| TheComfortCorner | v.5

[vash ♡]

what is it when you feel a discomfort so severe, it causes you physical pain? it's recently come to my attention i've been experiencing major dysphoria. these episodes have hit me since i was 6 years old. it's a general feeling of, "you don't belong here," and it often drives me to do irrational things as i often feel like my brain is clouded and i'm not myself when i act. i'm not angry or sad when i act on this feeling either- on the contrary, i feel quite empty. i just am in a lot of physical pain because i'm extremely uncomfortable with myself and my existence.

[MoonStone00]

Im noticing that i have all the symptoms of sever depression... i have nothing to be upset for.. i have a roof over my head..a boyfriend.. my brother and sister... but im ao depressed and disassociated. I dont know how to talk to my mom about this... i know shes understanding and all but i dont know how shell respond to me... ir how i will respond to myself. Theres something mentally wrong with me. I need help. I really need help... and to be honest i just want to cry and sleep...

[BlingBling]

LONG AND NOT WELL-TYPED RANT READ AT YOUR OWN RISK THIS IS FROM A TEXT CONVO
also pms are good, i never check back here because forgetful me

i had to check out this 'safe harbor' school place. they're trying to send anyone who has a mental illness there idk why it's pissing me off though. they don't even have advanced classes and it's computer based and they told me this a week before school when i was already prepping for my ap and fancy electives and ;-; idk i'm not even sad just a ball o' fury

and i think i deserve to be after what they're doing

i don't get the point because: it's a literal correctional school where they put bullies + peeps with behavioral issues, they gave me ZERO heads up and no way to refuse when they said it was just an 'option' at the first meeting. They're roping all sorts of people into this even if we do fine and dandy at school if we're 'mentally unwell' in some way (for me it's apparently Asperger's??) they want me there instead because it's "better suited"?? I just want my gosh danged AP courses and KEES money so I can get money and scholarships so my parents don't have to pay so much I mean who'd give a scholarship even partial to someone at a correctional school i mean seriously. and i have no bad marks, never been called down to the office or nothin' either so it's not that i've been a bad lil ol me i just

but doesn't matter none. school starts tomorrow and i aint gonna be there no matter what because of them since they banned me and a lot of peeps from the high school for no reason

i dunno but i think it'll have to go to court because geez this is just wrong ;-; why do i always get the bad luck anyhow? i try to be a good kid, my teachers thought i was doin great and i got a 32 ACT composite i don't need 'help' bleh what i need are hugs

[WolfDestiny]

Im noticing that i have all the symptoms of sever depression... i have nothing to be upset for.. i have a roof over my head..a boyfriend.. my brother and sister... but im ao depressed and disassociated. I dont know how to talk to my mom about this... i know shes understanding and all but i dont know how shell respond to me... ir how i will respond to myself. Theres something mentally wrong with me. I need help. I really need help... and to be honest i just want to cry and sleep...

If you aren't ready to talk to your mom try a trusted friend or maybe even the school counselor.

[chisei]

i probably didn't make the point clear that i don't want to be associated with them at all, you know, avoiding the topic of my abusive ex-friend
they are my guardian and they keep trying to bring my abusive ex-friend in my face like she deserves a second chance.
i wont give her another chance because i gave her too many, and she saw it as a joke.
maybe im in the wrong
maybe im cruel

[Zeee]

Im noticing that i have all the symptoms of sever depression... i have nothing to be upset for.. i have a roof over my head..a boyfriend.. my brother and sister... but im ao depressed and disassociated. I dont know how to talk to my mom about this... i know shes understanding and all but i dont know how shell respond to me... ir how i will respond to myself. Theres something mentally wrong with me. I need help. I really need help... and to be honest i just want to cry and sleep...

