everything just seems to be falling apart lately. i feel worthless and unimportant. my best friend is ignoring me.. she hasn't talked to me in like a month.. our only type of communication we have is over text of social media, and she isn't answering me. and I keep seeing photos and videos of her with some person she met at school, talking about how they're best friends and stuff. i know i'm being selfish, i should be happy that she has made a new friend and that she's happy, but i just can't help but feel hurt when i think about how we used to do so much together and then she just stopped talking to me the day after i came out as bi to her.
i'm starting to think coming out was a mistake, people are treating me so much differently now. i got some hate comments on instagram after talking about me sexuality lastnight. why do people hate me simply because of who i love? it's not like I chose to be like this, it's just who i am and i'm a human being, just like them. i think I should be treated like one. i can't take much more of this.. i want to just disappear. i have no one to tell how i feel, so i just have to keep it all in.. i honesty don't know what to do... i need some distraction, but everyone almost everyone i roleplay with has abandoned me.. roleplaying is like my distraction.











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