Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Pasa Fino]

Dear Mum and Dad.
Please stop trying to control me. I'm not a child anymore, and can handle my own problems. If I want to talk to the TCC online, I should be allowed to. I don't know why you hate Him so much, but he hasn't done anything wrong. All he's done is care for me and try his best to keep me from getting in trouble. Is that a crime?

Someday I might have to make a choice between you and Him, and well, as much as I hate to say it, It might not be you.

Even Sheila thinks you're too controlling and that I should try to finish as soon as I can. I love you guys, but I can only take so much, you know?

If I want to talk to Tannos, or to date my special someone, I dont see why you should stop me. They've never hurt me in any way.

He'll be moving back this year, and while you dont know it yet, this will change things. You can't keep me back forever. I appreciate the sentiment, but I want to make my own choices now thank you.

I wish things could be different, but wishing never solved my problems, and I dont see this one changing anytime soon.

I can't think of anything else to say now, except goodbye.

-Pasa Fino

[Milui]

Dear Friends,
I always feel like I'm not good enough for you. I feel like you are slowly getting bored of me. I am so scared that something like that will happen. I want to stay friends with all you guys, but I feel like I'm trying too hard and I feel like I'm a TV show that spirals into some horrible plot with bad characters. I want to cheer you guys up as best I can but I don't know how to impress or make good jokes. I just feel so boring. Please don't leave because I'm so gray.
Love,
Sio

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E,
I don't think you understand just how tightly you have me wrapped around your fingers.

"Ily"
That's all it took, Em.
Three letters. Out of context, that's all you had to say - no, text, you didn't even have to say it, all it took was a text - before I started thinking that everything would work out for the better.

Three letters, E, and you've got me believing that the world might just let us survive.
I'm terrified. I'm honestly terrified of letting you destroy me.
I'm terrified of having to watch that someone break you all over again, I'm terrified of watching you let her back into your life in my place.

And yet here I am, not twenty-four hours after I worried that I couldn't trust you, entirely at your disposal. Maybe it's just me being jealous or dramatic. But I think that we might just make it after all.

When you first started doing this, I got worried. I got worried the "ily" was a goodbye of sorts, that you were relapsing into the dark or that you were leaving me for that someone. I got worried that something terrible was happening and you were saying "ily" as a formality, a mere polite goodbye.
And I still worry every time you send one of those three-letter texts, sure. But I always worry about you, so this is no different.
The thing is, now I trust you, and now, once the worry fades, I'm just happy.
Happy to finally have a friend who cares about me.
Happy to finally be happy.

Here's my way of thought on this, my darling 'four-year-old'.
We weren't even in a conversation.
We hadn't even spoken for a half hour or so (a record for us, honestly) and I just get three stupid letters that brightened my whole day.
For you to send that, you must've been thinking of me, or missing me, or something. Which means I'm not the only one putting effort into this friendship.
Which means that you're still around. Everyone else may have left me, but you? You take the time to text me "ily" with no context in the middle of the night.

Sure, you've done this weekly for a month or so by now, but I can't stop smiling every single time you send me those three-letter-texts.
It's the dumbest, sappiest, most ridiculous thing that's ever made me happy. It's not even three words, just three letters.
But it's enough for me.

Thank you for being you.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for being patient when I couldn't trust you.
Thank you for being perfect enough that I could learn to trust you, that I'm learning to trust you.

Ily.



Dear Self,
You're going to be okay.
Everything's working out perfectly.
Let life work itself out. <3
~

[Miceforevee]

''Best friends'',

I really feel like you both hate me and used me as a follower the last 2 years and i cant leave you two as when we became friends i thought we were real friends not fake so i lost my other friends for you two and im not being a loner so you better not leave me to sit alone at school. I really hate you two also its so hard following you two each without saying something each day knowing you talk about me about me.. x_x

[Silkala]

Dear Chipotle and Jammy, (beautiful nicknames I know.)
I love you guys so much.
I was the first out from the test, and I sat nervously outside waiting for you to finish. I thought you would be mad because I didn't wait for you, but when you came out of the room, you smiled and came to sit with me.
I was having a bad day and was mean to ya for a while. I thought you would be offended and leave me, but you just smiled. So patiently and softly. I couldn't be mad anymore.
When I broke down right after that you didn't tell me to get up and face the world. You two smiled and knelt beside me and hugged me as I calmed down.
When I was nervous the next day, I thought you would make jokes about it. But you guys just smiled and asked if I was ok.

