by Homecoming King » Tue Nov 20, 2018 11:54 am
dear ^,
right now things cannot seem to get any worse. right now there are 3 things that are weighing you down. first, your good friend tells you something that still has yet to sink in. second, mr. k is wanted for some pretty terrible things and today the awful news of his death has rolled in. lastly, dad just told you that grandpa has colon cancer.
when you first got the confession from your friend your heart was racing and you couldn't catch your breath. you showed w and he kind of laughed and brushed it off. you showed c and she did the same. no one was taking into account your feelings and how challenging this was for you. you didn't feel the same about her and you knew it. it was so hard to tell her. you felt and still feel bad about not feeling the same way towards her, but we both know you cannot force your emotions. it's weird seeing her in the halls sometimes. you still love her with all your heart though.
when you first got the news of what mr. k had done, you were leaving the house with your mom and brother to go see the new "bohemian rhapsody" movie with them and your grandma when dad came down the stairs and asked you if you had ever had mr. k as a teacher. you said no and were very confused. dad told you what horrible thing he'd done to that girl and you couldn't believe it. mr. k? really? there was no way. he was beloved by so many. you never had him as teacher, but you'd always see him on campus with a huge smile on his face that was a mile wide. he seemed like such an amazing guy. i guess it's always the one's you least expect. anyway, today you read in a news article that he was found and he wasn't with us anymore. you're not condoning what he did, but you can't help but feel a sense of loss and hurt. you wish his little boy still had his dad, you wish his wife still had her husband, and you wish that little girl got justice for what he did to her.
this final part is going to be the hardest to write. you always saw people's stories of how they or someone they love got cancer, but you never ever dreamed it was going to happen to you. you, mom, and dad were all sitting on the couch when dad broke the news so nonchalantly. all mom said was "well that's not good." dad says that the type of cancer grandpa has normally kills. you can't imagine losing him and you have tears in your eyes right now. you're seeing him this thursday and you fear it may be the last time you ever see him.
i know all of this hurts so much at the moment, but i promise that you're going to be okay. there are so many people who love you and who are here for you.
all the love,
H.