TheComfortCorner | v.6

[.normal.human.]

I wrote a paper by myself to show my Dad how much my writing has improved. I wanted him to be impressed with it. I wanted him to tell me that my writing has improved. He didn't say a single good thing about the paper. He read through it like it was some burden. Afterward he told me how it needed great improvement and said how it was worse than my other papers. I tried so hard to please him and it was all for nothing. I just wanted a compliment and all I got was criticism.

[sleep token]

i'm just so tried. my depression is getting worse, i've started doing something negative because of it and i'm just not happy??? plus i was invited somewhere only to not be contacted again. i love it was people get my hopes up! (sarcasm)

[groenii]

I don't like myself. Why do I keep doing things I know I should'nt? Why am I so messed up? I dislike myself so much.

[~Faith~]

It's like 2am here right now, I've been up since 1:05am this morning because my Dad woke me up to let me know that we needed to go to the hospital because of my mom being in a lot of pain because of some tooth infection. I'm really worried about her right now and I honestly haven't had that much sleep either because I went to bed at like 10:00pm. So much for getting sleep and being well rested for school.

[diana,]

i feel like my cats are being picked off, one by one.
one of them died a few weeks ago on holidays and another has gone missing. he never strays for this long...

[leverage]

Life has been a giant pile of bad things and disappointment recently. Everything is ending, everything.
Last night was my left every event with my marching band. My last time being with my second family, with all the people I love and care about greatly. As others in marching band may attest...your bandmates are some of the most important people in your life. For years they've been with me, seeing my at my worst and at my best. Helping me to grow. And I know I've done the same for them. Every day during the band season we left everything on that field. Every ounce of strength, every bit of pain and energy that we had. We're a team unlike anything I've experienced otherwise. I mean, during band season, I spend more time with them than I do my family due to how competitive our band is in competition and due to the high standards we hold ourselves to.
And then, last night, it ended. The last hurrah for me and the rest of the senior class. The last time we'd ever be together as a band, as a family. I walked out of that banquet hall late last night, and it ended. One final speech from the band director was all it took for the biggest part of my life to end. And I'll never get to go back.
I know that I'm moving on to great things next year. As I am attending one of the top universities according to just about every list, I know I'll be in a great place fill of amazing opportunities. On top of that, my university has a band that has the same tradition of discipline and honor as I'm used to. But...I have to audition for it, and I have both asthma problems and a bad knee. Neither have held me back since my first few weeks of marching band, but I'm afraid that one or both will act up during the auditions, and I won't make the band. If I don't make it my freshman year, that's alright, honestly- I'll still be involved in other band activities, and besides, I'm more interested in getting more involved in pit orchestras anyways. But at the same time...I would be so hard to live without. Maybe I can use my freshman year as a year to transition into college and make it into the band after that, but either way...band has been a huge part of my life for so long, and I can't stand to let it go.

Life isn't made any better by my other circumstances. I'm home sick, which is okay because I only have one final and it'll be a breeze, but I can't stand that I'm missing school at the end of my senior year, of my last days here.
On top of that I'm really worried about my grandmother. She suffers from a few medical conditions, and right now she had really low stamina and I'm worried something really bad could happen to her. But, despite my grandpa's urging, she decided to go on a trip to Vegas with her siblings. One of my grant aunts I know will take care of her, but she absolutely hates her half-brother. And yet she agreed to go to Vegas because, with her brother's heart problems the difficulty of travel for both of them, she feared that if she didn't go on this trip she's miss the last time she'd get to see her own half-brother.
I just worry constantly that something is going to happen. She has so much trouble just walking a few hundred feet, how is she going to handle Vegas? I haven't even been able to talk to her since she left, because she never answers her phone. She'll be heading home really soon I know, but I still worry a lot.

I'm also really annoyed by something. So yesterday at the band banquet, they announced where all the seniors are heading next year and their intended majors. At the time of filling out the form I didn't know yet, so even though I ended up at a very prestigious university, that obviously wasn't know. One of the kids in my senior class got oohed and ahhed because he got into a school that's only marginally higher on any list of top schools, and got oohed and ahhed again for his major, which is the same as mine. And I know that even if I had remembered to update my senior profile with my university, I'd never have gotten the same respect as that guy did. And that hurts to think about. I've got almost the exact same GPA, the exact same major, but I'm just not well-liked enough I guess. Maybe no one really cares about me outside of my few close friends and my family.

