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[[deleted user 39490]]

Oh god, the memories just keep coming back of the summer.
Sitting in my stuffy room in constant fear, constantly feeling scared and depressed. Not knowing what was going on.
The custody thing still haunts me, and it's been over for a few months.
I keep getting flashbacks.
Sitting on my bed, a knot in my stomach as I watched the clock, willing the time to stop so that I didn't have to go to court.
So that I didn't have to speak with a judge about the false claims that my father was abusing us.
So I didn't have to argue with my two brothers, who were lying just because they didn't want to live with him.
It's the most terrible feeling ever.
All I can think of is sitting in that big room, in that big chair in front of the big judge.
Watching as my dad and step-mom looked at us longingly outside of the room.
They had to ask their lawyer's permission to hug us.
My brothers didn't care.
I did.
I didn't want to leave them.
But I was dragged away.

I told my mom many times that I didn't want to go with her.
She didn't listen.
Now my four year old half-sister has to grow up with no siblings.
She always asks, "Why did you guys leave"
How do you explain a custody dispute to a four year old?
How do you explain why you're not there anymore?
I feel terrible.
I wanted to stay.
But it's too late.

You know how embarrassing it is to walk into school tardy after your fourth time in court, dressed fancy.
To hand the lady at the front desk a note that says, "[My Name] is late because she was in court."
And then they write a note for my teacher that says, "Excused Tardy. In Court."
Then the teacher reads it as you stand there.
And you feel miserable because of what happened.
You feel like they judge you.
They don't know why you were there.

I can't stop remembering.
Someone please save me.

[my sweet piano]

I got a really nice drawing of L from Death Note for Christmas from my cousin's friend and my brother dropped it off the table and the frame cracked

[slowtown]

here's to the people that are alone this christmas, couldn't make it home this christmas, or are suffering from a tragedy this christmas. love you all, pm me if you need to talk.

[mr.robot]

Merry Christmas to me and my two pitbulls, condemned by the family to spend Christmas alone due to their immature hatred of a very loving breed.

[mikami]

???
i don't think i'm being paranoid if i say people have vendettas against me
lol i mean what
stop
do not do that


my hpd is gonna make me keel over :^)
"but! if you're so mentally ill why do you still talk to us"
stop
okay just don't
i need human interaction too
gosh


edit: please PM me if you have an open mind.
i'm trying to vent and i'd enjoy someone to comfort me without thinking i'm "crazy" or "petty".
please i need someone to listen

[danny fenton]

I should be feeling excited or at least happy right now, it's Christmas Eve, but I just feel tired and sad.

[abxy]

man this is stupid but
One of my favorite ask blogs is probably gonna be discontinued and it hurts

[shatterhowl]

Christmas is going to suck. I wanted to save a cat for christmas, a stray I found. But Apparently, I'm not allowed to have a cat, and worst I have to go to a family gathering... They have 1 labrador, that reminds me of the lab I wasn't allowed to keep either. Everyone else this christmas is happy, and jolly, and getting dogs and cats. I can't bare to look on social media without tears. All my friends have dogs and such. And I'm the one sad, missing my own, I can't even look at a labrador without crying. I can't stop missing her. And I can't fix it.

[ever changing]

Two weeks ago, my car broke down on the way to work.
I've had to stay with my parents during this time so I
would have a way there until we had the money to get it
fixed.

We thought that would be yesterday. Spent $400+ on it.
Yet it still isn't well enough to trust for driving yet. It
won't be until the 3rd of next month when we can have
more work done on it.

So three weeks away from my fiance. I was so excited
for Christmas to get here, because that's when I'd be
back home with her. No. Another week to go, now,
and I won't even get to be with her on Christmas.

[Shiny Sylveon]

Hehe...my step dad just lost his job (a company bought his company and screwed them over), and we may have to sell some of our toys and clothes for money...if things go as planned, we won't need it, but there goes the happy days...I'll probably have to stay off the internet to lower the costs too...