TheComfortCorner | v.6

[FooFarny]

I'm so sick at how my mother treats me

Yes I know I did move in with nan and pa 3 years ago instead of staying with you and your partner I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for not being a normal healthy child you always wanted.
I'm sorry dad died 19 years ago.m

But you have no right to treat me like I'm nothing! You ignore me, you make me feel invisible. You make me feel like crap.
You treat your partner like he is more important. On Christmas you spent thousands of dollars on him but me? You only spent $10 on me. Not that it matters because I am thankful I even got anything but you spent so much on him.
and you forgot my birthday, like every other year. Do you not care about me anymore.

I just don't care anymore.

None of you have to respond, I just feel very upset right now and I wanted write this.

[fika.]

It's beginning to hit... No more pretending it didn't happen.
My neighbor passed away.
I feel so bad.
I was not there for her enough.
She was helpful all the ambulance rides I had.
She gave me a beanie baby, and was always so sweet.
I just...
How could she die?

first off, rest in peace for your neighbour. death is always a
tough thing to deal with. secondly, don't be mad at her for
dying. unfortunately, the worst part about living is dying.
she was happy to help you in all of those times, she did
it out of kindness. she didn't expect anything in return.
and i'm sure she was just thankful that you were making
her day. she seemed like a sweet character, so remember
her for the person she was. that's what she would want, right?
to be remembered for her memories. so don't let those
memories die, and start appreciating the people surrounding
you more (: i'm not saying you don't, because i am one hundred
percent certain you do, but don't take them for granted.
it's a privilege to be surrounded by people who love you.
good luck boo!<3

I am feeling rather homesick

I miss my dad and my dog especially.

that is one hundred percent a-okay! it's okay to be home-
sick, it's completely fine. it's something a lot of people have
to experience every day. have you been in contact with you
dad? maybe to help with your homesickness with the two of
them, look at photos you have with them. that'll help you
out. and write letters! even if you aren't able to send them,
the letters can help you out a bit. good luck, and enjoy
whatever you're doing!<3

i feel like i'm going to cry but the tears won't come
i feel like puking but my stomach is empty

what changed?
why did anything have to change? why couldn't we stay happy?

that's okay, it's okay to feel this way so if you're thinking it's
not, it is okay. i'm unsure on who this post could be about, b-
ut hopefully things work out. you deserve to have someone th-
at makes you happy in life! if things don't work out, there will
always be someone else. the only thing that has changed is you
as people, and some things aren't meant to work out. good luck
boo!<3

my dad hates me.
he has been ignoring me since.

your dad doesn't hate you! why would he hate you? he may ju-
st be extremely busy. he might not have time to message you
out of the blue. have you tried messaging him? talk to him ab-
out how you feel! it takes two people to understand a situation
one of the people are struggling with. good luck boo!<3

finally i let my friend come over. and we are going to go swimming and to the lake eventually. i am so proud of myself because i finally let my friend come over after i kept pushing away.

yayayayay! good job! we're all proud of you for over-coming
something you didn't want! be proud of yourself! let the who-
le world know how proud you are of yourself! keep being
proud of yourself for as long as you live! i'm glad you got over
that small obstacle. good luck boo! enjoy it!<3

i've got a friend

lets call him owen

i met him almost three years ago, we dated once and we broke up because he never wanted to spend time with me. after that, he disappeared. i didn't see him for a year. that was one of the hardest times in my life because i felt like it was my fault. but then he came back. and i was so happy, but at that point i had moved on. he was dating someone else, who happens to be my friend. we'll call her emily. owen.. changed. he became mature, but.. bland. he seemed boring and he didn't care about anything but video games. he talks about how he hates his life & wants to kill himself, but he's never done it. and one night, me and owen stayed up for hours just talking and bonding, and i was so happy. everything was going so well. at that point i thought i'd fallen for him again. but then a few days later everything changed. he started insulting me and being stubborn. he's always been stubborn, but not like this. we don't get along anymore. the nights usually end in arguing or something negative. i thought everything would be okay, but everything's changed. we've run out of things to do. things to talk about. our lives aren't interesting enough to have a conversation anymore. and it hurts so much. i miss how it was that one night where we talked and bonded. i want that back. but tonight he just.. he told me how unhappy he was. that everybody hates him and there's no point in staying around anymore. i told him that if he's that unhappy he should just leave. and oh my god i regret that so much. we don't get along. we don't talk. but i don't wanna lose him. i've loved him for so long. i've lost him, twice. i don't want to lose him and never get him back. i shouldn't have said anything. i should have just kept my mouth shut. i miss how it used to be. i just wanna know what changed.