Depression is a serious thing, and you really need to talk to your Mom. She'll be able to help you by getting you in to see a counselor. Even if you're scared, however she'll react is not a greater price to pay than if you keep quiet. You may have a roof over your head and a boyfriend and siblings, so many things to live for, but having a good life doesn't mean you can't be depressed, it just means that the roof over your head and your boyfriend are things you're happy for rather than depressed about. If your Mom is understanding like you say she is, there is no bad answer she can give you. She might be a little angry that you didn't tell her sooner, or that you were even nervous about telling her, but she cares for you and wants the best for you. You know you need help, so reach out and get help, because unless you begin to do something about it no one else can. You have to take the first step yourself; no one can make you go to your Mom but yourself. The pain you're going through is not worth being scared for what she might have to say. Just bring it up to her face to face, be completely honest, and just tell her that you think you need to see a counselor or something. Telling her won't be the end of the World, no matter what she says, and if she's understanding she'll do all she can to help you.

I have faith that you can tell her, and get help and feel better because no one deserves to be put through such a thing. I hope you find recovery soon.

[Chemicello]

LONG AND NOT WELL-TYPED RANT READ AT YOUR OWN RISK THIS IS FROM A TEXT CONVO
also pms are good, i never check back here because forgetful me

i had to check out this 'safe harbor' school place. they're trying to send anyone who has a mental illness there idk why it's pissing me off though. they don't even have advanced classes and it's computer based and they told me this a week before school when i was already prepping for my ap and fancy electives and ;-; idk i'm not even sad just a ball o' fury

and i think i deserve to be after what they're doing

i don't get the point because: it's a literal correctional school where they put bullies + peeps with behavioral issues, they gave me ZERO heads up and no way to refuse when they said it was just an 'option' at the first meeting. They're roping all sorts of people into this even if we do fine and dandy at school if we're 'mentally unwell' in some way (for me it's apparently Asperger's??) they want me there instead because it's "better suited"?? I just want my gosh danged AP courses and KEES money so I can get money and scholarships so my parents don't have to pay so much I mean who'd give a scholarship even partial to someone at a correctional school i mean seriously. and i have no bad marks, never been called down to the office or nothin' either so it's not that i've been a bad lil ol me i just

but doesn't matter none. school starts tomorrow and i aint gonna be there no matter what because of them since they banned me and a lot of peeps from the high school for no reason

i dunno but i think it'll have to go to court because geez this is just wrong ;-; why do i always get the bad luck anyhow? i try to be a good kid, my teachers thought i was doin great and i got a 32 ACT composite i don't need 'help' bleh what i need are hugs

*hugs* when you are older, you can do whatever you want, sit tight, and do you best. You sound like you are doing a great job, but talk to your parents gently and tell them your feelings about it, calmly so they understand, and tell them that you would have liked some time to figure out whether you wanted that school or not. Reme!ber, it is your life not theirs, you are in co trol of it at the end of the day

i probably didn't make the point clear that i don't want to be associated with them at all, you know, avoiding the topic of my abusive ex-friend
they are my guardian and they keep trying to bring my abusive ex-friend in my face like she deserves a second chance.
i wont give her another chance because i gave her too many, and she saw it as a joke.
maybe im in the wrong
maybe im cruel

No, you are not cruel, you are doing the right thing. If she was abusive, you should carry on trying to disassociate with her. Don't feel like you are wrong, youy were nothing but a good friend I am sure. Let your guardian know how you are feeling, and hopefully they understand. You are doing fine xxx

My family keeps teasing me about my voice and the music I listen too. My sister is nice about it but the rest of my family doesn't understand how I feel! I try to communicate this, but its not working! They don't understand how much this teasing hurts me. I know it's not that bad, but.... I'm tired of being the center of all of my family's cruel remarks! I need some advice.

I have that with the music taste. All you can do is gently remind them that you cannot help your voice and that type of music is what makes you happy. You can also ask your sister to talk to them as she understands and could help. Don't sorry *hugs* your doing fine, stay strong and be patient xxx

what is it when you feel a discomfort so severe, it causes you physical pain? it's recently come to my attention i've been experiencing major dysphoria. these episodes have hit me since i was 6 years old. it's a general feeling of, "you don't belong here," and it often drives me to do irrational things as i often feel like my brain is clouded and i'm not myself when i act. i'm not angry or sad when i act on this feeling either- on the contrary, i feel quite empty. i just am in a lot of physical pain because i'm extremely uncomfortable with myself and my existence.

