Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[neuroticism]

Dear KLE :

I feel manipulated. I feel hurt. I feel sad because you...

those are the beginnings of a healthy conversation. Those are the beginnings of something where if you loved me you would send one back.

But instead I get, "wow." or "sorry" or "okay."

When you ask to be my outlet I say yes please, but as soon as I tell you something you shut me down.

"well maybe you need to be more like this..." , "I can see why this is happening to you..."

You diagnose me with hateful words and narcissism.

KLE, who is the one who refuses to talk to me if I'm not being your therapist? Who is the one who turns everything on me because I wasn't thinking about you?

I never tell you anything anymore. I wish you would leave me alone.

I wish you would never leave me alone.

I am so confused.

-love K

[while it lasted.]

dear m and d,
what do you want to prove by taking away my everything?
that i can stop my procrastinating just by taking away everything?

[farewell]

Dear C****,

You not being able to get anything in your life together is indirectly hurting us, too. We're trying to get out of here too but that doesn't matter. You take your time because that's what is making YOU happy. There are a lot of people's lives here that need bettering and we can't do it until YOU get out.

Stop being selfish. Start growing up. You're almost 30 years old. It's time.

[beebopbee]

Listen up M'''',

Get over it k? Also, tell H''''' to seriously shut up, your mad I know but H''''' isn't helping you.

Yatta yatta your's truly, bla bla bla,
-Wolfie

[in act ive]

Dear, D...

I love you. And I hope it always works out for us, we get a house and we stay together. For as long as we can This baby needs its father and I can't do it alone. Please stay with me and never leave my side.

I know you need me. I need you too. And I will always need you. I definitely need you now more than ever.

Please don't ever leave my side.

- S

[ArtemisFox04]

Dear, M'''''

You hurt me when I was down. All my life you have manipulated me, hurt me, treated me like I was nothing. When are you going to open your eyes and choose to listen? When are you going to learn? You know how bad I hurt, you know how bad I get. But you always leave me in the dark, you leave me with nothing. Why? Is it because I exist? Is it my presence and my role in your life that you hate me so much? You know I can't let you go, you know I can't give up on you. You know you can't escape your feelings. So you take it all out on me. You push me to my limits every time I speak to you, every time I see you, every time I even THINK about you. Why can't I let you go? Because you are the one thing I need in life, you're the person that I have always loved. But now a days, I don't know where the love is between us. I don't know weather to trust you anymore, I don't know if I should love you anymore, I don't even know if I want to be apart of your life anymore. I didn't do this, YOU did. You hurt me beyond what I could ever imagine. You promised you wouldn't hurt me, you promised you wouldn't leave me, you promised you wouldn't do all the things you did to me! What did I ever do to you?! You always wonder why i'm like I am, or why I act towards you like I do. All those times we fought, and you hurt me, I came back to you. Because I needed you, I loved you for everything's sake. But you never, EVER came back to me. Why should I care about you anymore? Why? You tell me. Grow up, and get your act together. Why even bother saying that? You never listen to me, or anyone. So why? What's the point? You were suppose to be mine forever, what happened?!?! Why do you always lie and hurt me?!

Sincerely,
I'''''''

[farewell]

Dear T*****,

I don't feel like things are going to get better, regardless of whether or not we stick together.

[LokiToons]

Dear higher authorities who brought me here against my own will...
I’m really considering a future where I don’t know you. Where I don’t know either of you, because that’s just how far I’ve drifted from you guys. I don’t even like to sit at the dinner table with you, let alone with you even in the room. Never have I considered forgiveness. Ever since that one day I found out about your habits. You disgust me. But it never stopped there. I couldn’t believe you had the audacity to call me irresponsible when IM the one cleaning, cooking, and caring for my siblings. I can’t believe you had the audacity to get furious with me for not doing the dishes because I’ve been busy studying. How dare you come at me like that. I’m sick of playing your family games, when have I ever tried to let you down? I worked so hard to get a smidge of pride from you people. I pursued art to express myself and you burned my confidence time and time again. I became a writer, a role player, to improve my written language skills and you make fun of me for it. I started horror makeup because I started embracing the darker, beautiful side of things, and you’re embarrassed to tell anyone. I tried so hard to become myself and all I’ve ever gotten is disapproval, disappointment and dishonor. It’s no wonder I bottle up so much self hatred, lost so much self esteem and find myself tangled in a mess of anxieties and depressive episodes. And what if you? WHAT OF YOU? My anxieties don’t exist? They are all in my head? I’m freaking out for nothing? Another how dare you. How dare you come at me with such bull crap because you don’t understand what it’s like. How dare you blame all these issues on me. Not once can I recall a time you’ve tried to help me with a problem. Tried to comfort me in a time of need. Only when it got too bad. Remember when I was driving, before I got my license, and started bawling? I couldn’t see, I wouldn’t talk to you, and I just kept my foot on the gas? Were you afraid? I wasn’t going to do anything. I got fed up. It happens. A lot. I’m fed up. A lot. I’m at the bottom when I’ve worked so hard for the top. Each step forward I make, a comment of yours shoved me back. Every proud moment I had was shattered when you turn it around in favor of my sister. The track star. The marching band star. The social butterfly. I feel so disappointed in myself. I feel your disappointment in me because I’m not what you wanted in a kid. I’m not what you asked for. But I didn’t ask for this either. Had it been my choice, I would have given you someone better. Someone with a lot less personal problems than I. Because you can’t handle it. You can’t bring yourselves to admit something is wrong with me. Or that I’m broken. I needed someone who embraced that. Who would help me, who would make me want to grow close to them. You weren’t right for me. Neither of you were. I can’t wait to get far, far away from you guys. Don’t act so surprised when I never call. Never accept a family reunion invitation. Never attend your funeral. If anyone asks, I never knew you.

Sincerely Someone you used to raise.

[cornspurrd.]

Dear A :
I hold onto you, Because you are my only friend off line. You make fun of who I am, And you are always pulling homophobic jokes, I can't even imagine what you would say If i came out to you. You are self absorbed and rude.. And quit hitting me on the top of the head.. It gives me headaches.

Dear the better A :
I miss you alot...

Dear Gordon :
You where all i had left.. The only thing that I was sure wasn't going to leave me.. But you're gone too. Rip baby.

Dear Depression :
go away nobody likes you son of a

[Loxo]

Dear M & L,

I wish you understood.
It isn’t you, or even your choices that made me this way. I just wish that you could understand that I can’t change.
My bad attitude isn’t for you, I wish that I treated you much better. You don’t deserve the terrible person I am.
I love you; please forgive me.

Dear D,

I’m sorry for everything.
Everything you’ve tried to tell me was right; I was wrong, but my pride won’t let me admit that. I wish that I could be the ideal person you’ve tried to turn me into, but deep inside me, something is broken. You should just stop trying to fix me, because no matter how hard you try, I’ll never be able to piece together the exact same way.
I truly am sorry; just know that I love you.