Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[threezeum]

dear a,
i really hate you, and i can't and won't forget forgive you, ever
you really hurt all of us, and you had the nerve to do it through
l and m. you're a horrible person. sometimes i wish for you to
just disappear but since i'm the bigger person, i'll be the one to
apologize and to get this over with. i won't forgive you though.

dear fm,
i hope you're doing well, and i hope you've achieved your goals.
i hope you're finally happy, and i hope you're in a better place.
where will you be a year from now? i sincerely hope you'll be
at peace, finally. i hope you don't hate yourself anymore, and i
hope you've learned to love yourself.

[Chloe Grace]

To K.J.H,
I feel like I’ve lost a love. Like I could somehow fall in love with you in a moment and then lose you that very next instant when I found out you aren’t here anymore.

How can I fall in love with someone I don’t know? I don’t know how but I did.

Maybe I could just sense the beauty of you just from seeing a picture of you. Maybe I fell in love with all the deep heartfelt emotion you wrote and sang into each of your songs. Maybe I somehow, beyond any logic, just knew you.

Yes, I don’t know what your favorite food or favorite color or any of those unimportant important things. And I didn’t know the big things like what makes you smile or weep, but I feel like I still have felt a touch of you. The real you.

And I fell in love with that one touch.

And oh, it hurts to know that you aren’t here anymore. I’m not sure how to deal with the grief.

I will try to patch up the broken pieces of my heart. For you, I will try. You wouldn’t want me to feel broken. Just like I wish I could have been there to love you when you were hurt and broken.

Please be at peace.

-Chloe

PS. Happy birthday. <3

[<<3]

dear h, i need you and i miss you so much, and i regret not listening to you. im so sorry. -love e

[Resplendent]

Dear G,

I'm still so happy we got to see each other. Two and a half years is a long time, and all that time really slapped me in the face, haha. Funny enough, I lost my best friend of six years the very same day we saw each other.

I've been feeling a little lost lately. A little lonely too. I don't really know what's going to happen to me and I'm just unsure about everything at the moment. I'm trying not to think about what happened between me and my friend. I think about you a lot and that has been keeping my spirits up, even though I thought for a long time my friend and I would be inseparable. We were very, very close. It's so painful to realize that I may have been wrong this whole time.

That day marked the end of an era, but honestly, I like to think that at the same time it may of opened up a new era in its place. I don't know what will become of us but I sincerely hope we stick together for many years to come. It's awkward right now, I know, but I'm confident everything will change in the coming year or two. We have our lives ahead of us and I refuse to throw away this friendship because of the circumstances we currently face.

Please do me a favor and never stop being you. <3 I'm so grateful we still have each other.

[grayce!]

dear nanny,

I would be able to send this letter to you. but you have passed away almost three years ago. I remember the day everything started going downhill. you fell at dinner. everyone was there. and I wanted to get up and help you. but I was too lazy. I wish I would have gotten up and helped you. because maybe you'd still be alive. I think about you every day. and I miss you loads. your ashes are up on the mantle. in an urn where we can put notes. I would give anything to hug you again. hear your voice. I miss you so much. I just wanna be able to hear you tell me you love me. sometimes I swear I can still smell your perfume. your little red door perfume that you always wore. I wish I could sit in your room and watch wrestling with you, laugh at the people. with a little mini coke in my hand and a pudding. I wish I could see you walk around in the blue robe. I still have the robe. its in my bathroom. I wish you knew how bad this hurts. I miss you so much. I wish I could bring you back. you were the best. this family has become so broken since you left. I haven't seen jess since you died. I cant handle it nanny. I want you to come home. please... come home. why did you have to leave us? it isn't fair. you should be here. I wish you could meet Isaac. and gavin. and logan. you would love them. I miss you so much. so so much. please don't forget me. I love you.

yours truly,

g.

[tenturo]

c,

seeing your name light up on my screen sent a wave of emotions over me that i don’t think i’ll ever forget.
i don’t know how you still managed to have a way to contact me or see anything i post, considering i’ve had you blocked for god knows how long.

do you expect forgiveness? sympathy? or do you expect what you always expected me to hand over to you all those years? what you stole from nix? from me?

you didn’t even contact me. all you did was react to my story.
and somehow, that was enough. what am i supposed to do?

someone passed me the other day wearing your same cologne and i couldn’t even make it through the rest of my day.
i sometimes wonder if you’ve changed. part of me wants you to see that i’ve moved on from it & so has nix, but i don’t want to risk seeing your name once more.

-b


z,

how is it that i stumbled upon you?
how is it that it’s so easy for you to put a smile on my face and make it so simple and easy for me to get through my days? i hope once day i’m able to open up to you about my past. maybe then you’d understand why i’m like this. but until then, i’m content with the bliss.
the careless romance. the little jokes. the “goodmorning sunshine”’s and the perfect moments i catch your green eyes staring at me in awe. ive never felt this.
am i falling too fast?

-b

[Atlas ♥]

Dear Jonghyun,

I miss you so much. My heart is aching. Although it has nearly been 2 years
without you, the pain is still there.

The day it happened is still so vivid. I remember the news broadcast and at
first, I didn't believe it, I was hoping it wasn't true. I was in denial, my brain
wouldn't allow me to consider you dead. That you were gone..

After a few days my emotions finally caught up and I was a mess. I wouldn't
leave my house, I wouldn't talk to anyone, I wouldn't eat. I was destroyed.

It took me so long to heal and overcome the pain. I'm still not fully recovered,
I don't think I ever will be.. But all I can do is pray you're resting well and that
you're at peace.

I love you so much Jonghyun, we'll meet again one day~

[chaotic creativity]

dear ______,

you've made my life terrible these past three years. but, you know what? i don't care anymore. you stole my friends, you made my teachers think i cheated on tests, you reported me to the guidance counselor and said i was bullying and hitting you in the girl's bathroom. i sunk into a very low place because of you. you did everything in your power to make my life miserable. when i liked someone, you flirted with them and then told them that i liked them and made it out to be like the worst thing that could ever happen to them. you even got my boyfriend to cheat on me with you. and, i forgive you. now, don't get me wrong. i do not, nor will i ever, want to be your friend. but i am not holding anything you did against you. i honestly deserved it. not once did you stop to think about how i felt about things other than what you did to me. what you didn't know was that i was already sinking into a dark place before you targeted me. my dad nearly died and was in the hospital for a month with guillain-berre. things happened and i didn't have a single person to turn to during this time all because of you. but i don't blame you. you're jealous. that's the root of all bullying. i hope that now you're happy with the way that i'm terrified to even go to school some days and i can barely even talk to my boyfriend when you're around because the thought of you near him makes my blood boil. but what you do isn't going to hurt me any more. try to take my friends. try to take my boyfriend. try to make my teachers not trust me. it won't work. i've become stronger and i can stand up to you now. i can voice my opinion about you without being scared that you'll pelt me with pinecones outside the school. i can go in the band room and hang out with other band members that won't leave me for you. i've still got a long way to climb if i want to make it out of the dark hole i'm in, but i've made some progress. and you will not throw me back down there again.

sincerely,
the girl you've bullied for years.

[paevent]

dear one & two
do I really have that good of a body? idk how ppl can tell when all I’m wearing is baggy clothes. honestly, I like the body I was born with, however, I could use a good workout haha. was there something wrong though? why did only today you both looked at my outfit? was my outfit good? was my outfit bad? (yep, that’s what I care about here) honestly, I love the outfits I spend hours on. there are some tough thoughts my depression and anxiety give me, but, I’m holding onto the happiness I get from life. just, don’t love only my body and not my personality. trust me, I’m tryna get to know you both more.
— three

[Kelaidochrome]

Dear AP,

I understand you're worried about me and where I'm going, but that doesn't give you the right to criticize my emotions. I am aware of what I do, I am aware of who I am, and I am aware that I respond to things badly sometimes. But that's just how it is. I'm human. Even if you want me to get better, making me feel as though all you care about is who I could be, rather than who I am, is not going to help. It's making me scared to be around you.

Sincerely,
Roman.