I guess I just feel like I'm very close to losing everything I haven't already lost. My panic attacks are getting more frequent. I had one in the car the other day while I was on a road with no where to pull off, and it's was horrible.
Please someone pull me back from the edge. Teach me to stop fearing endings so much. Help me deal with everything as it crashes down around me.

[.headrush.]

When u take something seriously and ur really proud of it and you best friend laughs at you for it and says it's 'hilarious'.

Like out of nowhere..

. I'm gunna delete it now :c

[fika.]

apologies for any spelling hours!
an 8 hour school day can be really tiring omg
(idec if the gifs show happiness or sadness or ickyness because they're just showing that ily and i'm there for you and here is my virtual hug.)

i guess i'm just a but stressed
i have a lot of schoolwork/assignments to work on and i feel like i'm drowning

ayy, you might be!
but not literally, only metaphorically obviously
just take it a step at a time.
work on one piece for an hour, 20 minutes break then carry on working!
talk to your teachers about the stress, too much work,
and it's mentally draining you for the amount of stress.
to get it done quicker, turn off all apps and technology.
you'll be okay!! good luck!!<3

turns out my summer school actually starts Monday and I had no idea. I'm not ready at all; I don't know where to go, what to bring, what my bus is, what time its over, if there's lunch or not, what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm utterly not in control, and I have no idea how to handle situations where I'm not prepared. i know I'm making myself sick over nothing but I can't help how anxious it makes me. my phone's not even on, so if something happens, I won't be able to contact people without going to the office and talking. I might be able to figure it out tomorrow but I mean.. I'm just.. so tired of this. I haven't even been able to sleep since I've been off and when I do its nightmares and uncomfortable things that wake me up. I feel terrible

i know i'm late, and it's most likely already started
so i hope you had an amazing day!
it's alright, you'll get organised soon.
i hope it all worked out for you!
good luck!<3

Aghhh

today I got a really bad sunburn and broke my knee hnnng

so imma just steal what @bisclavret said bc im no good with sunburns!!


[size=85]1. take a cold bath/shower (adding two cups of baking soda into the bath
should help as well.)
2. use aloe vera (if it's in a lotion, put the lotion into the fridge so that it's not as room temp.)
3. drink more water to rehydrate
4. ibuprofen and aspirin helps with the pain
5. moisturize skin with lotion (don't petroleum or lotions with oil)
6. don't use ice. it will damage your skin

those are the ones i use for when i get bad sunburns, but here are more tips: http://www.medicinenet.com/10_home_remedies_for_sunburn_treatment/views.htm




as for the knee, don't (obviously) move around too much
and take it easy. don't feel bad about taking a break!
good luck! i hope the sunburn goes and your knee has a speedy recovery!
good luck!<3

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I go through periods of feeling super self-confident in everything, and feeling really great about my artwork and how much I've improved, and then a few hours or a day later I feel like I'm the worst thing in existence, that my skills will never be as good as I want them to be and I just feel so hopeless and that I'm not going to get anywhere in life. Literally after every productive moment I go through, I get horrible thoughts of not living up to peoples' expectations and it's just horrible, I can't handle this.

literally block out everyones expectations of you.
they don't matter. i know it may be hard but just do it.
it's easier said than done, i get it, but try.
they put stress on you and you feel as though you aren't
living up to their expectations but you're living beyond them.
your skills i am sure are amazing. don't feel bad about being
super self-confident either, and try to keep it up as long as you can.
if you ever feel rubbish about it all, look back at your most proud
art piece and realise you are good.
plus, art is art, anything can be art as art is just creativity, and
everything has been created with a mind.
good luck!<3

why do i feel like i was a criminal in the past life?

maybe you were?
who knows ?
just know that your past life does not define your current life.
whatever bad thoughts you have, push them away.
you can live through the evil.
good luck babe!<3

