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[Thalassic]

I'm getting really stressed out about the new school year.
Could someone PM me? I'd like to vent/rant and just kinda pour out all the things I'm scared about and maybe get some opinions or whatever on it..

[Chemicello]

I'm getting really stressed out about the new school year.
Could someone PM me? I'd like to vent/rant and just kinda pour out all the things I'm scared about and maybe get some opinions or whatever on it..

Pming

Like usual, its summer, I'm more relaxed or whatever... So, my therapist decides to put me back on once a month.. Everyone thinks I'm doing okay..
But ... truth is, I'm not...

I am not taking my cousins death too easily... Maybe I'm not supposed to take it easy? ... But, I wont talk about it really... if anyone asks if I'm doing okay and everything.. I reply with my usual, I'm fine... but sometimes... I'm not.. and I want someone to notice... but then I don't want someone to notice...

So... I dyed my hair, top layer purple, rest of the layers blue.... I liked it, but my mom asks the people we're with Are you embarrassed to walk around with her? or on how I should of did this n this instead... My dad don't help... he keeps calling me a Freak show...
And now I'm scared what everyone will think at school.. its right around the corner.. and I'm so not ready... ;-;

I thought I'd have at least some encouragement from my family about changing what I eat.. But no, I get yelled at and threatened to be taken to the hospital because I wont eat meat... I'm trying to stick to a Vegetarian diet.. but all my family does is rub meat in my face and yell at me..

Don't worry, if you like it then that's cool, you have to be comfortable within yourself do not worry too much about what others think, some people will like it and some won't, its the same with everything, you can't please everyone, though it hirts when it's your mother. Maybe you could find a friend or a relative that you are close to and trust and talk to them about some of this, talking to people in real life is the best thing to do if you want relief from the stress of keeping it in. Don't bottle up your feelings, you need to let them out sometimes. Don't worry, its normal to take deaths hard, I am sorry for your loss, especially if it was someone you were close to. Remember, they would not want you to carry on being sad for them, you should live an amazing life for them, and do not let anyone stop you from fulfilling your dreams. They died feeling loved I am sure, do not worry.
Hour family should respect your decisions, you just need to tell them that. Being a vegetarian is healthy, give them some proof, to show that you are going to get all the nutrition you need. At school, don't worry about that either, it will be fine, you will have friends and you will do well, just try your best. You are an amazing valuable person, remember that, and don't let anyone else tell you otherwise and don't over think your situations, sometimes they aren't as bad as they seem *hugs* xx

[znu]

ugh.
i feel so horrible.
its really hard to write this all down but ive come to acknowledge the fact that i dont want to be near my stepfather at all.
i have known him for most my life but i dont want to deal with his arrogance nor condescension anymore.
lately he has been extremely restricting in my life, reading all my messages and trying to find out my every secret by completely going through my computer.
thats not it though, hes extremely commanding and has so many fights with me and my mom that im just,
im scared.
i dont want him to find out that im acefluid and questioning panromatic. i dont want him to find out im agendered.
i cant even try to cry, hes only going to laugh at me or yell at me for being weak.
by now i try to put up a facade that i dont care, that im aloof and apathetic to not try to show any emotion so i can hide what i have been really feeling.
it only brings me worse since he tries to inflict even more pain and im just bottling all my feelings up that i started to randomly burst into tears this morning at two am.
maybe, im just overreacting, and that im being a brat in my following actions.
i just dont want to deal with this and the troubles of school

i feel horrible after for what i wrote. like i shouldnt have done it.

[Love To Ride]

I'm scared of my father. My mother just left when I was 2. and my father doesn't care about me. All I care about is horses. But he makes me play piano at competitions. When I don't even want to, and am scared. I have nothing to look forward to in life. I fend for my own. Work and earn the best I can, and yet still I feel I cannot do anything.

[Chemicello]

ugh.
i feel so horrible.
its really hard to write this all down but ive come to acknowledge the fact that i dont want to be near my stepfather at all.
i have known him for most my life but i dont want to deal with his arrogance nor condescension anymore.
lately he has been extremely restricting in my life, reading all my messages and trying to find out my every secret by completely going through my computer.
thats not it though, hes extremely commanding and has so many fights with me and my mom that im just,
im scared.
i dont want him to find out that im acefluid and questioning panromatic. i dont want him to find out im agendered.
i cant even try to cry, hes only going to laugh at me or yell at me for being weak.
by now i try to put up a facade that i dont care, that im aloof and apathetic to not try to show any emotion so i can hide what i have been really feeling.
it only brings me worse since he tries to inflict even more pain and im just bottling all my feelings up that i started to randomly burst into tears this morning at two am.
maybe, im just overreacting, and that im being a brat in my following actions.
i just dont want to deal with this and the troubles of school

i feel horrible after for what i wrote. like i shouldnt have done it.

Pming if that's ok

[ᴇǫᴜɪɴᴇ]

I'm honestly just so sick of everything. life, having to put up with my "family's" cr*p, everything. I give up.

[Chemicello]

I'm scared of my father. My mother just left when I was 2. and my father doesn't care about me. All I care about is horses. But he makes me play piano at competitions. When I don't even want to, and am scared. I have nothing to look forward to in life. I fend for my own. Work and earn the best I can, and yet still I feel I cannot do anything.

