We met at a time I was feeling the loneliest I have ever felt in my life, we became strong friends in a very short amount of time. Something about how you sometimes acted made me wary to trust you, especially reflecting on past bad experiences with a “best friend”. The first warning sign was when you told everyone something I asked you to keep between us, something that could have affected my life if certain people found out. That was the first time you betrayed what little trust I had in you, and for some reason I forgave you after some time, even though this was more for my own sake than genuine. Things never really got better you never trusted me, even if I gave you no reason not to, and you would always bring up the fact that you don’t trust me or that you are scared of me. It really hurt that you said you were scared of me, just because I look intimidating doesn’t mean I would ever want to hurt you for any reason, and I never did on purpose. You bring up the time when I accidentally tripped both of us up and how much it hurt and the pain “I” caused you, that made me feel like a horrible friend and made me reluctant and uncomfortable to be close to you in case I hurt you again…
Ironically I am complaining about the things you have done that motivated me to feel this way, yet you find a way to complain about everything; your parents, your friends, other really unneeded things. I always tried to listen to everything you have had to say but it gets too much where im just listening to you droning on about complaints and completely ignoring any thing I try to say. Similarly you interrupt me when I talk so I just give up talking or trying to share things that made me happy or exited with you anymore. Because you don’t listen so it makes me feel like you don’t care at all. I have tried to be enthusiastic when you get achievements both big and small I will always congratulate you enthusiastically and genuinely, but it’s hard now when you don’t reciprocate that to my achievements “ooo” doesn’t convey excitement or pride for others achievements it’s a half hearted lazy comment to “show”.
you care but it’s all a big lie behind a uncaring facade.
Finally you don’t appreciate me. How I go out of my way to run to your rescue when you are scared at home, how I invited you do do fun things and you never return the favour. You invite other people out? So why not me? No being scared isn’t an option because I’m one of your oldest and most loyal friends. I do/have done so much for you, physical forms mental forms, I supported you through your hardest times. You just call me when no one else picks up, you only text me when it suits you.
I want to leave this toxic friendship and find people who actually care and value me.
I see her, the one before you, you are both very similar in ways: how you act and how you make mistakes but never learn about the consequences. I feel like I’ve made the same mistake again becoming your friend.
A person can love you unconditionally but they can also hate you unconditionally.
A beautiful mirror can turn into dangerous weapon when broken
A beautiful mirror can turn into dangerous weapon when broken