TheComfortCorner | v.6

[Lincoln]

I really want to get pet rats but I couldn't wait and bought mice instead.
Now I am really stressed out and confused!
My mom said I can only have rats if I re-home the mice
and then she yells at me telling me that animals aren't discardable.
I know they aren't just toys! I love my mice!
I'm not just playing around!
I acted too soon, and made the wrong choice, and now I can't take it back.
I don't know what to do.

[samm.]

I just spent over an hour trying to convince my friend that I was definitely going to be able to hang out with her all day tomorrow and that I definitely wasn't going to bail on her, and now here I am, in the middle of a panic attack at the mere thought of leaving the house. I don't understand! I've hung out with her countless times in the past, why am I suddenly panicking over it!?!? I can't breathe, I can't calm my rapidly beating heart or my racing thoughts. I can't. I can't. I can't. Why can't I do anything right?! Why am I so worthless!? Why do I have to be like this!? Why did I have to be born with all these problems?! I just want to be a normal person! I don't want to be this way! I can't stop these thoughts no matter how hard I try! Whenever my anxiety spikes like this, my depression kicks in and I end up in a tornado of conflicting thoughts and emotions. Five minutes ago I was fine, and now I've turned into this anxious, self-hating pitiful excuse of a person who just doesn't deserve to have any friends and after this probably won't. Shes the only one who hasn't left me yet. The only one who no matter how many times I've screwed up, she still sticks around, and honestly I don't know why. I don't want to let her down anymore. I don't want to disappoint her anymore. I'm sorry for the rant, but writing my feelings sometimes helps with the panic attack, and actually now its pretty much over with because it took me forever to write just this little bit of text because I couldn't make my shaking hands move. I think i'm just going to go to bed after this. I'm done with this day. I'm done with these feelings. I'm done with these thoughts.

[majima]

oh man
i dropped the head-joint of my flute last night and it bent,
but i haven't told my mom bc im rlly scared since we dont have a lot of money and the repair shop is expensive
and my band teacher is absolutely terrible and will yell at me since i didn't have my flute today and might not have it for a while
idk rlly what to do

[Chippear]

I just spent over an hour trying to convince my friend that I was definitely going to be able to hang out with her all day tomorrow and that I definitely wasn't going to bail on her, and now here I am, in the middle of a panic attack at the mere thought of leaving the house. I don't understand! I've hung out with her countless times in the past, why am I suddenly panicking over it!?!? I can't breathe, I can't calm my rapidly beating heart or my racing thoughts. I can't. I can't. I can't. Why can't I do anything right?! Why am I so worthless!? Why do I have to be like this!? Why did I have to be born with all these problems?! I just want to be a normal person! I don't want to be this way! I can't stop these thoughts no matter how hard I try! Whenever my anxiety spikes like this, my depression kicks in and I end up in a tornado of conflicting thoughts and emotions. Five minutes ago I was fine, and now I've turned into this anxious, self-hating pitiful excuse of a person who just doesn't deserve to have any friends and after this probably won't. Shes the only one who hasn't left me yet. The only one who no matter how many times I've screwed up, she still sticks around, and honestly I don't know why. I don't want to let her down anymore. I don't want to disappoint her anymore. I'm sorry for the rant, but writing my feelings sometimes helps with the panic attack, and actually now its pretty much over with because it took me forever to write just this little bit of text because I couldn't make my shaking hands move. I think i'm just going to go to bed after this. I'm done with this day. I'm done with these feelings. I'm done with these thoughts.

Picking up on this one because I used to suffer very similarly with leaving the house in general so I thought I might offer a hand!

If you put too much stress on yourself to hang out with your friend it's less of an enjoyable activity and more of a chore, which'll make you unwilling to do it and more likely to panic! In the future the best idea when you plan things is to have a rule that if you're not feeling right an hour or two before your friend would have to go anywhere then tell them you need to reschedule- Sometimes you have to put your own health and issues first!
As for your plans coming up soon, relax a little and don't overthink the attendance. You can do it! I promise it'll be easier once you're there and it's happening, the build up is always the hardest part.
Take recovery slowly and don't focus on disappointing others. As long as she knows what's wrong she'll understand, so if you haven't told her and she's proven herself to be a good friend I'd personally advise you to talk to her about it, it'll be hard and might make your anxiety bad at the start, but having someone there to help you with everything that could possibly come up is always helpful, especially someone who was already close.

If you ever have any problems you can feel free to send me a message and I'll help the best I can! I hope things get better soon. Best of luck!

[.normal.human.]

I didn't even get chastised that harshly, yet my heart hurts and I am on the verge of tears, what do I do? What's wrong with me?

[alleyway]

I love fighting with my mom, it's one of the best feelings, feeling like a burden is also a plus : )))))))

[0000007]

I can't get it out of my head how stupid I am. I'm not smart. Im not. I can't even do simple subtraction without writing things down. I can't even talk to people, which I don't mind, because I'd rather write so I can think more, but I have no skills and I really can't see myself having any sort of future.

[.bookbound.]

oh man
i dropped the head-joint of my flute last night and it bent,
but i haven't told my mom bc im rlly scared since we dont have a lot of money and the repair shop is expensive
and my band teacher is absolutely terrible and will yell at me since i didn't have my flute today and might not have it for a while
idk rlly what to do

I know about instrument 'injuries' firsthand..
Well, I think the best thing to do would be to tell your mom. The worst-case scenario is that you won't have your flute for a while, in case your family has to save up money to repair it. As for your band teacher, it's not fair to yell at you if you have an excuse, so that's also a good idea to go to your mom.
Everything will be okay.

[minyards]

I'm feeling really really scared and panicky right now. So my dad recently has been finding all my private social media accounts, and bringing it up really cryptically like "I know about your second account." Or something and it's making me really uneasy. I have never done anything wrong, I have no reason to be afraid. I just feel like he's trying to break into my private life and make it public. It's my life I can do what I want, but for whatever reason he feels the need to constantly watch what I'm doing and know about every single post I make and photo I look at. I'm so scared he'll find something bad even if theres nothing to find. I'm just overall feeling panicky c:

[- ; bonk!]

hey e'ryone. c:
i'm afraid i can't reply to everyone individually. but i'm sending y'all virtual hugs and get well wishes. hope things start looking up for everyone.
if anyone needs to just vent and/or rant for a little bit, feel free to shoot me a message. I don't judge (because most of the time i'm kind of a walking freakshow myself, so I don't have a right to be judging, lol.)
and just something to keep in mind, pretty much nothing lasts forever. feelings pass, scars fade, stress comes and goes, and so on. in the meantime, try not to think too much about all the stress, if you can.
here's to hoping for sunnier days and brighter skies in the near future! ~lee