He does care about you, he loves you lots I am sure. He makes you play piano at these competitions because he thinks you are good at it and he wants you to do well. Don't be scared of him, you are a strong person and you cannot let him control your life. Don't let him force you to do what he wants, follow your own dreams. Maybe talk to him about it, you cannot keep on rpfeeling helpless because you are not, please see that and believe in yourself xx

I'm honestly just so sick of everything. life, having to put up with my "family's" cr*p, everything. I give up.

Try to do things you enjoy, to hopefully get your mind off it for a bit, and make you a little happier. Don't give up, you are a strong and wonderful person, do not let other people get you down, you have the power to change this, believe in it. Talk to your family and tell them how you feel, they wouldn't want you to feel like that, and just remember, everything will be ok x

[neli]

I literally cried for well over an hour straight. Balling my eyes out, quite literally. People who don't have BPD don't understand how physically and mentally it challenges me and others with the disorder. Honestly I'm a helpless case.

[compass;]

I have a nice long rant to get off my chest. Thank you dearly to whoever helps me. <3
So I have a large group of friends at school, and we've been friends since I came to the school, which was a few years ago now. They've all been friends before I had come and welcomed me and I was quite happy until we got to Highschool. I guess from there things just kind of went down hill. Truly, I know two of them care about me, but out of seven of us, it's not a nice feeling. I was talking to them online and I may have started an argument, which one of them really got annoyed at me. I told him that I was annoyed at him always making 'jokes' about people. (for example, one of my friends is really short and he calls her a midget which she doesn't like being called at all.) So it ended with my saying that I felt left out, alone and that no one cared and I left the group chat. I got added back saying I was cared about and was truthful, but to be honest, I didn't really believe it. They say it whenever I tell them and they say they will change, when in reality three days later it's back to me being at the back of the pack. I can't complain all that much though, because I have two people I know are my true best friends. One of which is really annoying, but it's only because he cares about me and the other is coming to my house for the night tomorrow, and we're having a Disneyathon so that's quite exciting. I guess what I'm trying to explain is that I feel left out and unwanted by my friends a lot of the time. One of my true friends is leaving at the end of the year to move to another state. I'm so scared about her leaving because I feel like I will have no friends left, apart from the other one, who is hardly at school anyway. ;-;

I am desperate for some good advice. I don't want a paragraph about being told I am wanted and I am a wonderful person. I want straight facts and the truth. Preferably in a pm please and thankyou. <3

[۵Ʋиιтʏ۵]

I literally cried for well over an hour straight. Balling my eyes out, quite literally. People who don't have BPD don't understand how physically and mentally it challenges me and others with the disorder. Honestly I'm a helpless case.

Firstly im sorry that your feeling like this as you deserve to be happy unconditionally and you always have and i cant say that i have experienced what it is like to have BPD however i understand that it is difficult for you and sometimes it can seem like too much however try not to give up your a wonderful and brilliant individual and you deserve the world and beyond for everything you have had to put up with and for being so strong to get to where you are now however don't give up i know it feels hopeless at times possibly that you feel alone however you are not alone when you go through this because there will be so many more out there who understand how you feel and understand the difficulties and pain you have gone through however try to remember that you don't have to go through this alone and you could always pm me if you might like to talk about it as yes i might not have experience in how it feels however i do care and always will no matter what happens and you will always have a chance to have a brilliant and bright future ahead of you and nothing can ever change that fact and im sorry it's been tough for you however try to remember that it won't always be like this and even though it might be hard to believe it will be worth it in the end and if you want support then you will always be provided with it when you feel like you need it because people out there do care and do love you and wouldn't want you yo give up now because they know you can do so much better and so do i and no matter what happens never forget that your a fantastic and amazing individual and that sometimes it's okay to cry as no one can stay strong forever and it might help to let your feelings out as after all your only human and we all have our limits but it's okay to express how you feel as it could be worse keeping it inside however don't give up as your stronger than you think as you always have been you wonderful star i hope this helps a little and even though you feel like no one understands don't forget that people care and you are and always will be loved for just being you and nothing will ever change that you angel

I have a nice long rant to get off my chest. Thank you dearly to whoever helps me. <3
So I have a large group of friends at school, and we've been friends since I came to the school, which was a few years ago now. They've all been friends before I had come and welcomed me and I was quite happy until we got to Highschool. I guess from there things just kind of went down hill. Truly, I know two of them care about me, but out of seven of us, it's not a nice feeling. I was talking to them online and I may have started an argument, which one of them really got annoyed at me. I told him that I was annoyed at him always making 'jokes' about people. (for example, one of my friends is really short and he calls her a midget which she doesn't like being called at all.) So it ended with my saying that I felt left out, alone and that no one cared and I left the group chat. I got added back saying I was cared about and was truthful, but to be honest, I didn't really believe it. They say it whenever I tell them and they say they will change, when in reality three days later it's back to me being at the back of the pack. I can't complain all that much though, because I have two people I know are my true best friends. One of which is really annoying, but it's only because he cares about me and the other is coming to my house for the night tomorrow, and we're having a Disneyathon so that's quite exciting. I guess what I'm trying to explain is that I feel left out and unwanted by my friends a lot of the time. One of my true friends is leaving at the end of the year to move to another state. I'm so scared about her leaving because I feel like I will have no friends left, apart from the other one, who is hardly at school anyway. ;-;

I am desperate for some good advice. I don't want a paragraph about being told I am wanted and I am a wonderful person. I want straight facts and the truth. Preferably in a pm please and thankyou. <3

Pming.