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xXFoxfaceToastXx wrote:I'm freaking out, I got so few outcomes that I pretty much only have a quarter of the outcomes, and likely even less! I'm offering summer pets from two years ago for them and yet i just get cancels. I really wish people would stop the hype/greed train and want '09 rares for each current summer pet.

Nishinoya Yū wrote:xXFoxfaceToastXx wrote:I'm freaking out, I got so few outcomes that I pretty much only have a quarter of the outcomes, and likely even less! I'm offering summer pets from two years ago for them and yet i just get cancels. I really wish people would stop the hype/greed train and want '09 rares for each current summer pet.
Unfortunately, we are only human. I would suggest waiting until the demand/hype goes down, or trade your duplicates away for the pets you are missing.
CommanderOfLaserCats wrote:So, my mom left about two hours ago without telling us where she was going. She just said that she was leaving for a bit. Her phone keeps going go voicemail, and I'm really anxious. Anxiety I can deal with, but I'm on the verge of having an anxiety attack. I'm sure she's fine, in a matter of fact I know she's fine. My problem is that I have severe anxiety problems that, ironically, were caused by her.
When I was young, I had separation problems. I would break down when my mother said she'd be gone for a day or two for her races. Of course, it became problematic, so my mom came up with the best solution ever. When it was time for a race or event, she'd say that she was leaving to the store for an hour. Of course, it wouldn't be an hour. She'd be gone for days on her races. It worked for a short amount of time, but now I have severe anxiety problems. If someone says they'll be gone for an hour and it's been an hour and five minutes I break down. I'm afraid that they've abandoned me. I know that they haven't, I know that I'm fine, I know they're coming back, but I break down anyway. There is literally no way for me to calm myself down. I can't do it. I break down so bad that I curl up into a ball and cry until the person returns. The worst is that my mother often laughs at me for doing it.
I'm sorry about the long, personal story, but I just had to get it out. No one listens to me, they always tell me I'm overreacting, they don't care. No one understands. They just tell me to get over it. I can't do it. It's not something I can control, it just happens. The worst is that whenever I try and talk about my problems to my mom, she never fails to try and one-up it. "Hey mom, some boys were bullying me at school." She then tells me about how all the boys were into her at school and how they'd fight each other to get her. "Hey mom, I've had thoughts of hurting myself and I want to see someone because I don't want to make rash choices." She then goes on about how many times she almost killed herself and how I'm fine. I can't stand it. I come to her to get things off my chest, not for her to complain about how much worse her life is. The worst is how passive aggressive she is, and I can't handle it. For some reason, when people are passive-aggressive it screws me up. I get angry because I need the person to be direct. IF YOU WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING, JUST TELL ME! DON'T PLAY MIND GAMES!
Anyway, I'm not scared that something bad happened to my mother. Judging by her stories, the only way to hurt her would be by dropping a nuke on her. I'm scared that she's going to be gone for days again without telling us. That she's gone back to lying to my face.
I just can't look at her anymore. The way she ostracized me after I decided to take the chance of a lifetime and go with my dad to Germany. To finally use the German I've been learning over the past three years. She tells me I'm making all the wrong choices and that I should be more like her. The truth is, I want to be nothing like her. I don't want five accidental children. I don't want three marriages. I don't want to drop out of college three times. I want a stable job. I don't want my siblings to hate me. I don't want my own children to hate me. I don't want to be passive aggressive and make people hate me for it. I DON'T WANT TO BE THE JUDGMENTAL JERK THAT FEELS THE NEED TO ONE-UP HER OWN CHILDREN WHEN THEY TRY TO TALK ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS. I DON'T WANT TO BE ANYTHING LIKE YOU.
I'm so sorry that I come here so often, or that I speak so much. I just need somewhere to dump my emotions where I won't be judged, where I won't be hated, where I can just get everything off my chest. I'm sorry for bugging everyone, I just need somewhere to release all of this pent up anger and cry so that I don't do something rash. So I don't hurt myself or someone else. I'm sorry for bugging whoever's reading this or for making such a large post. I just can't keep holding it all in.
Three weeks. Three weeks and I'm in Germany. Just me, my stepmom, my dad, and my sister. Three weeks and I'm out of this craziness.
I'm sorry for making it so long. Feel free to ignore, I just needed to get it off my chest.






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