Heh... I've got a strange reason to be sad, but I just finished watching Blue Exorcist and I'm a bit upset that it's over now. I loved the series so much, it was one of the only things I truly got excited for. Excited to watch. It sounds stupid I know, but I'm hoping I can find some other good anime to watch.

why would we think it's stupid?
i get upset when my favourite show or movie ends.
for example, i cried when i finished watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s.,
and i was upset it was all over.
i'm sure you'll find another anime you're excited for.
good luck!<3

Okay. So I need to calm down.
I'll get my blood work done tomorrow and twenty minutes later I have an appointment with an internist.
And if they find nothing I'll arrange an appointment with an oncologist.

Seeing an oncologist will be like my worst nightmare. I just hope the internists find something and I can avoid to arrange this appointment. I'm driving myself crazy because I'm so worried.

Not to mention that I have a very important Chemistry exam on Tuesday and a German exam on Thursday.

boo just take a breather.
if you're going to worry, worry about now and the future
when it comes, okay?
you'll ace those exams, but keep studying!
i hope you're okay soon!
fingers crossed the internists do find something!
i believe in you!<3

I'm honestly a bit scared of myself. Anyone who doesn't know me, and even anyone knows me, can't tell that I have this trait if I don't tell them explicitly, but I'm scared of how violent my mind wants me to be. I'm worried that I possess two copies of the so-called "Warrior Gene"- which, being a recessive trait, would mean that I express this trait- and although genetics do not 100% determine my thoughts or actions, the way my parents interact with each other and with the family, as well as the multiple other mental disorders I have, may very well have triggered the "Warrior Gene" to become active. Those with the active "Warrior Gene" are more likely to be successful or make successful decisions in risky or critical situations, and in a way this is what allows those with the gene to trigger more easily and be more inherently impulsive. Logically, they are also much more of a rapid-response thinker and rapid-fire action-taker. I do not know if there is a correlation, but I have found it very, not easy, per se, but much easier than the average person, to help someone who is going through a crisis, a difficult situation, or perhaps is thinking about taking dangerous actions, even when the situation becomes precarious. I have saved a good number of people, and while I have always thought that I'm just naturally an empathetic person to whom people listen, perhaps people listen to me when they're struggling because it is evident that I, much like them, am internally struggling and impulsive and perhaps dangerous. I say things and take actions that, while they end up saving people, are risky and which the normal person would not dare, for fear that it might set the person who needs help off. I also test extremely well, without studying or extra preparation, and that may be a combination of the smarts and the fact that those with the gene make good decisions in critical situations, although I think that the gene has nothing to do with that, as it is not that I guess on answers, but that I only need to learn the material once before it engrains itself in my mind.
I myself, if I do possess this active trait, find that even with my extremely, insanely large amount of self-control and restraint, find it difficult to quash the thoughts I have on actions I want to take. I'm scared for myself and for those around me, if I do have and express the gene. I want to get genetically tested, but that would be difficult for me to explain, as I would possibly be seen as a danger, and I am already known to be sharp, clever and resourceful.
I'm worried, but I hope that I am able to live a sufficiently pleasant life whether I have this gene or not.

i am in fact very unsure on
how to help you feel better here, and still extremely
completely confused as to what the wolf gene is even though i've
searched it up on the internet, but whatever it is i'm sure you'll be fine
whether you have it or not. just remember you're able to control
certain situations whether you want to break down and cry and hide
or not. good luck boo, you got this!<3

Do i have the right to not like reading? It's just not my thing! and my mom tells me I have to read 24/7 And i just don't like it. I like making comics or my own stories. If i try to tell her she gets upset with me.

She thinks im becoming a '' teen with a emo ego'' or ''angstey'' and I hate that. I'm Not! I like whales and goldfish for gogs sake!
Just because Im a older kid doesn't mean puberty is taking over and making me a mean teen that hates her parents!

I feel like i'm always wrong! I feel like i'm annoying to them! If i try to try out something and they always say it won't work out. and of course it doesn't. makes me just want to stop being creative. Every time im making a cosplay I try to do something and she proves me wrong.

