TheComfortCorner | V.7

[food ☕️]

Is it bad that I feel like I don't deserve to eat? I just, I weight too much, like 146 lbs. and I need to weigh less for theater and to be attractive.
I rarely eat during the day and during my everyday, tiring musical rehearsals and I always feel like I need to eat a lot when I'm with my parents for some reason.
Last Friday I actually almost passed out while my mother was helping me get ready for a party; reason was because I barely ate anything all day and it was 6:30pm.

Okay, one, you do not have to weigh less to be “attractive”. I know plenty of gorgeous, gorgeous human beings who weigh far more than 146 lbs. And besides, exterior beauty is absolutely nothing. “Beauty is on the inside.” I’m sure you’ve heard the line before and probably roll your eyes just reading it, but it’s only overused and cliché because it’s true. You could be the most “attractive” person in the world, but if your personality is trash then where is that going to take you? We are incredibly diverse and unique creatures. Succumbing to the principal that there is only one perfect figure demolishes all that is so fantastically amazing about our individuality. You are absolutely perfect, with all your flaws and quirks included. Please don’t think that being who you are is wrong. Don’t try to change that because it’s not “ideal”. You are perfect. You are amazing, a gosh darn masterpiece.

I also figure it’s worth while to mention that starving yourself actually makes matters far, far worse. Your body will begin lose trust that you will follow through in giving it food and thus will build up fat so that it may continue to sustain your needs. If you really do worry about your weight, then rather than depriving yourself of food, eat healthier food. It’s a far better alternative. Feel free to exercise. Results will not be immediate, I apologize, but I can garuntee even if it’s not yet visible, your efforts are not going to waste. Your body will most definitely thank you in the long run by keeping it healthy, with effects such as higher stamina and more energy.

I wish you the best of luck. Please take care of yourself. You’re beautiful, and don’t you ever forget that. <3

[anxious ghost]

im so tired
i got put on new meds for depression and anxiety
and i already have insomnia but it was ok until i started on the meds. ive missed over a week of school because i haven't been sleeping, and because they're making me feel like im gonna puke.
ive tried melatonin to help with the sleep issue, but it's not helping. its getting me to sleep fine, but then im back up a little bit later and i can't get back to sleep.
i don't wanna keep missing school but if i go without sleeping ill have a breakdown in class

i don't really need advice or anything, i just needed to vent a little

[cherubim]

I'm so tired.
so very, very tired. I can't find the motivation to do much these days, and my moods are just... I can't cope with them much more. I get it, I get why they're like this. I just wish someone would help me control them!
I know I'm a horrible person deep down; I'm abusive, manipulative to a certain extent and wow, I'm greedy. so very, very greedy; so very selfish. I don't know what to do any more.
half of me wants to better myself, the other half doesn't. it's a constant tug-of-war and it's tiring. I can't even take care of myself, how am I supposed to live on my own? how am I supposed to get a job, drive around, do everything others my age can? I don't trust myself, I'm scared of myself.
but that fear isn't even justified, is it? I haven't done anything. not yet.
will I? ever? I don't know. I just don't know.
I wish this would end.

I just needed to vent, sorry. I didn't want to bother friends and such with ramblings.

[onion]

my dogs at the vet cuz hes throwing up and shaking and my other dog got my finger twisted in her collar so its all purple and swollen and im having a horrible morning i could really use some pms or something...

[cornspurrd.]

I am really confused, I am too stupid to figure this out... Just going to pretend I know how to do this.

My dog is sick so I have nobody to help calm me down.

I'm worried because my teacher keeps spamming my email asking about the permission slip I don't have the money for.

And I'm sick myself.

Why Am I here again?

[Monomares]

This is a positive vent(kinda? Idk)

My weekend was horrible. We didn't have school friday, so it was a long weekend.
Starting with friday:
It was pretty okay. I had a therapy appointment for my anxiety and it went well, and I felt fine afterwards. I skyped with my friend for a while until her internet crashed.
Saturday wasn't bad. I watched A Nightmare on Elm Street for the first time with my dad. We got to the end of the second movie before the corner of my right eye started hurting. It was concerning, but I just ignored it.
When I woke up on Sunday, the corner of my eye was hurting again, but it wasn't too bad. I messaged with my friend for a bit before I started seeing things. If you've ever had a migrane, you probably know what I mean, when parts of your vision just seem to disappear. My head started hurting around 11 am, but I waited until 11 30 to take something. I laid in bed for about an hour trying not to throw up. Then, at about 12 40, I threw up. My dad sat with me for about half an hour while I recovered, and my headache had lessend into a dull ache. I stayed in bed, and was feeling better.
Then Monday hit. Oh my god, it was horrible. I woke up feeling okayish? But when I was getting ready I started feeling really sick and stressed.
Right when we were going to leave, I just started breaking down and crying, and eventually convinced my parents to let me stay home.
5 and a half hours. That's how long I laid in bed. I felt like I was losing my mind. When I got up, I was still stressed. I tried carving my pumpkin, which stressed me out even more. Then, before bed, I started having really bad anxiety. I got to try out my new anxiety medication, so at least we now know that it works.
I felt kinda stressed this morning, but I'm feeling better! My dad just texted me as I'm writing this and asked if I wanted to go buy some candy for tonight since I'm not going out.
(Response will be HELL YEA FAM)
I don't need any PMs, I wouldn't be able to respond anyway, I just wanted to vent a bit.

[cornspurrd.]

I started to cry in science.

I'm about to cry again.

Help.. I don't want to.

I'm going to get laughed at.

[decembuary;]

i'm about to take a test that could either ruin my life or save it

[quit-cs]

i really wish i didnt feel sick today ):
it's been on and off today where i feel fine and then i feel sick again like 20 minutes later

[rainbowwrowell]

I wish.. I could feel like I was...

Just pm me.. I dont wanna rant here.