I have depression. Because of this, and various other stressors, I was really down and sometimes hard to deal with during the first month or so of school. Lately, I have been getting a whole lot better and more happy. However, due to my behaviour before, my membership to my sorority has been terminated due to "unbecoming conduct". Not only do I know for a fact that they knew what the outcome of that meeting was going to be before I even stepped foot in the room and told them my side of the story, I also know this decision was not made by the entire house; more like maybe three people. Now, I'm stuck in a place I want nothing to do with on the other side of campus, waiting for Monday to roll around when I can actually get a hold of people who can do something about this. The people who handled this situation, handled it very poorly and illegally. Even if I don't get back in the house (which I so hope I do), they will get punished for their very poor decisions. I have learned that there is a decent-sized group of my sisters who are on my side and are doing all they can to help me, while making sure the people "in charge" of the situation do not get wind of what's happening right under their noses.
EDIT: Oh, and the one person I want to talk to is avoiding me (at least, I'm getting that vibe from her). She claims to be incredibly busy, which I know she is (she always is) but I just don't understand how she can't give me an hour of her time when she knows this situation is incredibly difficult for me to go through and all I want is to talk, hug, and get away from it all.
(^ My life in a nutshell right now.)
















