- I could really use some advise, and I don't know where else to turn.
My family is moving this summer; tomorrow, my parents are heading to the house we're mostly buying for the inspection. I haven't seen the house yet, and if I don't go to the inspection, I won't see the house until we move in.
The problem is, going would be a long and boring day. I don't do well in the car unless I'm the one driving, and it's a two hour drive to the place, and naturally a two hour return drive. The inspection would be 2-3 hours long of doing...nothing. Basically sitting around doing nothing in a house that's not yours sort of thing. I had really planned on spending tomorrow being productive in terms of commissions and writing as that's what I really enjoy, but if I go, that won't happen; I get carsick so I couldn't draw or write in the car. I might be able to take my laptop and one of the cars somewhere during the bulk of the inspection, perhaps sit at a Starbucks, but despite the fact that I'm an adult, my dad is against me heading somewhere else for a few hours? I don't really know why, it's not as though I'd be doing anything useful there, there's a good chance I'd just nap in the car or something, or bring my laptop and sit in the car and write off wifi.
On the other hand, if I don't go, I won't get to see the new house, and I don't love that idea. I need to fully understand a situation to feel comfortable, and it might be too taxing on my anxiety not to have seen the house.
Basically, I don't know what to do. The day just sounds like hell incarnate if I go, but I don't know if I'd be comfortable not going. But I'd be going just to feel sick and headache-y all day, so I don't know if that's great either.
If anyone has any advice or another angle, I could really use it; I'm completely at a loss.
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I'm just really upset by the intolerance in the world, and I know it's sort of silly to come on here complaining about the state of the world, but I just feel so...defeated. We've turned into a world of us-verses-them; so many people are prone to believing their side and refusing to hear the other side. And yes, I'm talking about every side of every issue; there's no side that's guilt-free. Too often, when we face differences in opinions, we dismiss them with off-handed insults, and refuse to even consider what led the other side to their opinion. You don't have to agree with them, but we owe it to each other as a people to hear each other out? Every person deserves a voice. I'm tired of seeing discussions fall to immature name-calling; certainly, we're better than that, right?
Why can't we just love our fellow human being? Why do we build the walls between ourselves and those who challenge us? This is something I know I'm guilty of, and I strive every day to become better, because what's the beauty in a world where we close our eyes to anyone who isn't just like us? Why are we creating such horrible conditions, why are we so divided? Disagreements aren't supposed to drive us apart like a wedge; disagreements are what challenge us to become better and to build something greater than ourselves. This world should be built on love and acceptance, not on hate and disregard for one another.
I know it's silly, but I wish we were able to move towards something better. There are so many amazing people in the world. Why are we shutting ourselves off?
