Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Fox,]

dear d__e,
I feel like I love you again. This is not good. I hope we can go Friday though, and I hope everything is perfect. (3
- bae

dear d__a,
you owe me 11$. I really don't want to see you again, but you owe me money. lol.
- friend who doesn't want to talk to you

dear r____e,
I kindof don't want to go to with you anymore. *shrugs* I just don't want you to rub off on me, I'm pretty sure I've found some amazing friends at volleyball.
- your straight friend

dear e___y,
you would've been with him if you wouldn't have rejected him. twice.
- slightly angry friend

dear j___b,
if you love her, go for it. if you love me, I'm sorry. if you love someone else, gg my fishy friend.
- the cooler friend haha

dear self,
should've been in bed 2 hours ago. why are electronics so addicting. btw, get your act together NOW.
- person who wants to make the team

[sentinel]

Dear mother,
[[Lmao no you can't be ranting about me on the phone to family members and then
just come out of your room and try to start a conversation like everything's just fine.
I can hear you, you know. I can literally hear everything. You weren't even trying to
be quiet, not even a bit. And acting like you're completely innocent isn't gonna work.
You thought I didn't like you before but now I am seriously starting to hate your guts.
You cannot keep doing this and expect me to be okay with it. We have a few minor
differing beliefs but I don't try to shove mine in your face all the time, or constantly
disrespect your beliefs like you do to me. At the very least you could have a small
amount of decency and learn to say that crap to my face instead of behind my back.
The next time you wonder why there's so much tension between me and your family,
or why I don't like them, you can just go ahead and consider yourself the cause of it.
Everything was fine until you started talking crap and making these false allegations.
Whether or not I always hear you in the process, it gets back to me one way or another.]]
–L-20

Dear goat,
[[Please appear where are you are you okay or do you need me to yell at somebody?
It's been like a week did you lose your phone or what ??? please text me goat buddy if
you can or like call me from your home phone because I am getting really worried ;n;]]
–L-20

Dear tumblr,
[[Wowwo I got a lot of followers quick what even did I do I am merely a Dragnet fangirl
They're probably already friends with each other and I won't fit in though RIP @ myself]]
–L-20

[happy socks]

dear j,
im sorry. i miss us, and im 5000 miles away and i know i dont cross your mind as much as i used to. you're amazing and deserve better, trust me. the truth is i was afraid to mess up, to mess us up. im not worth devoting time into. and yes, you had every right to be upset with me when i turned you down just because i was hooked on someone that i should have never even liked. but its okay now, you made me realize what i do deserve, and im working my way to being half the person to deserve you.
--cait

[誰不低頭]

ah these things never last
i shouldn't have taken this happiness for granted

as they said,
whats the point of learning human science?
it never eliminates
sadness and silence

[ajayy]

dear k,

god you are so perfect. but why do you like me? i'm just a guy. a weird guy. you're a stinking football player. this is so cliche. i want to see you right now but it's midnight and i can only text. gah.

sincerely, e.

[monochrome.]

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B,
Thank you for making the best day of my life everything that I envisioned it would be.
Thank you for making the past two years of my life worth living, thank you for showing me that sometimes life is worth the pain.
Thank you for being the person I thought you were.
Thank you for being human. Thank you for allowing all the faith I put into you to pay off.
Thank you for loving me. Thank you for the "of course". Thank you for the extra hug, for smiling so big, for being flawed and for being perfect.

I love you so much more than you could ever know.
Thank you for being exactly who I needed you to be.

- A
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E,
I'm trying so hard to trust you. I really am.
I just don't know if I can. I've been hurt way too many times. I don't even trust myself, but I'm trying so hard to trust you.
You're making this harder than it already is, and I hate that. It's really hard to trust you when, just days after you literally sobbed on my shoulder about someone, you go back to that same someone. I can see that someone replacing me, and it hurts like hell. It gets so much harder to trust you when the very person that hurt you so badly, the very person that I had to help you live through, is the person that is replacing me.

All I want to do is protect you, make sure that you're happy. God, above all else, I need to protect you. You're too perfect, you know? You're just too innocent and perfect, and the world is trying to ruin you.
I'm trying my best to keep that from happening.
But I can't protect you from yourself.
And I sure as hell can't protect you from the person who hurt you the most if she's the person you're keeping closest to you.
I don't trust her.
I don't trust you.
But hell if I don't try.

I don't think we're making it much further after this. It hurts like hell to admit, but I'll admit it all the same. I can't trust you because you won't let me, and I can't get close to you because that back stabber, that bully, that brat who pushed you too far, is the one closest to you. So I think we're done, and now I've got nobody left. You were all I had.
 
But thank you. More than anything, thank you.
Thank you for making me promise to keep fighting.
Thank you for being happy for me.
Thank you for talking me through everything, for making me laugh, for saving endless messages, for screaming "TSUKKI!", for offering me your sandals, for laughing at me and screaming about how you told me so when I twisted the hell out of my ankle, for skittles bullets, for candy bars broken over my knee, for amputations, for Bea being worth the snakes, for petitions to change time zones, for severed limbs of Amazon franchise owners, for KaGAYhina. Thank you for all our inside jokes. Thank you for being the reason that I'm smiling as I write this, smiling at the memories.
Thank you for riding the metro with me, for crying with me, for laughing at me when my pupils dilated. Thank you for playing games with me, thank you for keeping me sane, thank you for being my "test penguin". Thank you for putting up with my endless babbling, for telling me just how nice she was, for fighting your way to the front of that line, for singing in the crowd with me, for singing to the crowd with me.
Thank you for throwing your hands in the air with me. For screaming those lyrics, for yelling, "this is my song!" every single time the music changed.
Thank you for being infinite with me.

Also, I think I might have been in love with you.
I'm over it now, though.
I think.
I think I had that beaten out of me.
I think I'm okay now.

- A
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C,
None of these letters hurt as much as yours. None of them hurt as much as what we had.
The best part is, what happened with us is happening again, and I can't help but focus on my past with you rather than fixing my present with her.

I was there for you when nobody else was. That's the thing, I stood by you even when I was attacked for it.
And when I show the slightest bit of irritation that you sabotaged me, my family, everything? You join everyone else and hate me just the same.

I can't do this anymore, y'know?
I can't watch you follow me around like a lost puppy one minute and then stand there and let you backhand me the next. I can't offer you a hug and a tissue and then fall on the ground while you kick me down.
One minute I'm there for you, the next you're destroying me.

And what do I get for leaving you behind after two years of taking your emotional abuse? When I leave you in the kindest way I know how, when I gently grow away from you without doing anything to hurt you? I get attacked, broken down. I got written off as disloyal, when all I've ever been to you is loyal.

I wasn't the best friend. I picked fights sometimes, I ignored you other times, I even got mad at you every once in awhile. Sure, I through insults right back at you, but not before crap like, "pelican neck" came from you. You found all my insecurities and picked at them until they bled. And that - what you did to me, all of it - is not okay. And now I'm finally saving myself from this hellish friendship.

The thing is, C, I can't help but feel like I'm the one leaving you in this scenario. I mean, in reality I am. I'm the one that's leaving, I'm the one that's ending this relationship, I'm the one that's putting my foot down.
I might be the one that's leaving, but you haven't been by my side in years.
You were the one that left first.

I'm so sorry.
I'm so guilty.
I wish I could help you.
I love you.
Or I used to. I can't tell anymore.
But I need to put myself first for once in my life.

- A
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D,
I missed you.
You've told me three times now that you've missed me, maybe waiting for me to say it back, but I can't.
I really did miss you, y'know? You were always there for me even when I didn't notice it, and I missed you.
Funny thing is that I've been missing you for a whole damn year and just noticed it now, now that the ache is gone.
I missed you. A lot.
I can't say it to your face, but there it is all the same.
Please don't ever let me make those same mistakes.