I don't know what it is properly, but many people experience the same thing. Sometimes it is linked to anxiety and depression and other times it isn't. I suggest you go to the doctors for it, or a psychiatrist. But I want to offer you some hugs and to tell you that you are perfect, and should feel comfortable with yourself.
*hugs*

My heart is broken
I feel more alone than ever
I wish I had more friends
more people who would trade me
More confidence

You can make friends, cs is a big place. Just pm people who want to chat in their signature or something. Send trades overr yourself, and don't worry, we are all here for you. You can gain confidence, I know you can, you control yourself, you can make it happen xxx

aaaa I'm so upset.
On Tuesdays and Thursdays I have second lunch, and Nes (my irl best friend) has first.
I'm going to be all alone tomorrow.
I guess that's what I get for being a Junior with no friends.

It's only two days of the week, don't worry. You can make new friends, look around and see, there will be loafds of people who want to be friends with you. Honestly, don't feel sad, you don't deserve to be alone, you are wonderful xx

There's this kid irl that I really really do not like. He's asked my out many times and lives nest door. He really thinks he's something else. He's really gross and not the smartest tbh. I applied to a technical school for HS just because I knew he wouldn't get in. Well, he applied, and was denied, so he complained. And he got in. I'm on the verge of a panic attack right now because I'm really not ready for another four years of him trying to talk to me at 6 am on the bus ride to school. Sorry if this sounds like a rant but I need somebody to lean on ^^"

You just need to firmly tell him that you will never go out with him. Not cruelly, because you don't want to hurt his feelings too bad, but hard enough that he gets the message. Don't worry about school, you probably won't share many classes with him, and you will have different friends. On the bus, just put earphones in and make it clear that you aren't talking to anyone. Or get on the bus last, and sit really far away from him. *hugs* don't worry, it will be fine x


again, another massive post, I just want to make sure everyone had a reply xxx

[neli]

panic attack.

[Chemicello]

I feel like the work I do goes unnoticed.
(This isn't a complaint related to the character shop I opened only a few hours ago. That'd be silly.)

I just mean that... I work hard on this Minecraft server, working with one of my partners to craft a story. And people just don't pay attention. They brush it off. What's that, Creeper Nava? Haha, what? I'm too busy building a bridge.
I'm trying to get more involved with a fandom we've mostly lost touch with, making a blog I hoped would get at least a bit of attention. It's gotten almost none. I have to run it singlehandedly because no one will submit anything.

I don't know, it's not that I wish I wasn't doing the work. I love it. I just wish that people would pay more attention. Maybe I'm being a bit too sensitive to people not paying attention, in which case I'd like to thank my borderline&narcissistic personality disorders.
Even if so, I just... ugh. I want people to pay more attention to what I do.
-nava

Don't worry too much about it, just advertise yourself a bit more, and pit your ideas out and in due course you will get noticed. Don't lose heart, you're doing fine. you are not too sensitive, it is a natural feeling to want to be noticed, so do your best to get in touch with people etc xxx

panic attack.

Sit down and breathe. Try and empty your mind a bit. Don't sorry, it will be over soon, hold tight and stay strong, youy can do it, you are perfect and amazing, don't let it control you *hugs* I am here for you if you ever need it xxx

[neli]

panic attack.

Sit down and breathe. Try and empty your mind a bit. Don't sorry, it will be over soon, hold tight and stay strong, youy can do it, you are perfect and amazing, don't let it control you *hugs* I am here for you if you ever need it xxx

fear of abandonment
fear of losing everything
fear of losing everyone
fear of fearing things
fear of my borderline personality disorder
fear of my severe depression
fear of my anxiety
fear of my panic attacks
fear of my nightmares about the past
fear of losing him
fear of being called freak more
fear of crying in general
fear of crying at school
fear of people in general
fear of stress
fear of my bipolar disorder or similar thing
fear of life
fear of death
fear of not being wanted
fear.


This is why I cannot take a deep breath and try to calm down... Honest the only thing that's ever worked was L (the guy) because he knows all about me and what I'm going through and has seen first hand what I've done to myself, what people, other guys specifically have done to me, he saved my life.. But right now he's out and he can't respond to my messages.. And I'm freaking out more, to the point I'm trembling and crying