watchdog wrote:i would like a hug please c:
i'm so angry bc around five hours ago, i got in an argument with my dad about something and he went off angry too, but it's just i was getting changed before bed a while later and he walked in to say goodnight without realising i was, so i said goodnight bluntly and something along the lines of "i'm getting changed, shut the door" and he did. it's eleven pm now and he just asked me to say goodnight again and i did, but then he got in a huff about me saying goodnight bluntly like i'm getting changed?? he'd curse and shout if i accidentally walked in on him. i know about respecting parents and i'm probably on the wrong side too, but i feel he's being such a child about it and he always always always expects me to say sorry first. i don't know how he thinks i want him to go to my therapy appointments i really don't. also he's in his sixties and says i'm the one who will drive him to death and he doesn't realise how much it upsets me and annoys me when he says that bc you shouldn't put that on your child's shoulders to think about when you're dead and they're going over those words.
i'm sorry for the rant, and i have so much more to vent about but i'm going to stop here ahaha
I think your father just may not really understand that you feel these things. Especially the part about death upsetting you. It's easy to joke about death if it's about yourself, but when I do so, and my parents hear it, they always snap at me. When they joke about their deaths, I snap at them too. It just means he values you over himself c:
*hugs*
Kitty Cheshire wrote:it.. hurts..
It does hurt, and it means that you do have a beating heart. And it will scar, no matter how much someone keeps reopening the wound. c:
