Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[FreakCircus]

Dear JS
I love you sooo much it's so hard to see you not notice me and I know you don't think of me as any more than an aquaintance but I've loved you for soo long and it hurts.

If somehow you ever manage to see this please don't change who you are, I love you just the way you are and I'm willing to do anything for you to notice me, I know that I may seem a bit crazy and a bit unique but I promise you that I will be whoever you want me to be.

you're perfect just as you are and I hope that someday you will notice me and I hope that one day we'll be in a happy, healthy relationship.

I will love you forever until I leave. KS

[Pinesong]

Dear x,
I had so many doubts about you before but now that everything is cleared up I feel like just a happier person. I enjoy your company so so much and you're hilarious and kind and you're honestly the best sometimes. Ever since Friday I feel just happier in general and I'm so glad that I got that off my chest. Can't wait to go see that movie on Wednesday with you all it'll be so fun
Also I'm still thinking about what you said this evening and I really can't help but smile.
You give great hugs btw <33

[solyn]

em,

when i say i love you, i don't think you know how much i mean it
i hope that you never do

i love you,
socks

[troye]

a,

you’re the best friend I’ve ever had & I appreciate you more than you’ll ever know
I hope you don’t end up disliking me, I don’t think I could take it.
I really hope I get to see you for Christmas. It’s one of the only three things I really want this year. ♥️

Thanks for being there for me no matter what
and helping me make friends when I needed them the most
I love you!

- Bella

[Loxo]

Dear D,

I miss you a lot. It hurts.
You could always cheer me up when I was sad. You were the one that always got me to smile.
You treated me like the best friend ever even when I didn’t treat you good. I feel terrible now; all those times I was mean to you, all those times I said or did something rude to you. Now I’ll never be able to repay you.
I love you, D, with all the aching fragments of my shattered heart. I wish more than anything that you could come back and piece me together again.
But you’re never coming back, and I’ll always be broken.

From: (Insert name here)

[Echo Raven]

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[halo]

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[Trexxa]

dear t,
I'm awfully sorry to write this letter to you, but I've gotta say it at some point. ...I'm thinking about changing my major. now this is probably going to come as an enormous shock to you since I've seemed so enthusiastic about pursuing a career in music in the past. in all honestly I was being pretty fake though. I just didn't want to damage your feelings and I didn't know what else I wanted to do with my life anyway. but now that fall term's coming to an end I've gotta be real with myself. don't get me wrong. I love playing piano, if I didn't, well let's just say I wouldn't have played this instrument for a whole straight 11 years. I love to get on stage and perform. as someone who's so socially anxious and can never speak up, performing on stage is my way of being the center of attention. I love the thrill, the anxiousness, and how all that melts away when I get up on stage. that's why I chose this major, in addition to me having no idea what to do with my life yet having a terrible fear of coming in undecided.

but as I said, the time's going by quickly and the time's come where I have to face reality. chances are I'll probably never make a solid career out of performing, and even if I do... I don't know if I can commit to constant touring. I got first-hand experience with that the past couple of weeks, and while it was fun, it was exhausting. you don't think I can make a career out of performing alone either and say that I'm going to someday be a teacher. well truth be told, I really hate teaching. I just have no patience, and my semi-lack of social skills makes explaining things a nightmare. my core values really are about living life to the fullest and doing what makes you happy. I don't want to be crammed into a career that gives me a sense of neither. :/ or worse yet: being so unhappy with that career I choose to do something else entirely, and wasting all that money on a degree I don't even use.

that's not the only problems I have with this major. there's the long list of things I really don't like about it. I really wish you'd cut it out with the hating on my job. you think it's so stupid that I'm working 20 hours a week and say that I need all that time to practice. well to be bluntly honest, I flat-out love my job. I love my coworkers. I love how when I'm working I can just forget everything that's stressing me out and just narrow in on the task at hand. I met the one person that means everything to me there. I'm bursting with joy at the thought that I have to work tomorrow, lol. I'd much rather be there than sitting alone at a bench for over 3 hours a day. so when you told me today that I could get a scholarship for teaching instead and eliminate my job I just totally cringed. I don't want that in the slightest.

then there's the thing called seminar, which I'm not fond of either, or the mandatory rule of attending 12 recitals a semester, yuck. nor am I fond of the upcoming juries next week. I think it's ridiculous that my entire grade for the semester depends on the opinions some people have on my 10-minute performance.

my dream job for several years now has been to work for a video gaming company. I've keep it extremely to myself though due to my mom's hate for gaming. come to think of it, choosing the major I did was really to try and please her... man, she even decided what college I'd go to. hmm. that's something for another day. anyway, I'd LOVE to work as a writer or artist for a gaming company. I've found I've had a lot of fun with my English class this semester. the professor seems to think I'm a master at writing as well, I got nearly a perfect score on every paper I wrote... I've kind of given some thought to majoring in English. it would be a lot more solid choice than music performance, as I'd have pretty much any door involving a lot of writing work open to me. including, hopefully, video gaming.

sigh, I'm nervous though. what if I find that major isn't for me either? I don't want you to hate me either, you're a great teacher yourself. and the way you speak of me, like I'm some sort of master at piano, with so much potential, it just tares at my heart to even have these thoughts in my head. I don't want to throw that potential away. I've spent 11 years on piano, it's consumed literally more than half my life, I don't want all those years to amount to nothing. :( but at the same time, I'm so tired and so done. for the same reason I've stuck to piano, I also feel like it's time for a change. time to stop doing what'll please others like you and my mother and start pleasing myself. sighhh. I'm going to try to actually bring this up to you, in person, not in a letter form, before I go home in less than 2 weeks. please don't hate me. please try and understand, and see things from my point of view.

sincerely,
your student.

(my letters on here always end up so long. guess it just shows the extent of how much I keep crammed up in my head. egh.)

[Panther202]

Dear Heartbreaker,

Years ago, we were as close as could be. We hung out nearly every day. We would have done anything for each other. We were a we.

What happened? Why did you abandon me? Replace me? Forget me?

Where have you gone? Why did you never come back?

I miss you. I miss us.

You were my best friend. I would drop what I was doing in a split second to help you.


I could go on and on. But I won't. The way you hurt me is not worth any letter in the alphabet.

I hope all goes well for you. I hope you find yourself successful.

Please stay safe.

Sincerely,
The Past.

[urban exploring]

Dear Trashcan,
Why do you expect me to accept you but you can't accept me? I genuinely hope the worst for you.
xox,
Your ex best friend whose transgender, unlike you