don't bother replying to this, nothing's going to change.

you say not to reply, nothing will change, but i will anyways!
listen, it's fine. friendships change, and it sucks what has ha-
ppened. but tell him before it's too late. tell him you never
meant it, and tell him all of what you just said. just do it.
message him, call him, whatever. just be like "hey i said this
somewhere and the person told me to send you this message
so here it goes" and then send him that whole paragraph you
just wrote. you may not want to, but please do it. some people
with that state of mind are looking for a sign, and this could
be that sign. he may realise people do care, and he'll realise
you're the most important person in his life and you may have
just saved him. please just send it, and do anything you can
to rebuild that friendship, because he seems like a very
important person you want and need in your life. good luck,
i hope everything works out <3

I'm sorry for this but I am feeling very uncomfortable.
I get that a lot of people are putting stuff that is seriously not even close to happy but I'm scared.
I'm going to church camp Monday.
Problem?
Dramatic girls who care about nothing but themselves and who they can make feel like crap. Counselors who were "dramatically saved by Jesus as they were going through a hard time". It's all the same. And why am I so upset about this? I'm an atheist and I've told my mom that, yet I keep getting dragged into this same damn camp. I feel like a fish out of water. I don't want to leave. I have to get up at 6 in the morning there and I don't fall asleep till about 1am every night. Example: Right now.
I don't know why I do this. It upsets me because I miss spending time with my family and I'm always stressing out about my dad's place which right now is in a hell-like state because my "step mom" can't get her damn act together and treats my dad like he's just a little kid and argues with him every day and night and makes him sound like an ass. They both act like little kids and I feel like its always up to me to keep them in line without cussing them out in the process. I've tried so hard not to just flip her the bird and say something I'll regret with half of my face with a tiny red handprint. That wont fix anything. I just feel so emotionally unstable right now and I don't trust anyone. I'd go to a guidance counselor but I feel like all they're going to do is tell my parents and I can't have that inner family drama because I don't want them to know the other sides of the story.
Those sides repeatedly cave in on me and i can't escape. Who do i run to? There's only a few people left in this world that i can trust.
My dad. He makes me feel free to sit shotgun or listen to something i probably shouldn't listen to. Even though he isn't the best financially i feel like he needs to let me know he's struggling. What the hell am I supposed to do about it?
My mom. She lets me have free time and takes me where i need to go. They both do. She loves me so much. They both do. She's my wingmom.
My music teacher. I've been learning from him for about 3 years and i already feel like i can tell him anything. Well, not anything...
My crush. I feel a bond with him that I've never felt before. I mean, yeah I'm young, but maybe its the sensation you get when you know that you're not alone. Not that he feels like this. He has a damn good life and if he doesn't see that I'm going to scream.
Why am i wasting valuable time i could be sleeping? I'm a weird-ass kid. I don't feel safe. I'm not suicidal because i don't know where I'm going from here.. I'm not sad because i know that I'm not alone. I'm not happy because my dad might not have a house if he breaks up with my almost step mom. I don't feel alone because your damn eyes are reading my story. My ass is going to sleep. I wish my vocabulary wasn't so limited on here. I'd spill everything that I've wanted to do, wanted to say, wanted to make sure it happened right now. I wish i could just privately have a place to get my feelings out.

