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[shim]

My day went so well.

Got a signed copy of a book I like, got to see an old friend of mine and actually had a really good time, skyped with them after.
My cousin is threatening suicide. I will not go into detail about it.
I went over to take a look outside to find almost every light on the main floor was on, the back door and gate were open and my cousin was nowhere to be found ( I only looked outside though). I'm really concerned I guess. But that's my own fault. Whenever something goes well in my life, something bad happens. But that's just life I suppose.
I could use a pm. All I had to talk about was what was mentioned above but I'm really upset.

Note, I'm not looking for medical advice, and I would like if there would be any replies to go through pm as I don't check the thread.

[Atomic Samurai]

I need to be PMed, please..

[.rin okumura.]

*Sighs* Well, here goes nothing..
I wish I was a normal teenager.
There I said it.

Sorry if this seems long, but I have to share my story...

I guess you can say I'm not your typical teenager. I guess you can say that I'm a rockstar. I make and pass kidney stones daily. (Yes I said daily) The good new is? I don't always feel them. The bad news? When I do feel them I am always at the doctor's or lying at home in bed for the next 3 - 4 days. In May it will be the 5 year anniversary of the very first kidney stone I had (Woot Woot...) and in April will be the 4 year anniversary of when I learned that I made kidney stones every day.

Here's another interesting little tidbit.
I found out last week that I have ovarian cysts on both of my ovaries, which means IF they rupture, it's going to hurt like there's no tomorrow OR those cysts can scar, leaving scar tissue and leaving me unable to have children.

I just sincerely wish that I could be normal. If I was normal I wouldn't be racking up these immensely large medical bills (My family's not rich, but we aren't poor... either way it still takes a toll on us) and maybe the guy I like would go out with me. I mean he likes me back and everything but he deserves someone more active. Like there are some days where I can't even go on a simple car ride or sit down and watch a movie because it just hurts too much.

I have no problem with how I look. (Let's put that out there now) I think I'm pretty, and intelligent. But the thing is, I'm so pale, and I'm losing weight (let me explain that one in a bit) and I guess when I look in the mirror, I just look so sad. I don't know what happened to me and to be honest, this whole thing has just been really scary. I want my old happy self back. I want to be the me that used to pretend to be a dinosaur in the lunchroom to try and make my friends laugh or the me that used to start singing and dancing randomly in public because that's just what I felt like doing.

Back to the weight problem. Trust me when I say that it's not my choice. It physically hurts after I eat. Like I'll go and eat a sandwich but then about 10 minutes later I have to go lie down because my sides just ache. And I do feel hungry and eat something but because I'm sick my body is using up all of my fat reserves. (Sorry if none of you wanted to hear that last paragraph)

I just don't know what to do. It's all happening so fast that I don't have enough time to actually enjoy being a normal teen. And it's scary too.
Sorry for such a long post, I just needed to get that off of my chest.

[xXFoxfaceToastXx]

Mom kicked me out a month ago and she's still trying to control me, making dad make me go to my childhood church's pastor's retirement party even though my parents are divorced and dad doesn't have to listen to her.
I don't want to go because A) I'll be depressed and breakdown because she'll be there, silently pressuring me to pretend everything is normal or embarrass me on purpose nonchalantly, and I'll want to be hiding somewhere B) my last memory of the pastor was when he was very rude and upset when our church voted to allow our pastors to CHOOSE to officiate/honor/wed same sex couples, we had a few pastors and even it were just him, he'd have his choice to say no.

Finding out he was a homophobe put a bad taste in my mouth and smeared the memories of this wonderful wise man with great heartfelt sermons and stories. Now I just see hypocritical words about God not judging and loving outcasts.


I've not told mom I've not been a Christian for years now and I don't care to.

[xX♥️Spiders!♥️Xx]

Getting a bit stressed about my test results, can I please have I hug?

[Thalassic]

I just woke up from a really messed up dream and I' m realy shaken up about it
Could I get a pm

[hoofbeat]

I just woke up from a really messed up dream and I' m realy shaken up about it
Could I get a pm

PMing^^

[snowflake ;;]

why am i so useless sometimes

[airam]

why am i so useless sometimes

At sometimes aren't we all useless? I have seen more people than I like to admit not able to get out of bed. They are that sick. I have had to watch many relatives pass away, I could only talk to them and sometimes I couldn't even do that, in our lives sometime we just have to sit and watch and be useless. That is the sad reality of things.

[rockosaur]

Getting a bit stressed about my test results, can I please have I hug?

i will so hug you, test can be really stressing, especially when you don't study for them like i do ;''>