by daisylin » Fri Jun 14, 2019 8:09 am
dear d,
isn't it crazy how things work out? how we know when the other is going to wake up an when the other is so close to sleep? you don't know how much I love you, even though I tell you those exact words every night. I want to see you soon, it's been to long baby boy. I hope you know that when we do hang out on monday [ if it happens ] that I will love every second of it. I love your smile and your chipped front tooth and your curls and how you hold yourself. I love how you can pick me up with no problem and that you sit me through my schizophrenia fits. You know me so well and I cannot express how much appreciate you every single day. I love you so much and our 4 years is coming faster and faster. I can see you at your house laughing with jon and it makes me happy. i dont care if your mic is all messed up, i don't care if your mom finds out. I don't care if your dad sends you to a military camp because of me, I'm going to come and find you baby. i love you too much for something so simple as us talking to turn into a fire of emotions that I know you can't handle. you're sensitive under all of your emotional armor and the metal you wear to hide the fact you hurt all the time. i know you hurt and I know why, and just knew that he loves you dearly and he's waiting for you to come home. he didnt do it to hurt you baby, he did it to free himself from this place. do you understand that baby? im not perfect, i have my flaws but I know you love every one of them
please please please never leave me. you mean so much to me <3
-k
cigarette... daydreams... you were only 17.