alright, you want somewhere private to get your feelings out?
get a piece of paper. write down everything. write down all
your feelings. do it. no one is reading it, no one will judge
you for it because it's only you knowing what you're writing.
you're probably things "ok blink what the actual hell are you
on about?" well i'll tell you! once you have wrote everything
down. don't read the paper. don't read, destory it. whether
it is soaking it in a big tub of water and freezing it, then once
it's frozen into a big ice block you throw it in a river. or you
have a warm fire going on, and throw it in there. is there a
wishing well near you? rip it into tiny shreds and throw it
down there. you'll feel so much better, trust me. just do it.
as for your situation, get through the church camp. even if
you're an athiest. i have to live with damn enrichment day
to do with religion and i'm an athiest. so get through it, it's only
a few hours. afterwards, just say it hasn't changed your mind but
you listened and have thought about it. as for the girls, just laugh
at them. don't give them attention, it really does build up their
ego which seems to be already waaaaay to high the way you
described it. (nothing wrong with confidence! just there is a difference)
talk to the people that help you feel better. they'll feel loved that
you trust them, and it'll help you. i really hope everything gets
sorted out, and you're not a weird-ass kid, but even if you aren't
close to normal, where's the fun in being normal? good luck
boo <3

okay, i feel like i post here too much oops.
so i want to open an art shop, right? well, my dad doesn't tell me how good my art actually is.
i can't. i don't know how good it is.
i'd like someone to care.
i don't want to be lied to anymore,
i can see right through you.
please, just be honest?
please.
that's
all
i
ask
of
you.
that's the only thing. if you want to you can pm me to see some art i made yesterday to try to cheer myself up. it didn't work because i can tell my dad didn't think it was good. fantastic.

alright, first off, don't apologise for posting here. it's a place
for people that want some comfort, and the only way to get
through a tough time is being with people that care, correct?
as for your art, it's fantastic. it may not be in some people's e-
yes, but it is. if you don't like it, improve. the beauty of art is
that it's always beautiful. who gives a flying monkeys about what
your dad thinks? it may feel nice to get compliments, but even
the greatest artists were knocked down too many times but they
made a great appearence in the world, because they ignored
everyones opinions on their art and just did their thing. like,
seriously. look at this. aren't they all beautiful? art is amazing!
like, to think people get colours and just put it on paper.
it's peoples ways of telling a story or their feelings. so don't list-
en to the people that say they dislike your art. i forgot where
i was going with this message, but seriously, if your goal is to
open an art-shop, what's holding you back? just the opinions that
don't matter. it's your dream. do it. good luck <3

i don't understand why i ruin everything.
i'm just so stupid and i wish i'd keep my mouth shut.
i've got nobody to talk to and my friend keeps telling me what a perfect life i have and i just feel so isolated and alone.

i'm a bit confused on who said you ruin everything? you'll be okay.
people all have their own definitions of perfect. to you it may not
be, but to others it may be (eg. your friend). talk to your friend
about how you feel, don't be like "omg no stop saying that" just
explain how you don't like her saying that because in your eyes
your life is far from perfect. you don't need to have an amazing
family and grades and life to not feel upset. it's fine to feel that way.
speak to someone how you feel; whether it is family or friends or a
teacher or a professional. please don't keep all of this bottled in,
because that's the worst you can do. i hope everything works out
for you! good luck!<3

I'm so sick at how my mother treats me

Yes I know I did move in with nan and pa 3 years ago instead of staying with you and your partner I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for not being a normal healthy child you always wanted.
I'm sorry dad died 19 years ago.m

But you have no right to treat me like I'm nothing! You ignore me, you make me feel invisible. You make me feel like crap.
You treat your partner like he is more important. On Christmas you spent thousands of dollars on him but me? You only spent $10 on me. Not that it matters because I am thankful I even got anything but you spent so much on him.
and you forgot my birthday, like every other year. Do you not care about me anymore.

I just don't care anymore.

None of you have to respond, I just feel very upset right now and I wanted write this.

oh gosh, you're in a pickle, aren't you. tell your mother this. it's no
good keeping it all bottled up because she should be the most imp-
ortant friend in your life. she won't know how you feel unless you
tell her all of that. i'm sorry about your dad, rest in peace. and i'm
sorry that you're being treated unfairly. it's good you moved in with
your grandparents, don't apologise. because if you lived with your
mother and her partner, you surely would be a lot more upset than
you are now. i hope you're doing okay boo, and please don't forget
to tell your mum how you feel! good luck<3

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sorry for spelling errors guys! i've been revising a lot and math problems
currently whizzing around my head haha. anyway, here are the daily
links!:

emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!

