i need some advice,
me and my boyfriend have been dating for a little over two months now. we're long distance and recently, last weekend, met each other in person. after that everything has gone pretty down hill. for starters, the day he was driving back home and had just left, i started having a really bad depression spike, most likely bpd episode. this dragged out for another full day, where i wasnt very responsive, slept in, didnt pay much attention to him, and had very little energy. the day after my friend had planned to stay the night, which resulted in another day where i was mostly occupied and not very communicative with him. this started making him upset with me. mostly because he had been feeling quite similar to how i did after he had left. i hadnt been comforting him or paying much attention to him. after this had become an issue another friend of mine i had been on bad terms with hit me up asking to stay the night. i had agreed as i needed to talk to her about the issues we had. this made him very upset. because this was making it the 4th night in a row his feelings were pushed aside and i couldnt be there for him. at this point the argument was very large. after i had agreed on giving him as much attention as i could and agreed to not have friends over for a while until he was satisfied. this is now the 3rd day after and this is whats happening so far. according to him we had a great day, a normal day, and now whatever today is. i dont know how to put it other than apparently im still not giving enough attention. when im trying my hardest to include him in everything im doing, we're on a call 24hours of the day as its been since the beginning of the relationship, im trying to do new things with him. no apparently its not enough. my mom took me out today and now im arguing with him over how it took me an hour after i got home to bring my focus back onto him. i dont get it. am i being selfish here. cause thats all this is making me feel like. i cant get what he just said out of my head, that the second i wake up it has to be all about him.
me and my boyfriend have been dating for a little over two months now. we're long distance and recently, last weekend, met each other in person. after that everything has gone pretty down hill. for starters, the day he was driving back home and had just left, i started having a really bad depression spike, most likely bpd episode. this dragged out for another full day, where i wasnt very responsive, slept in, didnt pay much attention to him, and had very little energy. the day after my friend had planned to stay the night, which resulted in another day where i was mostly occupied and not very communicative with him. this started making him upset with me. mostly because he had been feeling quite similar to how i did after he had left. i hadnt been comforting him or paying much attention to him. after this had become an issue another friend of mine i had been on bad terms with hit me up asking to stay the night. i had agreed as i needed to talk to her about the issues we had. this made him very upset. because this was making it the 4th night in a row his feelings were pushed aside and i couldnt be there for him. at this point the argument was very large. after i had agreed on giving him as much attention as i could and agreed to not have friends over for a while until he was satisfied. this is now the 3rd day after and this is whats happening so far. according to him we had a great day, a normal day, and now whatever today is. i dont know how to put it other than apparently im still not giving enough attention. when im trying my hardest to include him in everything im doing, we're on a call 24hours of the day as its been since the beginning of the relationship, im trying to do new things with him. no apparently its not enough. my mom took me out today and now im arguing with him over how it took me an hour after i got home to bring my focus back onto him. i dont get it. am i being selfish here. cause thats all this is making me feel like. i cant get what he just said out of my head, that the second i wake up it has to be all about him.