Yesterday I was working really hard on a staff/cane with a clay gem on top and a bunch of other things on it and it fell over and shattered after hours of work. And guess what i'm told. ''you can make it again'' NO I CANT. I give up. I don't feel creative anymore.

My sister was nervous about a part she was going too and i was trying to talk to her about it and my mom said i was being really loud. I'm sorry i tend to have a loud voice. I want to be heard sorry >:( and my mom wouldent let me help her!

Like, im the one who had 5 panic attacks in 3 hours everyday a while back i know how to deal with them. let me help.

I feel worthless. I want to do something other than sit on my laptop all day and try to not be bored.

i won't say ignore them, because it's hard.
but, what you can do, is just do whatever the hell you like
without thinking twice about their opinion because it is your life,
not theirs, and it's your choice to read or not, and it's your choice
to help people or not. don't let people stop you from doing
things you like or enjoy or want to do, when you're doing a heck of
a lot more than what they have done.
good luck boo, and stick up for yourself!!<3

I dyed the underside of my hair a really vibrant red and I'm not sure if I love it or I hate it T~T
It stands out on my blonde hair wayyyyy too much for my liking but I also feel really cool with it and ughhhhh I don't know what my friends are going to think of it because I haven't told anyone.

who cares if it stands out?
if you feel cool, that's amazing.
if your friends don't like it, poo on them.
it's what you like that matters. if it makes you feel confident,
then you go for it. the redness won't be as sharp
in a couple weeks. just keep it if you like it, if you don't
dye it back to blonde.
good luck boo, i'm sure you rock it!

Hi..
So I had a near panic attack a second ago because I hadn't removed my nail polish for school tomorrow (but I've done it now - I ran to the bathroom and got rid of it). Problem is, I have no idea what to tell my parents. I mean, they know about my OCD, it's just the depression and anxiety. I know everyone says that telling is the best option, I just don't want my family to judge me differently. I would tell my friends... But they've sort of abandoned me. I'm the black sheep. My only purpose is to smile and pretend and act like everything's okay. Both of my friends have depression and anxiety, but they'd never believe me if I said I have it.

Sorry. I needed to get that out. Rough night. And I have school tomorrow.. Yay, being picked on! My favorite thing.

Luckily, I have my custom-made Kittycorn (my only friend - other than real life animals - at the moment). So, I'm okay. Don't worry about lil ol' me. I'm back to smiling again.


See?

i believe you boo.
your family won't judge you, they're there for you, remember that.
the best thing is telling, so why are you holding back from the people
that are saying to tell?
if it's affecting you, get proffessional help.
but the first thing to do is go talk to your parents/guardians about it,
because they are there for you.
good luck at school! i believe in you! <3

oh god im being too annoying i talk too much about myself and boring things and weird things and then i make it uncomfortable by apologizing

personally, i like it when people
talk about things they enjoy or talking about themselves.
it's cool to see their eyes light up by just thinking about what they love.
just keep doing what you're doing babe, you're doing great in the world.
and it's only uncomfortable if you think it is, because there's a vibe
that you feel uncomfortable which makes the other person most likely
feel uncomfortable.
stay strong! i believe in you!<3

Apparently I cause people to hate me no matter where I go, even on the internet. I hate myself... I cry too easily. I'm terrified, can't breathe... Uh. I wonder what happy me would have said a few years ago??

why do you hate yourself?
what's so bad about crying?
breath in and out
slowly
gently
you're okay.
you have got this in the world
you will survive it all, okay?
no one hates you, it's in your head.
just keep being yourself. being yourself is as imporant as it gets.
please don't hate yourself. you're too wonderful to be hated.
good luck babe, i believe in you!<3

I had another bad day and they just don't seem to end. It's been five months, no change. I just don't have much strenght to hope anymore, the damage is already done and I don't know if I can fix it.