[dewypower]

I've been really anxious about... something for a couple days. I'm really not comfortable saying what it is, not even in PM. I just want a hug, and I just want to be able to relax and ease my anxiety.

[fika.]

I've been really anxious about... something for a couple days. I'm really not comfortable saying what it is, not even in PM. I just want a hug, and I just want to be able to relax and ease my anxiety.

that's okay, anxiety is okay 'pal! well, it's not exactly
okay but it's okay if that makes any sense at all. just
take your mind off of it. i know how it feels to have
anxiety, and it's really hard to take your mind off of
it. so that is why i have links!
i have loads of things (breath with it) that can help
with your anxiety and panic attacks. just
look at those links and they'll hopefully help you out
a little bit! also, try buying "rescue remedy". it's hel-
ped me out loads, and hopefully helps you out! good
luck with whatever it is you're anxious about, and
remember to take deep breaths before that moment
comes! good luck boo!<3

[funkybug]

so my boyfriend is now my fiance apparently
i'm really happy but also super scared
i love him to death and i have for years but i can't help but be nervous

[talkshow boy]

no
no
no
i am just so done with my grandma living with us. she literally just called me a.... not-so-safe word to say here on cs.let's just say it started with an "a". just because i asked in a slightly annoyed tone why she wanted me to get up. she answers with "because, i need to find my keys. could you just do it without being such a...*previously mentioned word*?!* she knows i'm sensitive, why on earth would she do that? i just... can't deal with this anymore. it's not like we can kick her out, there's nowhere else for her to go. my parents heard and helped me feel better, but it's the point. it's not even close to being half-way over. everything about her staying with us is making me despise her more and more.

now i see why my dad ran away when he was 16
it's only been two months with her and she made me break down into a sobbing mess

[- ; bonk!]

I'm...happy I guess? but also sad??
the verdict for my mom's cousin Tyler's murder finally happened and his killer was charged. it took 8 years for that verdict to finally pass because his killer was a minor and some other complications.
I'm glad it finally happened so Tyler's getting his justice but I'm also just sad to have to remember the whole incident. thankfully I was only 6 years old when it happened so I don't really remember much aside from vague memories of meeting Tyler at a wedding and my mother sobbing and telling me he was dead shortly after.
I'm also angry.
I'm angry that he died. it was because he was caught in a love triangle. from my understanding, a girl was two-timing him and another guy. they both knew and agreed to meet outside an elementary school at night to talk it out, but then the other kid hid in the bushes and shot him. the girl was the one who thought of the plan. she was charged with first degree murder too.
that pisses me off.
how can someone do that? seriously. I don't remember much about Tyler, but I remember thinking he was pretty nice back at that aforementioned wedding. I've heard he was a great kid from family members. on the honour roll, always considerate, always trying to help people.
now the world has lost one of the few good people it had because of a silly love triangle and some 16 year old kid with a gun.
but at least both of them are being charged now.
8 years later, Tyler's finally got some justice.

[fika.]

so my boyfriend is now my fiance apparently
i'm really happy but also super scared
i love him to death and i have for years but i can't help but be nervous

ooooooh, congratulations!! i'm so happy for you both!
it's okay to be nervous, but you're going through this
together. he's probably nervous too. but what's a bet-
ter way than marrying your best friend? you'll be okay!
it also helps you love him aha. it seems like you two are
a good pair. good luck with the wedding!<3

no
no
no
i am just so done with my grandma living with us. she literally just called me a.... not-so-safe word to say here on cs.let's just say it started with an "a". just because i asked in a slightly annoyed tone why she wanted me to get up. she answers with "because, i need to find my keys. could you just do it without being such a...*previously mentioned word*?!* she knows i'm sensitive, why on earth would she do that? i just... can't deal with this anymore. it's not like we can kick her out, there's nowhere else for her to go. my parents heard and helped me feel better, but it's the point. it's not even close to being half-way over. everything about her staying with us is making me despise her more and more.

now i see why my dad ran away when he was 16
it's only been two months with her and she made me break down into a sobbing mess

take a deep breath. you'll be okay, alright? i can see
your nan is stressing you out, do your parents feel the
same way? maybe talk to your nan about how she's
treating you. it may be hard but she needs to know an-
d to stop. once you tell her how you feel, she might
realise and stop. i hope everything works out for you,
good luck boo!<2

