreciate about you! lia, omg!! you're the sweetest person ever!! i'm so happy to have been able to go to our first concert together last december! it was such a great night and i just really hope we can do it again <3 catherine, i can't explain it but you always find a way to make me smile. even when we tease each other, i'm so happy to finally be close to you. you literally can make a joke about anything and i would laugh, and i barely laugh at anything. you're just an amazing person to be around, and you're so selfless and you put so much thought into things. <3 and last but not least, norah, we've been friends for 8 years and i'm so happy we're still friends. we've been through so much and at the end of the day, you really do deserve the world. you're the nicest girl i've met and i'm so happy to have had the chance to be your best friend.

you guys and gals know how i don't know how to be affectionate, but i love you all and just want to thank you all for being there for me when i needed it. *hugs*
- sincerely,
me

[neuroticism]

Dear Dad:
I know we are similar genetically, but wow we aren't similar. I wish you wouldn't tell me I was just like you or tell me that I cant do this or that because it'll affect me the same way it did to you. In my eyes you are not a father, youre a child. The way you throw temper tantrums and state that youre not all there. The way you kick your children out of the living room because you cant hear your friends on your stupid game, the way you treat the home we live in like your own personal garbage can... Dad, I don't love you and I don't think I ever can. This all began when you decided you couldn't do it anymore. You told me and my brother you were leaving and going far away. Leaving your our kids who need you to survive to go off and live with your parents because of your heartbreak and strife. But heres the funny thing, my mothers husband, you didn't go but every single one of us wish you had. Because that night we cried and let you go and forgave you for not actually leaving, but the second time I trusted you and you left my heart bleeding. I thought when you said youd stay youd stick with it. But this time you said you were sure. Two hours later there you stand, once again not leaving. Getting on your game and living with your part time job even though you have a degree that can provide you otherwise. Youre lazy and youre mean and you really like to scream. Rant about your problems on facebook and never actually get help. You say don't judge others but there you are passionate about the newest argument. You say im lazy and you say I never help around the house and im never home to socialize. To begin with, I work more hours than you. I clean nthe house more than you. I am more motivated than you. I am more mature than my old man. Congratulations, you just won an award. I hope youre happy. I will NEVER respect or love you.