TheComfortCorner | V.7

[♥kittyfaith2210♥]

I am so scared of everything all the time. I hate it. I get so nervous around everyone, my brain tells me they just hate me. My little brother will come up and hug me and tell me he loves me, and I flinch, push him away, and say that he's lying he just really hates me..

I am just crumbling

[waspinator]

the past few days have been very hard and it's not going to get better for a while. i really do feel that nothing i do is good enough. i'm falling behind with my work but i also can't keep up with the things i enjoy. it all feels pointless.

i would love some encouragement / comfort pms to read in the morning if anyone is able...

[ingenuity,]

Hello, there! Yes, you. That beautiful person scrolling past this post!
If you need someone to talk to or need someone to comfort you, I will be here <3
Feel free to ask me advice on life or just vent, I will always listen to your issues! I will do my best to comfort.

[saeko]

I don't even know what's wrong with me. I feel like I have some kind of mental illness (or heck, even multiple), and at the very least some kind of behavioral issues. I want to go to the doctor to find out, but my parents just put it off as 'lack of attention' or 'lack of food' (a byproduct of one of the things I've been doing). When every day is basically obsessing over body weight, constant mood swings, wanting to cry, irritability, and just overall... feeling wrong-ness (and not even knowing WHY), how could I be ok with it?

And it makes me feel horrible because whatever is going on in my head is causing me to be irritable and I take it out on my family and I know they are getting to the breaking point (this sounds horrible but it's involuntary and because I feel so constantly angry at the world all the time... I try my hardest to prevent it, believe me I do)... But I don't even know how to fix this because they won't help me! And I'm constantly wondering, what could I even have wrong with me? What if I think I have one thing and it's something totally different?

But then I wonder, maybe it is just my lack of attention or food or just being a bad person or whatever. Maybe I'm some self-diagnosing loser. It feels like if I'm not just some extreme variant of whatever's wrong with me then I should just deal with it. I shouldn't be doing this and ranting like this and complaining like this. I just... ugh. I can't deal with life right now, and all I want is a doctor. Love you, parents. :)

[dolan duk]

@ the fujoshi
you are AWESOME just the way you are. don't worry too much, I've dealt with something a bit similar where i've felt the same way before. it SUCKS. to take you're mind off of it, buy a cheap adult coloring book and some crayola watercolors, and just have a ball. it helps me take my mind off of stress, and it just calms me so much. my method was to do this and when i thought about other things and temporarily forgot about it, it went away. it's really therapeutic, and this is something to kind of keep you stable ( is that the right word? ) while you wait for you're parents to accept you. you're health is really important, so if you think there's something wrong with you, you should go to a doctor. tell your parents what you're feeling, describe it. its going to be harder then it seems, i know, but it's all for a good cause. you're not complaining, you're searching for comfort. just hang tight, okay?

[Mønty]

x

xxxxxxa lot has happened recently. maybe it's for the best, or maybe for the worst. i really don't know. i almost feel as if
xxxxi deserve everything that's been happening to me recently. i've been distancing myself from almost everyone that i
xxxxknow, and i sometimes wonder why i'm doing this. my friends have been avoiding me recently. they've been ignoring
xxxxmy calls and my messages. it's making me so anxious; they haven't told me where i've gone wrong- if i have, that is. i
xxxxjust wish that they would tell me so i could fix what i've done wrong.

xxxxxxnot to mention, i've been putting a lot of stress onto myself with school. it feels like no matter how hard i work, none
xxxxof it makes a difference to my grades. my math teacher called me in a few days ago; i had gone up six sub levels in the
xxxxspace of two or three months. i'm currently the third student in my year who has gone up the most levels, and saying that,
xxxxi'm one sub-level away from being the highest student. but no matter what i do, i keep telling myself that it isn't good
xxxxenough, and that i have to work harder or nothing good will ever come out of me and what i'm doing with my life. i think that
xxxxi'm scared that i'll get to my gcse's and i'll just blank, and whatever i'm left with is going to fail me completely. i just wish
xxxxthat my family hadn't put into my head that i NEED to get good grades, and work as hard as dang possible or i'll end up
xxxxwasting my entire life. i was actually sick because of stress a few days ago.

xxxxxxalong with this all, i've cried myself to sleep every night for the past week. i hate saying that i cry; it just makes me
xxxxfeel weak and vulnerable. i want to take performance studies, singing lessons and acting lessons, just like i used to.
xxxxhowever, recently, i've lost whatever confidence i've had. it tears me apart to see all of my friends so confident and
xxxxamazing at theatre. not that i'm jealous or that i don't want them to do well at theatre- it's just that i wish i could go
xxxxback to the way i was, and be with them, messing about and having fun. i have a reputation at school for being
xxxxthe 'two-faced' kid. i'm quiet and calm, but i can be the most violent and aggressive kid in the school at the right time.
xxxxi want to go back to being the cheerful, outgoing and jokey agender kid i once was. i love watching musicals and well,
xxxxeverything about them just calls to me. but i know that i should just go for law, something that'll actually get me somewhere.

xxxxxxi just maybe wish my family would stop putting things into my head. maybe then i wouldn't feel so split in my head. maybe then
xxxxi would know what i want to do. their jokes about my singing being "bad" have ruined me and whatever confidence i had left.
xxxxmy family make me sick. it doesn't feel like i have control over my own life anymore. i just don't know what to do... dangit...

xxxxxxthank you anybody who even read part of that... it's just a harsh time for me. hhh. <3 -avi

[kolechia]

My dad broke my phone and refuses to accept any blame for it.

Why is he so stubborn.

[♡Chocolate♡]

be gone for months at a time, miss christmas, miss easter, see if i care

[Seasonal]

My mom hosted a party and neighbor wanted to park his golf cart somewhere so she let him park it behind our garage but my dad couldn't get his truck out so he called my mom a -removed- and I was up in my room pretending to sleep and it went on and on with my mom trying to call him down. It's the next day and he still is cussing at my mom about. They have never had any issue's that I know about.. Help..

[䏠xote]

there's not a day that goes by where I wish he wasn't born.

i had never consciously thought about it before my therapist asked me. "do you think he caused all of this?" no. i didn't think that. not before then. after then, it was different, when i look at him, i feel hatred and pain. when i see him smile, it enrages me. he doesn't deserve to smile. he doesn't deserve to be happy. not after he took everything away from me. it seems selfish to blame someone just for existing, but if he hadn't been born my life would've never turned into the hell it is now. if he hadn't been born i could have been like our youngest brother, alive and happy and full of potential. i hate him for taking that away from me. i hate him for turning my life into a nightmare. i hate him for every day i have to live struggling with ptsd and anxiety and depression and suffering. i hate him for being the only thing i have that has any importance to me.

i hate him. i wish he hadn't been born. i blame him. i blame him for everything that's happened to us.

i just want to be normal, and because of him i can never even possess any kind of illusion of that. never.