I'm...happy I guess? but also sad??
the verdict for my mom's cousin Tyler's murder finally happened and his killer was charged. it took 8 years for that verdict to finally pass because his killer was a minor and some other complications.
I'm glad it finally happened so Tyler's getting his justice but I'm also just sad to have to remember the whole incident. thankfully I was only 6 years old when it happened so I don't really remember much aside from vague memories of meeting Tyler at a wedding and my mother sobbing and telling me he was dead shortly after.
I'm also angry.
I'm angry that he died. it was because he was caught in a love triangle. from my understanding, a girl was two-timing him and another guy. they both knew and agreed to meet outside an elementary school at night to talk it out, but then the other kid hid in the bushes and shot him. the girl was the one who thought of the plan. she was charged with first degree murder too.
that pisses me off.
how can someone do that? seriously. I don't remember much about Tyler, but I remember thinking he was pretty nice back at that aforementioned wedding. I've heard he was a great kid from family members. on the honour roll, always considerate, always trying to help people.
now the world has lost one of the few good people it had because of a silly love triangle and some 16 year old kid with a gun.
but at least both of them are being charged now.
8 years later, Tyler's finally got some justice.

rest in peace to tyler, but congratuatlions. it's always
good when people get what they deserve. i hope you
and your family are coping okay with all of this, if you
need to talk to someone i'm here! <3

i had two friends at school. we were very close, i knew one for 3 years and one for 1 year. we always hung out, all day, every day. i didnt tell both of them that i was pansexual, and i decided it was the time to tell them the truth.
when i did, one looked at me confusedly.
you know what she said after a moment of silence??
"no, you're not."
and i looked at her and said "yes, i am." and she said "you're just confused, but i know you THINK you know, but you dont."
the other friend looked at me and said nothing. she didnt even try to defend me.
then she whispered in my friends ear and they both got up and left.
i was on the verge of TEARS.
ugh. it was obvious she didn't like me just because of who i love...
the next few days, i realized some people didnt want to hang out with me... i knew why. she was spreading lies about me. i just felt horrible because people weren't accepting me.
and the fact she told me that she knew i wasnt because it was a 'phase' or whatever she was thinking it was. i felt very depressed and really didnt feel like doing anything. im still sort of friends with the other one, she sits in front of me at lunch, so the other one comes to sit next to her too. then she is always talking to me about how wrong it is to be pansexual and gay and trans and everything else. i dont know what to do next, because if i tell the teachers my parents will find out about my orientation. (they wouldnt care but im still scared they would think its a phase.)
what should i do?
((sorry if this isnt that much, im a little sensitive and i know people have it worse than me ;;))

stop. peoples problems are all the same. it sucks, it
really sucks that your supposedly friend spread lies
and rumours about you. that's not cool. but don't go
spreading anything about her. listen, you don't need
to come out to people if you don't want to. heterose-
xuals don't be like "hey guys, i'm straight, cool." so
why should anyone in the LGBT+ community? i'm not
saying you shouldn't, because you can do whatever you
want, but only come out when and if you're one hundred
percent comfortable with it. as for your friend, tell her
it's not cool what she's doing/done, and it's not nice. but,
you'll be okay. in a few years you'll be out of school, so
don't get too upset about it. it's fine that you're sensitive,
nothing wrong with it, but you only have to deal with that
person for a few more years. to anyone bullying you, just
keep your head held high and do tell someone that they're
bullying you. it's okay, you'll be okay. and i'm proud of you
for who you are! good luck boo<3

[Dinolil1]

@RINGO


How. Dare. She?

But then again, She may not be educated enough to understand the LGBTQ Spectrum, but anyway, that is low. I can't help you out, since I am still questioning my own sexuality and have not had any problems, even remotely as bad as this. But I have had times where people don't respect my opinion or just tell me to 'get away from them' even before I've spoken a single word. I feel for you. Maybe try and speak to the other friend, that didn't say anything. Maybe she may be in shock or the mean friend could be preventing her from saying so much as a word.

