I thought I was okay for quite a while. Like, I could think about what happened without feeling sick to my stomach, and I actually hardly ever thought about it. But lately, I always think about it and it always makes me sick and it's depressing me and every time the memories come back, I find myself squeezing my eyes shut and saying to myself, "Don't think. It never happened if you don't think."
And I know that's not good. I don't know why the guilt is rushing in so badly now ;u;