TheComfortCorner | V.7

[OKULTRA]

I want to run.
Far, far away from this dreadful house.
I know the only reason they keep the computer out in the open is because
1. They can't trust me
2. I will never leave my room
I wish I never left my room, in fact.
I want to run far away from this dreadful house.
I can't deal with this.
There's so many things that I want to say.
But I can't, not even on here.
It would make me feel so much better to discuss all the things wrong with me.
But I can't.
I can't cry.
My grandmother would find out, try to comfort me, fail, not sleep, talk about it to my mom, have her ask me why I was crying, and then I would have to look for a reason that was not "I'm depressed and I hate myself."
i can't talk about it.
Lord knows what my family would do, and they especially wouldn't believe me. Of course my dad would just think i'm looking for attention as always.
I can't make it any better.
I can't take anything like therapy or pills for personal reasons, and there's nobody to seek help from.
I'm so helpless and i'm a problem child and i can't
I don't know what to do anymore.

[arabella !!]

I don't really feel like talking about my frustrations, just sitting here and sighing to myself listening to Cage the Elephant.

I hope everything's okay. <3

[Montgomery Gator]

I'm tired of this mental 7 hour torture have everyday. I probably would not have the worries I have today if they just made the 7 hours less stressful and painful. but clearly they don't care

[Montgomery Gator]

I feel like vanishing and never coming back. i'm so tiered of feeling like this everyday. I want answers not pills to my problems.

[godot]

I so desperately need a PM right now. Please.

[turtle...]

I'm a procrastinator.

it has become a problem.

I have a paper in religion due tomorrow that I'm still missing like, four pages on, and I have not even started thinking about finishing. last night I hadn't even entered my room door before I started crying because I felt so stressed about school work that I need to do that I have absolutely no motivation to do. I always do things at last minute. papers we have had months to do, I deliver five minutes before the due is, because that's when I finish it.

I wish I could just.. invent a freaking robot that did the work for me.

and also I absolutely hate the world I live in. why are grades so important - they didn't use to be.

music has been lifting me up lately - I go nowhere without my earphones. I guess it's good I have something that makes me happy. for so long. I don't even know if I'm depressed or not - but that's the only word I have found that can describe how I feel. empty, hollow, blue.

I don't even remember why I started writing this in the first place. probably so I could procrastinate the work I should be doing

I did not finish it. I set my freaking alarm for 5:30 in the morning so I could get up and do it but I didn't care enough to get out of bed and start writing so I just didn't. I feel so useless and I need good grades to get into the school I wanna go to next year and I just ughhhhhhh please send help. I freaking want to throw my computer in the wall.

[:-(]

I'm giving up.

If I recieve one more Jam A Gram on how much a faliure I am, then that's it.

[sinpai]

sigh I miss having friends and not being a loner...like this really sucks...going through a break up all alone...It takes its toll. You know you've been treated bad when his best friend is actually shocked at what he's done to you and comforts you because they know mental pain is hard to go through especially since they never expected it...If anyone can please pm me stories that gave you hope in life and made you feel better or just...talk to me about anything..

[.zombie]

theres a student+teacher basketball game today and i completely forgot. small talk is so hard for me plus i dont have my phone with me so there is no escape. id appreciate a pm please
honestly im thinking about running away from school or walking home or something??? my social anxiety is off the charts today help,,

[leverage]

When people are blatantly rude and offensive for no reason whatsoever.
Like, there is no reason to be a complete jerk.
There's no reason to call a group of people idiotic in your signature, social media profile, on the street, in your jokes.
It doesn't do an ounce of good in the world, and so many people are hurt by it.
You can choose not to like someone. You can choose not to associate with certain people. You can think something is daft, worthless, etc. It's your right. However, what in the world do you gain by making people feel bad about themselves? What does insulting someone do? Does it make you feel better about yourself- are you that sick of a person?
There's no reason for it. It's okay to disagree with someone without being a jerk about it; in this world, we need to respect each other. We need to learn that its okay to dislike someone or disagree with someone's opinions without it becoming a personal attack, and without broadcasting it.
I guess I'm just so tired of seeing people hate on broad groups of people who can't defend themselves. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, and I would never, ever seek to deny that. The only problem I have is when people turn that into meaningless, unnecessary insults.
Where did basic human respect go? Where did care for our fellow human beings go? When did we adopt such a silly us-verses-them mentality? The world has so much to offer; there are billions of amazing people on this planet who deserve to be respected and heard. Why are we so prone to knocking people down simply because they're different than us?
I guess I'm just upset by all this. Please don't reply to me on this thread or quote; I'll probably remove this because, somehow, voicing a wish for basic human respect is controversial somehow, and I'm sure someone will attack me for it.

I just want a world where we can learn to see the other side instead of blindly insulting it.