[My Immortal]

It's beginning to hit... No more pretending it didn't happen.
My neighbor passed away.
I feel so bad.
I was not there for her enough.
She was helpful all the ambulance rides I had.
She gave me a beanie baby, and was always so sweet.
I just...
How could she die?

first off, rest in peace for your neighbour. death is always a
tough thing to deal with. secondly, don't be mad at her for
dying. unfortunately, the worst part about living is dying.
she was happy to help you in all of those times, she did
it out of kindness. she didn't expect anything in return.
and i'm sure she was just thankful that you were making
her day. she seemed like a sweet character, so remember
her for the person she was. that's what she would want, right?
to be remembered for her memories. so don't let those
memories die, and start appreciating the people surrounding
you more (: i'm not saying you don't, because i am one hundred
percent certain you do, but don't take them for granted.
it's a privilege to be surrounded by people who love you.
good luck boo!<3

I am feeling rather homesick

I miss my dad and my dog especially.

that is one hundred percent a-okay! it's okay to be home-
sick, it's completely fine. it's something a lot of people have
to experience every day. have you been in contact with you
dad? maybe to help with your homesickness with the two of
them, look at photos you have with them. that'll help you
out. and write letters! even if you aren't able to send them,
the letters can help you out a bit. good luck, and enjoy
whatever you're doing!<3

i feel like i'm going to cry but the tears won't come
i feel like puking but my stomach is empty

what changed?
why did anything have to change? why couldn't we stay happy?

that's okay, it's okay to feel this way so if you're thinking it's
not, it is okay. i'm unsure on who this post could be about, b-
ut hopefully things work out. you deserve to have someone th-
at makes you happy in life! if things don't work out, there will
always be someone else. the only thing that has changed is you
as people, and some things aren't meant to work out. good luck
boo!<3

my dad hates me.
he has been ignoring me since.

your dad doesn't hate you! why would he hate you? he may ju-
st be extremely busy. he might not have time to message you
out of the blue. have you tried messaging him? talk to him ab-
out how you feel! it takes two people to understand a situation
one of the people are struggling with. good luck boo!<3

finally i let my friend come over. and we are going to go swimming and to the lake eventually. i am so proud of myself because i finally let my friend come over after i kept pushing away.

yayayayay! good job! we're all proud of you for over-coming
something you didn't want! be proud of yourself! let the who-
le world know how proud you are of yourself! keep being
proud of yourself for as long as you live! i'm glad you got over
that small obstacle. good luck boo! enjoy it!<3

i've got a friend

lets call him owen

i met him almost three years ago, we dated once and we broke up because he never wanted to spend time with me. after that, he disappeared. i didn't see him for a year. that was one of the hardest times in my life because i felt like it was my fault. but then he came back. and i was so happy, but at that point i had moved on. he was dating someone else, who happens to be my friend. we'll call her emily. owen.. changed. he became mature, but.. bland. he seemed boring and he didn't care about anything but video games. he talks about how he hates his life & wants to kill himself, but he's never done it. and one night, me and owen stayed up for hours just talking and bonding, and i was so happy. everything was going so well. at that point i thought i'd fallen for him again. but then a few days later everything changed. he started insulting me and being stubborn. he's always been stubborn, but not like this. we don't get along anymore. the nights usually end in arguing or something negative. i thought everything would be okay, but everything's changed. we've run out of things to do. things to talk about. our lives aren't interesting enough to have a conversation anymore. and it hurts so much. i miss how it was that one night where we talked and bonded. i want that back. but tonight he just.. he told me how unhappy he was. that everybody hates him and there's no point in staying around anymore. i told him that if he's that unhappy he should just leave. and oh my god i regret that so much. we don't get along. we don't talk. but i don't wanna lose him. i've loved him for so long. i've lost him, twice. i don't want to lose him and never get him back. i shouldn't have said anything. i should have just kept my mouth shut. i miss how it used to be. i just wanna know what changed.

don't bother replying to this, nothing's going to change.

you say not to reply, nothing will change, but i will anyways!
listen, it's fine. friendships change, and it sucks what has ha-
ppened. but tell him before it's too late. tell him you never
meant it, and tell him all of what you just said. just do it.
message him, call him, whatever. just be like "hey i said this
somewhere and the person told me to send you this message
so here it goes" and then send him that whole paragraph you
just wrote. you may not want to, but please do it. some people
with that state of mind are looking for a sign, and this could
be that sign. he may realise people do care, and he'll realise
you're the most important person in his life and you may have
just saved him. please just send it, and do anything you can
to rebuild that friendship, because he seems like a very
important person you want and need in your life. good luck,
i hope everything works out <3

