TheComfortCorner | V.7

[Swishy & Broken]

Its 5 AM and I was looking at pictures of them again, of her. I feel like I really did her wrong, but I know that I didnt. I know she used me (not only to feel better about herself but also to get stuff her way all the time). I know she never really cared to be my friend, though i was genuinly giving the girl who had no friends a real friend. I feel awful for just up and blocking her on messanger, for telling her that it's her fault that I was even trying to be nice again. I feel like it's my fault all the time, but it isnt.
And worst of all, I feel like I could never make him as happy as he was with her. I see their pictures, I see his smile. He's so.. wonderful and bright. I feel like I'm trapped in this awkward cycle of trying to push myself away from him, then coming back and realizing how absolutely awful I am. It's trapped me, I can't do anything anymore and I feel like I can't even think now. I know he doesn't like me, he's heard about what I've done before, he hates people who do what I did. But he is my friend, and somehow we have these.. soft moments that always lead me to not giving up on him. I want to cry, I can feel that knot in my throw. It's been so hard trying to figure this out, especially when I can't even figure my own future out.

I need to buckle down and stop with all the junk, I've gained 20 pounds since my grandmother died 2 years ago. That's insane. I can't keep gaining weight or I'll feel worse. It's so terribly hard to like myself as is. 160 pounds, 5 foot 3. No muscle mass, pure fat. That may not sound like much, but it is, I hadn't gained weight in 4 years prior to these last two. I used to think I was fat even then, but now .. it just feels so wrong to even say that I want to be smaller again. It's like I've done something to deserve this.. I don't know.

[mean&gay]

not sure how big of a thing this really is, but it's bugging me like crazy.

i'm trying to talk about this without offending anybody.

so, i'm a [ closeted ] member of the lgbt community, and a fairly open supporter of it.
as you probably know, certain religions are against that kind of thing [ of course, this doesn't apply to every member of every religion, but it's that fact that it does apply to some people ]. i've noticed a few religious people on this site who mention that they are against the lgbt community. not in a hateful way or anything, but they make it fairly clear that they don't like that kind of thing. and i feel like i have no right to say anything because after all it is their belief. it just upsets me so much because i've gotten to the stage where i know who i am [ transgender ] but i'm terrified to tell my friends and family, and it's stuff like this that keeps me hiding in the closet. at least, in real life. no one i know personally knows my online aliases, so i'm quite open on the internet.

so yeah. i don't wanna be offensive or anything. it just bugs me. a great deal.

[Akatsuki]

Report cards are coming out soon to tell me wether or not I passed. And I just have a horrible feeling that I didn't.. what if my two closest friends did..?

[madness,]

this is such a dumb thing to be upset over
i'm finally getting a chest binder that i've wanted for so long. it was supposed to be here today but they haven't even shipped it yet.
i was supposed to go somewhere today and i was looking forward to it but now i'm starting to get really bad waves of dysphoria again and i don't even wanna go anymore
i feel like crying

[Kirstenthegleek]

I don't know what to do. It all feels wrong. It all happened so fast. I got the call. My friend who was watching her, my little light, my goat who I've had forever, was crying over the phone. They found her out in her pen. She is gone. She is gone.

[Zacharie]

i'm tired of putting up with her

she treats me terribly and claims it's an accident and that she isn't singling me out

i tried to leave the server and they called me terrible things and i confronted her friends saying all of it

they tore me apart i don't know what to do
i'm back in the server they'll hate me if i leave again i left too many times already
my stomach hurts

[arabella !!]

he doesn't want anything to do with me unless there's something in it for him.

I'm so sorry hun! I hope you get to talk to him soon. <3 -hugs-

[Nannernanner07]

(L, M, C, FM and A are my friends)
I just can't do this anymore
All my friends except for one have left me in the dirt all alone
L, M, and FM are in college
C isn't talking to me anymore
A misses me but I haven't talked to her because of me missing my other friends
I miss them all
I think I have talked about L, M and FM here before but I need to let it all out again
I miss them
It hurts to be alone
I started sleeping more out of staying up late crying
I get excited every time I log on the games my friends and I play but they're never there
I try to contact them but they never answer
Why do these things happen
They were all amazing
I miss them so much

[LizzytheWolf]

I just found out a couple hours ago that I failed my algebra final.
My parents are going to Florida without me as a punishment and I have to stay home with my mom's friend who hates me because she thinks I'm an egotistical sadist. She won't let me do anything without her watching for a whole month, she still thinks I'm a little kid and apparently I need to be supervised. The only upside is that I get to be with Justin.
I can't take my final again because it's too late. I need an algebra credit to pass, I failed the year. I failed and disappointed myself and my parents.
I'm a failure.

[alaski]

i feel like crying out of nowhere. i still feel like my ex gf stalks me on social media i'm scared to death. why do i have to go through this? what did i do to deserve this?