Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[allium]

Dear user made adopts:

Why is all the effort I put into making good forms never good enough?
Its discouraging,
you know,
never being good enough.

it certainly does nothing for my want to continue trying,
which is silly,
but even I'll admit it,
it gets so old putting together something your proud of,
for something you really want,
only to loose it to someone else.

It makes it so much harder to try out for other adopts,
there's always that sinking feeling that your really just doing all this,
for nothing.
There will always be someone better,
after all.

but still,
It would be nice to win something for once.

-Asher-

[Spotenya]

dear myself,
rip myself, starting tomorrow i'll have another whole week of muscle pain ;-;

from myself

dear w,
i wish you're here <3

from your friend

[skeleton,]

dear 'friends'
i talk to you every day.
i make jokes.
i talk about whatever you guys talk about.
i'll go along with it, trying to fit in.
but why am i never good enough for you?
why are you deaf to my attempts?
it's been days since G has responded to anything I've said.
what's going on?
why are you doing this to me?
why am i always on the sidelines, no matter where I go?
be it school, your houses, transformice, even chicken smoothie. sometimes.
am i cursed?
or am i just not good enough for you?
am i fat?
am i ugly?
am i annoying?
am i boring?
why won't you respond?
why am i alone?
why do i have to try so hard to get even a glance from you?
who is my true friend?

-løvely

[appi]

oh man, seriously what are you trying to do to me ;v;

i know you're probably blind to everything i'm going through right now
and just how much i fangirl and obsess over you but please oml

you- you LiKED
my post

on instagram

BOI

do u know how i feel about this

bc i am freaking the heck out

i KNOW this doesn't mean you like me, at all, but i'm still really really happy wth
you didn't like my friend's post either which is .. ahHH man

tbh i need to stop because i'm just overthinking this and thats dangerous

[Sinbreaker]

Dear ---,

Well, here I am. Not sure what I am doing here.
All I know, is for a moment, I felt... uncertainty. Jealousy. But in the worst way possible.
I did not want you. No, I don't want you. I once did. But no longer. I have someone now. But ahaha...
I look back. In my moment of weakness years ago. Oh, how I dearly screwed up my only chance... didn't I?
I messed it up bad... the only way to recover from that, was to joke about it. And now in the end, I tease you for my mistake.
Maybe... maybe someday I'll tell you the truth. Of what could have been- a what if.
I certainly don't want to go back, to try again. I found something healthier for me. Someone who loves me. And I to them.
But it is a nice thought, isn't it?... I can see you hurting sometimes... because not that you are alone, but because we are not the same. Because you recognize your own faults and short comings, as all the best do. And I wish, to help you. I really do.
But I can't.

But how petty was it of me, to feel jealousy when our friend joked to you about the future? Your.. "options". Maybe it wasn't jealousy, but simply a "no. don't do that." Maybe that's even worse. Who knows? Certainly not me. Maybe not you.
So here I sit, facing yet another petty problem that... seems like I should put behind me.
But some nights, those rare nights I can't. So I write to you, with this letter that will never have stamps attached, that will never be mailed out.
But, ahh.. who knows... maybe you'll find it someday?... Perhaps.. then the truth will be easier to explain.

-Sin

[toodee]

dear "dad",
why is it that you do this.
how can you ignore me for months, act as though everything is normal. then over text, text. you couldn't even tell me in person. you tell me your leaving me, again. but this time, you also pushed away someone I loved. you can't do this over and over. soon I will stop caring, I won't notice how long your gone, or even when you left. you shouldn't be getting mad at me over little things, you know I have a job. I can't stop everything and go see you whenever you want me to. why do you not care for me, or my feelings. you say you love me, but you don't call. when you do call it's to tell me your leaving, or your getting rid of my pets. you don't care for me like you say you do. it really stresses me out. I can't even tell you how I feel because you get all upset and yell at me. i'm scared you will disown me, even though the way you treat me is worse than if you disowned me. you are insensitive, you only care for yourself. how dare you call yourself a father but your only way of solving things is giving me money. i'm getting tired of this. honestly.

- yours truly,
your sad, confused daughter.

[_Human_]

Dear Myself

To myself currently for future references.
STOP PROCRASTINATING
To myself from several months ago, you finally started the book on wattpad, and your friends that are helping proof read love it so gg. Still haven't gotten the first chapter done yet because you are procrastinating.

[dovah]

dear self

please stop drinking so much tea
i feel like i'm going to explode

yours truly,
self

[regular;]

dear r.,

i tried doing it the nice way. you didn't listen. so let me say this one more time: do not, and I mean do not speak to me ever again. ever. i mean it. i wish i never met you. you play me like a doll without control. so now i'm getting over you and i'm not stopping. i know you think i won't - can't - but i am. slowly. you've proved unworthy of my former easy love. it became hard to love someone after you. and now i don't know if that emotion remains within me. but all i know is that if i want to find out, i need to get over you. the process is a work in progress but i'll wait. i'd wait years if it meant getting over you and you realizing how wrong you were.

sincerely,
a.

[food ☕️]

Dear JJ,
Heh, another month's gone by. I've lost almost all my faith in you. I thought you were my best friend. My only friend, actually. The more I think about it the more I realize you've never really been there for me. I tried. I tried to help you fight through it but you just tune me out. I'm a nuisance, I know. I just-- I just don't know anymore. I want to just give up. My life has become one ball of stress and I just don't know what to do. I-- I miss you Jay! I'm scared! I'm terrified of growing up. My Grandfather would scoff at me for saying that, for when anyone ever says that he scolds them on how they're just being a baby. I don't care! I don't want to get older! Us, growing apart, just confirms my fear. You're too old for me. People always say they'd never want eternal life, but honestly, I don't think I'd mind. I wish we could just stay frozen in time, you and I, so we could always be with one another. We have been friends since sixth grade, and gosh how long ago that feels now. I don't know how much more I can take. You promised me we'd move in together, at least until things got sorted out. Until we got out of college. Well, now you gone. Some promise that was! And now college is just around the corner. I know, it was a far fetched idea. There was no chance we'd go to the same college, but it was our eleven year old minds with wishful thinking. We knew it then too, but you know, one could hope. Oh gosh, you don't know how much I miss you! It's tearing me apart. I don't want to get older. I don't want to loose you. Please, please come back, Jay.

Please...

☕️ Love, a forgotten friend.