I'm sorry for this but I am feeling very uncomfortable.
I get that a lot of people are putting stuff that is seriously not even close to happy but I'm scared.
I'm going to church camp Monday.
Problem?
Dramatic girls who care about nothing but themselves and who they can make feel like crap. Counselors who were "dramatically saved by Jesus as they were going through a hard time". It's all the same. And why am I so upset about this? I'm an atheist and I've told my mom that, yet I keep getting dragged into this same damn camp. I feel like a fish out of water. I don't want to leave. I have to get up at 6 in the morning there and I don't fall asleep till about 1am every night. Example: Right now.
I don't know why I do this. It upsets me because I miss spending time with my family and I'm always stressing out about my dad's place which right now is in a hell-like state because my "step mom" can't get her damn act together and treats my dad like he's just a little kid and argues with him every day and night and makes him sound like an ass. They both act like little kids and I feel like its always up to me to keep them in line without cussing them out in the process. I've tried so hard not to just flip her the bird and say something I'll regret with half of my face with a tiny red handprint. That wont fix anything. I just feel so emotionally unstable right now and I don't trust anyone. I'd go to a guidance counselor but I feel like all they're going to do is tell my parents and I can't have that inner family drama because I don't want them to know the other sides of the story.
Those sides repeatedly cave in on me and i can't escape. Who do i run to? There's only a few people left in this world that i can trust.
My dad. He makes me feel free to sit shotgun or listen to something i probably shouldn't listen to. Even though he isn't the best financially i feel like he needs to let me know he's struggling. What the hell am I supposed to do about it?
My mom. She lets me have free time and takes me where i need to go. They both do. She loves me so much. They both do. She's my wingmom.
My music teacher. I've been learning from him for about 3 years and i already feel like i can tell him anything. Well, not anything...
My crush. I feel a bond with him that I've never felt before. I mean, yeah I'm young, but maybe its the sensation you get when you know that you're not alone. Not that he feels like this. He has a damn good life and if he doesn't see that I'm going to scream.
Why am i wasting valuable time i could be sleeping? I'm a weird-ass kid. I don't feel safe. I'm not suicidal because i don't know where I'm going from here.. I'm not sad because i know that I'm not alone. I'm not happy because my dad might not have a house if he breaks up with my almost step mom. I don't feel alone because your damn eyes are reading my story. My ass is going to sleep. I wish my vocabulary wasn't so limited on here. I'd spill everything that I've wanted to do, wanted to say, wanted to make sure it happened right now. I wish i could just privately have a place to get my feelings out.

alright, you want somewhere private to get your feelings out?
get a piece of paper. write down everything. write down all
your feelings. do it. no one is reading it, no one will judge
you for it because it's only you knowing what you're writing.
you're probably things "ok blink what the actual hell are you
on about?" well i'll tell you! once you have wrote everything
down. don't read the paper. don't read, destory it. whether
it is soaking it in a big tub of water and freezing it, then once
it's frozen into a big ice block you throw it in a river. or you
have a warm fire going on, and throw it in there. is there a
wishing well near you? rip it into tiny shreds and throw it
down there. you'll feel so much better, trust me. just do it.
as for your situation, get through the church camp. even if
you're an athiest. i have to live with damn enrichment day
to do with religion and i'm an athiest. so get through it, it's only
a few hours. afterwards, just say it hasn't changed your mind but
you listened and have thought about it. as for the girls, just laugh
at them. don't give them attention, it really does build up their
ego which seems to be already waaaaay to high the way you
described it. (nothing wrong with confidence! just there is a difference)
talk to the people that help you feel better. they'll feel loved that
you trust them, and it'll help you. i really hope everything gets
sorted out, and you're not a weird-ass kid, but even if you aren't
close to normal, where's the fun in being normal? good luck
boo <3

okay, i feel like i post here too much oops.
so i want to open an art shop, right? well, my dad doesn't tell me how good my art actually is.
i can't. i don't know how good it is.
i'd like someone to care.
i don't want to be lied to anymore,
i can see right through you.
please, just be honest?
please.
that's
all
i
ask
of
you.
that's the only thing. if you want to you can pm me to see some art i made yesterday to try to cheer myself up. it didn't work because i can tell my dad didn't think it was good. fantastic.