there is nothing you can't fix!!
make your bad days good days!
hell, i know how hard it is.
wake up every morning having a shower.
exercise.
find things you're interested in.
you have this in life.
talk to people.
watch your favourite movies, listen to your favourite songs,
eat your favourite foods, read your favourite books,
just do what you like, okay?
please don't give up, and it can be fixed.
believe in yourself like i believe in you! good luck!<3

so um, i lost my best friend because he lied again + broke another promise and he just, cut all ties with me when i approached him about it.
kinda hurts?? kinda, doesn't. it's bittersweet because he wasn't a very good person but he meant a lot to me and he just gave up on everything we had.

i know he meant a lot but you deserve better,
drop him like he did to you.
if he makes or made no effort, why should you?
don't make him think people in the world are all like him.
we're not, we're nice!
you'll find someone better than him.
good luck!<3

I wrote a paper by myself to show my Dad how much my writing has improved. I wanted him to be impressed with it. I wanted him to tell me that my writing has improved. He didn't say a single good thing about the paper. He read through it like it was some burden. Afterward he told me how it needed great improvement and said how it was worse than my other papers. I tried so hard to please him and it was all for nothing. I just wanted a compliment and all I got was criticism.

compliments are nice,
but take his criticism, do what he says and throw it in his face.
don't give up. i'm telling you now, your work is brilliant.
i don't even care if i haven't read it, i know it's good.
i hope this motivates you, because get back to work
on another paper and keep on working until he is speachless and
now he's just talking poop out of his mouth (not like he isn't already,
but he'll be so mindblown he won't know what to say).
good luck babe!<3

i'm just so tried. my depression is getting worse, i've started doing something negative because of it and i'm just not happy??? plus i was invited somewhere only to not be contacted again. i love it was people get my hopes up! (sarcasm)

stop the negative while you can.
it'll make you feel worse, trust me i know.
message that person about it. be like "hey can i still go"
just do it. talk to people about your feelings and
please try to not think negative. i understand 100% completely
how hard it is.
priase yourself for something you didn't want to do.
for example, getting out of bed. once you're out, reward
yourself with a chocolate.
when you shower, reward yourself with your favourite drink.
by the way, i'm proud of you for waking up this morning.
good luck boo!<3

I don't like myself. Why do I keep doing things I know I should'nt? Why am I so messed up? I dislike myself so much.

it's fine to dislike yourself,
i dislike myself sometimes.
if you know you shouldn't do it, then try to stop yourself.
you're not messed up, you're just simply living.
good luck!<3

It's like 2am here right now, I've been up since 1:05am this morning because my Dad woke me up to let me know that we needed to go to the hospital because of my mom being in a lot of pain because of some tooth infection. I'm really worried about her right now and I honestly haven't had that much sleep either because I went to bed at like 10:00pm. So much for getting sleep and being well rested for school.

it's okay, maybe have the day off.
i'm sure your teachers will explain.
try and head to bed earlier tonight, and also have a nap when you get home
from school. it's important to rest.
and your mum will be fine, don't worry.
good luck boo!

i feel like my cats are being picked off, one by one.
one of them died a few weeks ago on holidays and another has gone missing. he never strays for this long...

contact the neighbours, police, anyone.
i'm sure your cat will come back soon.
go out looking for him, even in the house.
he may just be hiding.
good luck boo, and i'm sorry about your cat. rest in peace <3

Life has been a giant pile of bad things and disappointment recently. Everything is ending, everything.
Last night was my left every event with my marching band. My last time being with my second family, with all the people I love and care about greatly. As others in marching band may attest...your bandmates are some of the most important people in your life. For years they've been with me, seeing my at my worst and at my best. Helping me to grow. And I know I've done the same for them. Every day during the band season we left everything on that field. Every ounce of strength, every bit of pain and energy that we had. We're a team unlike anything I've experienced otherwise. I mean, during band season, I spend more time with them than I do my family due to how competitive our band is in competition and due to the high standards we hold ourselves to.
And then, last night, it ended. The last hurrah for me and the rest of the senior class. The last time we'd ever be together as a band, as a family. I walked out of that banquet hall late last night, and it ended. One final speech from the band director was all it took for the biggest part of my life to end. And I'll never get to go back.
I know that I'm moving on to great things next year. As I am attending one of the top universities according to just about every list, I know I'll be in a great place fill of amazing opportunities. On top of that, my university has a band that has the same tradition of discipline and honor as I'm used to. But...I have to audition for it, and I have both asthma problems and a bad knee. Neither have held me back since my first few weeks of marching band, but I'm afraid that one or both will act up during the auditions, and I won't make the band. If I don't make it my freshman year, that's alright, honestly- I'll still be involved in other band activities, and besides, I'm more interested in getting more involved in pit orchestras anyways. But at the same time...I would be so hard to live without. Maybe I can use my freshman year as a year to transition into college and make it into the band after that, but either way...band has been a huge part of my life for so long, and I can't stand to let it go.

Life isn't made any better by my other circumstances. I'm home sick, which is okay because I only have one final and it'll be a breeze, but I can't stand that I'm missing school at the end of my senior year, of my last days here.
On top of that I'm really worried about my grandmother. She suffers from a few medical conditions, and right now she had really low stamina and I'm worried something really bad could happen to her. But, despite my grandpa's urging, she decided to go on a trip to Vegas with her siblings. One of my grant aunts I know will take care of her, but she absolutely hates her half-brother. And yet she agreed to go to Vegas because, with her brother's heart problems the difficulty of travel for both of them, she feared that if she didn't go on this trip she's miss the last time she'd get to see her own half-brother.
I just worry constantly that something is going to happen. She has so much trouble just walking a few hundred feet, how is she going to handle Vegas? I haven't even been able to talk to her since she left, because she never answers her phone. She'll be heading home really soon I know, but I still worry a lot.

I'm also really annoyed by something. So yesterday at the band banquet, they announced where all the seniors are heading next year and their intended majors. At the time of filling out the form I didn't know yet, so even though I ended up at a very prestigious university, that obviously wasn't know. One of the kids in my senior class got oohed and ahhed because he got into a school that's only marginally higher on any list of top schools, and got oohed and ahhed again for his major, which is the same as mine. And I know that even if I had remembered to update my senior profile with my university, I'd never have gotten the same respect as that guy did. And that hurts to think about. I've got almost the exact same GPA, the exact same major, but I'm just not well-liked enough I guess. Maybe no one really cares about me outside of my few close friends and my family.

I guess I just feel like I'm very close to losing everything I haven't already lost. My panic attacks are getting more frequent. I had one in the car the other day while I was on a road with no where to pull off, and it's was horrible.
Please someone pull me back from the edge. Teach me to stop fearing endings so much. Help me deal with everything as it crashes down around me.

for the band, i understand how sad you may feel
but life moves on. it's hard, i know, but like you said;
you have new things to look forward to. i know it's hard,
but i believe you can get through it!
as for your nan, i'm sorry to hear.
let her live though, it may be her last memory and it may not.
she'll rest, she knows what she can and can't do.
you'll be fine in life babe.
panic attacks are horrible, but just rememebr to breath and
everyone is here for you.
i'm not saying don't fear endings, because i do too,
but you will be able to live life a lot happier if you didn't
worry so much about the ending and just let nature take
it's course in life. babe you can get through this,
i really do believe in you. if you ever need someone, don't hesitate
to PM me.
good luck babe<3

When u take something seriously and ur really proud of it and you best friend laughs at you for it and says it's 'hilarious'.

Like out of nowhere..

. I'm gunna delete it now :c

nah don't delete
your friends can go get a life if they laugh at it.
they should be there to support you.
please try to find better friends that don't
laugh at your master pieces or things you've done.
good luck boo, i'm proud of whatever it is you made or did <3

[Kitty Cheshire]

i have nobody to talk to on here... no friends.. i was stupid and lost them all...

[fika.]

i have nobody to talk to on here... no friends.. i was stupid and lost them all...

the beauty of online sites is that you can find friends anywhere.
idrk how friendships start on here but now i have an amazing one with britneyrox,
and i thought i would live a lonely friendless life on chicken smoothie.
don't giveup searching friends.
just start off by messaging someone a question
(wehey mine started with me asking who it was in britney's photo)
and out friendship is really cool now.
you'll find a friend soon!
good luck boo!<3