You guys have done so much for me in the mere year we've hung out. I was going to repay you for all these things.
Until you both accidentally let the cuff of your shirts slip, and I saw scars so achingly similar to my own.


I want to help you guys. Please, hang on long enough for me to do that.

I love you guys so much.

[tissue paper.]

dear bullies,

stop it.

dear soul,

have you forgiven me..? I made a stupid mistake by being her friend, insulting me, being a bully, rude.. i promise i wont talk to her next year! if she's in my class next year, i'll change it so were not. please forgive me, i'm terribly sorry.. she was a jerk and hurt us both, never again, ok?

dear daddy,

err, yeah.. i like drawing-BUT DON'T FORCE IT, i don't want to draw every day just to please you, because if you make me, i'll draw horribly on purpose. I know you want me to be smart, and have a career with computers, but.. im not that person, you don't even know my problems, you think i'm an a+ student, hah, so glad i threw out my report card. because im horribly failing most of my classes even though i pay attention and listen, it's like my brain clears it's history the next day.. im sorry. i know you'll be mad at me when you find out..

[FreddyCenobite]

Dear Kevin,
... I miss you. I miss a lot of things about us, but mostly I miss talking almost daily, you being there when I needed you, and just... you. At first it killed me to admit this, but now it's eating me alive. You have your girlfriend now, and I genuinely want to be friends, but... I mostly don't want to be forgotten. You've had many girlfriends and now you probably don't even remember their names; I don't want to be another name.

I'm so very, genuinely sorry for what I did to you, but I never explained it and I can't now without interfering with your new, happy life. That's the last thing I want so that's why I didn't talk since January... but that doesn't matter because you basically hate me and I don't know what I did other than be your ex.

Sincerely,
Why did I push away the one person I shouldn't have?

[cardboardteeth]

]dear b;;

i'm soooo sorry. i am. i want you back c:

[.Deku.]

Dear C,

Since I'm honestly too frightened of offending you, I felt in the mood to do some venting.

A while ago you made that new oc of yours for rping purposes, and I was really glad to see you all happy with your new character.
I mean, it had been quite a while since I saw you actually interested in rping in general, as for a while there you kind of went off it.
I honestly adore rping with you, probably even more then you enjoy doing it with me. There's a reason I used to pop on everyday back when we first rped just to rp with you, it was really, really fun and I always looked forward to what would happen next. But when you asked me to rp with you, with this new oc of yours... I understand that you like to be in the spotlight sometimes, I mean, doesn't everyone?.. But this new oc of yours practically has no flaws whatsoever. Super strength, insane senses, and Psychic powers? I mean, how are any normal characters supposed to compete with that? It's just really not very fair.. It's hard to stay interested in a rp when I constantly feel like my characters are inferior to yours in every which way.. ._. Even in the RP's in which I enjoyed there was still a bit of that powerplaying.. and while I went along with it, it would make me kind of sad sometimes.. There is a reason why I leave my characters open from time to time. It's not because I want them to get hurt, but because even though I like to have a powerful character, I like everyone else to have a chance too, and enjoy themselves. It's just no fun if you leave everyone feeling like background characters. I like them to have a more human feel.. able to get hurt no matter how strong, or unhurtable they may seem..

I guess when it all comes down to it, What I'm saying here is that I don't really feel fairly treated in our rps. I always feel left in the dust, and like I'm just there to be that romantic interest or something and as much I enjoy that aspect of our rps, I would like my characters to have a little spotlight now and then too.. I still haven't brought this up to you, and honestly, probably still wont. Because I'm afraid you would get offended by what I had to say, or just wouldn't get it.. *Curls up in a small ball* And on a similar, but different topic.. I keep getting these urges to do those RPs I used to do with you, but I'm afraid to ask you because I feel like I'm bothering you every time I do.. Like I enjoy it way more then you do, and because of this I went months if not longer without asking you... I asked you recently too and you said you were up for it, but you never really brought it up since, so I've been too afraid to bring it up again in case I, again.. annoy you..

Just thinking about this makes me really sad.. But I'm glad to have somewhere to vent it all out, and I'm just going to go back to playing some games and talking to K. - Sincerely, M

[Adonis]

dear jasmyn,

I still miss you. You were probably one of my first few friends to have online and every time i think back to those times I'm saddened. I'm saddened that I never got to say goodbye and that I'll probably never talk to you again. I'm sorry for not talking to you more when I should've, and for the drama I caused. That's why I try and think back to the good things..Man, did we roll heads when we were together. I hope that someday I can find you, even if I don't know it's you, and that we'll end up as friends again if that does happen.