alright, first off, don't apologise for posting here. it's a place
for people that want some comfort, and the only way to get
through a tough time is being with people that care, correct?
as for your art, it's fantastic. it may not be in some people's e-
yes, but it is. if you don't like it, improve. the beauty of art is
that it's always beautiful. who gives a flying monkeys about what
your dad thinks? it may feel nice to get compliments, but even
the greatest artists were knocked down too many times but they
made a great appearence in the world, because they ignored
everyones opinions on their art and just did their thing. like,
seriously. look at this. aren't they all beautiful? art is amazing!
like, to think people get colours and just put it on paper.
it's peoples ways of telling a story or their feelings. so don't list-
en to the people that say they dislike your art. i forgot where
i was going with this message, but seriously, if your goal is to
open an art-shop, what's holding you back? just the opinions that
don't matter. it's your dream. do it. good luck <3

i don't understand why i ruin everything.
i'm just so stupid and i wish i'd keep my mouth shut.
i've got nobody to talk to and my friend keeps telling me what a perfect life i have and i just feel so isolated and alone.

i'm a bit confused on who said you ruin everything? you'll be okay.
people all have their own definitions of perfect. to you it may not
be, but to others it may be (eg. your friend). talk to your friend
about how you feel, don't be like "omg no stop saying that" just
explain how you don't like her saying that because in your eyes
your life is far from perfect. you don't need to have an amazing
family and grades and life to not feel upset. it's fine to feel that way.
speak to someone how you feel; whether it is family or friends or a
teacher or a professional. please don't keep all of this bottled in,
because that's the worst you can do. i hope everything works out
for you! good luck!<3

I'm so sick at how my mother treats me

Yes I know I did move in with nan and pa 3 years ago instead of staying with you and your partner I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for not being a normal healthy child you always wanted.
I'm sorry dad died 19 years ago.m

But you have no right to treat me like I'm nothing! You ignore me, you make me feel invisible. You make me feel like crap.
You treat your partner like he is more important. On Christmas you spent thousands of dollars on him but me? You only spent $10 on me. Not that it matters because I am thankful I even got anything but you spent so much on him.
and you forgot my birthday, like every other year. Do you not care about me anymore.

I just don't care anymore.

None of you have to respond, I just feel very upset right now and I wanted write this.

oh gosh, you're in a pickle, aren't you. tell your mother this. it's no
good keeping it all bottled up because she should be the most imp-
ortant friend in your life. she won't know how you feel unless you
tell her all of that. i'm sorry about your dad, rest in peace. and i'm
sorry that you're being treated unfairly. it's good you moved in with
your grandparents, don't apologise. because if you lived with your
mother and her partner, you surely would be a lot more upset than
you are now. i hope you're doing okay boo, and please don't forget
to tell your mum how you feel! good luck<3

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sorry for spelling errors guys! i've been revising a lot and math problems
currently whizzing around my head haha. anyway, here are the daily
links!:

emergency compliments - if you ever feel poo, and nothing seems to cheer you up, this site is full of 'emergency compliments' which can make you laugh at how ridiculously brilliant they are.
automatic flatterer - you know what's cute about this? you put in your name, nickname, whatever (it doesn't save it) and it pays you compliment after compliment after compliment. it's the cutest idea ever.
the dawn room - do what it says. after doing that, loads of encouraging messages will come your way!
hugs - hugs is all i have to say.
thunderstorms - control them!<3
beautiful places - if you're looking for a sign, this is it. set a goal to visit one of these places. don't change that goal. you won't regret it.
how to change your life - just read it. it's amazing. too good.
player two - if you're feeling hurt or upset, visit here. it's a game. it's good.
koalas - if you're in need of a distraction that lasts a good five minutes, play this. it's fun, and if you love koalas it's even better!

Thank you for your support. And also to the other nice person who I couldn't figure out how to quote. I will likely be going to the service. Thank you so much