Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[lying beast.]

Dear Self,

Honestly what have you gotten yourself into? Not only do you have to complete your requirements for school, but you also need to start completing requirements for your degree ! And after that, your prerequisites, and then after that, hoping you get into the school you want and doing non stop classes there within 2 years!
Why'd you have to pick such a hard major??? It wasn't what you wanted to do, but your parents wanted you to earn good money, so you decide to do software engineering??? It'll be hard enough to get into such a difficult field in your dream school, but not to mention it's all guys so of course you're going to have to work harder. Why couldn't you stick to something math related? Instead we have to do tons of physics (which you suck at) because your other school clumps it together with electrical engineering !

Goodluck
Me

[bloodclot]

dear c,
I hope you know that I am here for you. you never open up to me. maybe I have not gained your full trust yet, which i understand. you're smart for that. we just had a conversation, and i hope it opens your eyes. i hope you know that i know exactly how you feel, and i was once like you. and i still am like you. except ive opened my trust barrier a bit further than you. you deserve the best.
much love

[ShadowStride]

Dear Z,

If I had one superpower, it would be to turn back time. Why? Simply to undo the things I did to you, grow up a little, open up to you the way I can now.. I’m so glad that we are still friends. Truly, I am. I could not be so blessed as to think I didn’t loose you for good..

I can’t help thinking of the times we used to hang out.. that one time you took me to the roof to gaze at the sky and told me how beautiful I was.. That other time when you had to leave for a few days and hugged me tightly, kissing me on the cheek for the very first time.. When I fell asleep on your shoulder and you ran your fingers through my hair and smiled down at me.. It was those times that I wish I could go back to. Do you remember? Sometimes when we talk with your friends, subjects like those come up and I can’t help but meet your gaze - as if both of us travelled back in time for just a moment to remember..

You have a new girlfriend now, and I fear that this might be our last good memory.. She loves you, no doubt, probably as much or more than I had.. She is protective, which seems understandable considering you live so far apart.. She doesn’t know me but I seem to know every detail, you never stop talking about her.. She knows my name and hates my guts because I spend every single day at school with you, and sometimes weekends too. She is jealous, you know? So much so that my lifelong partner in crime is being pulled away. Can’t you see it?

You text me and ask me to stop talking to you for days on end.. Not because you’re mad at me, but because she doesn’t want you to be my best friend.. She wants you to block me on all of your social media.. She wants me to stop watching your hockey games and to stop cheering you on.. She wants me to stop being that person you open up to about your problems.. She doesn’t want me in your life anymore, she is trying to cut me out.. I’ve asked if I could clear things up with her and you refuse, almost like she doesn’t know how much we really talk.. Can’t you see my suffering?

Do you remember when even after we broke up, you considered me your favourite person? We had the funniest conversations and worked together to solve problems.. We had aspirations to go on all of these road trips and go skiing in the mountains.. as friends, of course.. Where did all of that go?

I miss the old times, but I know that superpowers aren’t real. One can only dream, I suppose.. Even if it kills you on the inside..

With love,
X

[Chloe Grace]

Dear K.J.

Today it's been a year since you've died.

I don't even know you and I feel this incredible sadness. It feels like there's this huge hole in me.

Maybe it's cause I'm thinking of all those other people who have met the same fate you did. It's so sad; to give up on life and let go.

I keep thinking you aren't coming back and how sad that is. All those people who loved you are without you now. They can't see your smile or hear you laugh or hug you anymore. Didn't you know how much they cared for you? And even if they didn't care for you as they should have all the time, the One who gave you life cares for you. Why did you have to go?

You had so much potential, you were so young. You had so much more life to live.

My heart is breaking for you.

You did good. You are missed.

-C

[Atlas ♥]

Dear S,

Please grow up and learn some manners, seriously. The way you are acting
is so absurd and impolite, I hate it so much.

You used to be so kind, caring and gentle but it's almost like you've changed
into a completely different person.

Love, Atlas

[mileven♥︎]

im honestly quite sad about what
happened to us t. we were close
friends, and we knew almost every
thing about each other. we would
talk every single day for hours, and
I loved getting to know you. it was
not too long ago when I realized
I was really close to you, and I had only
realized this once you were gone.
you started drifting off, becoming
more distant, only responding if
my texts were about homework.
it started to suck because I felt
like I had lost one of my best friends.
I know you have a busy schedule, and
I know that every time I bring this up
thats always what you say, it just doesn't
feel right to me. I feel like I'm the only
one holding up our friendship. I just
wish we could go back to when we first
met, when you weren't so distant.
Idk whats up with you, but its making me
feel worried, and mad, and sad, and well,
everything. I dont know how to feel about
this whole situation thats been going on,
and I know you meant the best on thursday,
but it caused a lot of my friends to get involved.
I liked it better when it was us. when we would
just waste the nights away talking about how
much homework we had to do, or how many
times A annoyed us that day. I wish we could
just be friends again. I wish you had more time
for me. I know that sounds selfish, but five
minutes a day, to make sure I'm doing okay
would be great. you know I have social
anxiety and family issues, so would it
really hurt you to ask "hows it going?"
or "u okay?" I just dont want to be the only
one of us to try to hold up our friendship.
I really need extra support right now, because life
is sucking for me. You have everything you need.
you have your 4.3 gpa, and your varsity sport teams,
and your perfect family life, but I dont. its hard enough
for me to even get a 4.0. I get you're going places,
and I'm probably not, but please, try to socially
isolate yourself less. try to actually hold up conversations
try to actually care like you used to. I dont even know
where this letter went, and it took many sharp turns, just know
that I mean every word of this. The only problem is,
you'll never hear a word of this from me. I care about
you too much to have me be another burden on your back.
have a great holiday break T..

xoxo-
Y <3

[troye]

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[ayanami]

to my formerly dearest a.
why exactly did you break up with me just because your "best friend" j didn't approve?
you sounded absolutely RIDICULOUS when you told me that.
a real best friend wouldn't have even cared, and would've let us be.
but he isn't exactly in the wrong. you are. you should've known.
i thought you were so much smarter than this, but apparently not.
i loved you and you hurt me all because of your best friend's opinion.
sometimes i still think about you and all the good times.
oh well.
i hope you realize who exactly you lost.
sincerely, a.

[Fwutter]

Dear A.S ❤
Hey i am just dropping by to tell you
how much you mean to me. Yes you don't know me. If M asked you if you knew me you would
respond with my name in question. But the few times you have talked to me i felt something.
I hate keeping this on my chest and i want to you to know how gorgeous (to me) you are. You really are
inside and out. Everything about you. I love your voice, i can detect from a long distance away.
All the times you have spoken to me it's been very kindly, accepting me for who i was
answering me when no one else would, it was big. Especially for a person who rarely gets
noticed like that. I also like the fact that you are so kind, so very kind. I love how you
always like to smile and make jokes to all and everyone. Oh and your smile is very gorgeous by the
way! Love it a lot. Unfortunately i am too nervous to actually try to talk to you
so i sit in silence and to myself about you and my deep feelings for you. All i can do now is
write you this letter anonymously.

[talkshow boy]

dear b,

i sincerely hope that you realize how much i utterly despise you. every time you visit, i tolerate you simply because it´s the polite thing to do. though i´m not even sure if you deserve that. in the end, it doesn´t matter. because as soon as i can get my own place, i will cut you from my life. you´re the most homophobic person i´ve met and i am constantly terrified of outing myself when you visit. you´ve put me down and made me cry more times than i can remember. the moment i can leave, when my mom won´t be pestering me to be happy that you´re over, it will truly be the happiest moment of my life.