Thank you for tagging around to see someone you don't even know, for jogging in hot weather down the street with me, for watching me squeal and watching my pupils dilate and watching me fall in love and watching me be happier than I've ever been.
Thank you for not calling me crazy after everything that weekend, after singing in the crowd, after crying, after the squealing. Thank you for buying exactly what I needed, for screaming "Scrubs" with me, for inviting me to volunteer at your barn. For being everything that I've missed the past year.

I love you, and I missed you like hell.
I think I love you like the best friend that I've been missing for so long.
Thank you for being infinite with me.
- A
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E,
I'm trying. It may not look like it, but for the first time in two years I'm actually trying, actually pushing myself.
I will do better.
I will improve.
I will get faster.
I will not let my disease get the best of me.

Thank you for giving me a chance.
Thank you for letting me fight again.
Thank you for letting me be happy at practices again.
Thank you for actually critiquing my stroke, for helping me improve.

I'm finally in the right place, and I'll be fighting like hell to improve from here.
Thank you for giving me that opportunity.

- A
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E's Group,
Screw you guys.
You may look down on me as a nothing, but watch me destroy your times.
I'm already getting there.
Just because I can't do what you can? It doesn't give you the opportunity to bully me.

Thank you for giving me the motivation to improve, though.
I really do(n't) appreciate it.
- A
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C,
I love you guys so much.
I'm going to be better this summer, I promise.
You're all with me everyday, and this summer I'll be giving it back, no matter how little time I have to do so.
I'll make the time.
You deserve it.
- A
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p2

[Rythrox]

Dear Ashton,
I know its been a year and a half... But i still can't get you off my brain. I hate myself for it too. What did i do wrong? i tried my best to show you what you meant to me; the world. I really did. On the days i didn't even want to get up. Where i just wanted to lay there forever and rot away because nothing was worth it; you were. You gave me a will to be a better person. Every time i said i loved you i meant it. But you didn't. You loved her. i really hope she was worth your time. I really hope that she made you happy. Remember all the times we stayed up talking to each other until 3 am? does that not matter to you at all? that i told you my darkest secrets; i don't think you realize you're the reason for most of them. I cant even say ''I love you'' to anyone without it feeling like a lie. You made me hate humanity. I know you don't even think of me. You most likely wont even remember me. I was just another name on your list, right? I cant believe you still make me cry sometimes. You still haunt me every now and then. I just want peace. Why? that's all i want to know.


Dear Khris,
I Trusted you. I really did. Hope youre proud of yourself.


Dear Aleya,
I'm Sorry. I wish i would be a better person. I just don't know how to tell you- i don't know if i have as big a heart as you. You're so amazing i wish you would see it. don't take it personal. I just want to see you. But i can't go to you. You might not want me anyway. I don't want it to end i just dont think i deserve you- or ever will. You're a lover and im a rolling stone. I never want to hurt you and i hope this doesnt. but i have to face it will. no matter how it put it. im so sorry im not a fit other half. maybe when i grow up a little more. I dont know. maybe.


Dear Self;
Whats wrong with you man. You think you're a good guy but you hurt everyone. You started distancing yourself. You're an outcast, it's all you know- right? some excuse. get it together. and take it easy on the caffine. you havent even slept 3 hours a night. keep this up and youll end in the hospital again; you reckless insomniac.

[nerf this!]

Dear mizzkitteh2u,

Dang it.

I miss you so much.

We haven't seen each other on Animal Jam for years. You were my best friend. Someone who I could look up to. You were someone I could come crying to and you would always make me happy. You were someone who I could depend on. Now, you're gone. You probably got hacked, since all you have in your den are two couches and a tiki torch. I don't know what happened. You left without telling me. You won't respond to my jam-a-grams. One day we're being ourselves in-game, then you leave. We were both going through our "random phase" and would say old memes to each other in Jamaa Township. You would always bring a smile to my face.

All of a sudden, while we were both saying random things that came to the top of our heads, you disappeared. Vanished. I was left alone in a half full Jamaa Township, hopping up and down by myself. You weren't there to accompany me. I've waited weeks. Months. Years. It's been so long, kitty.

You're gone.

...and I miss you.

EDIT: I found an old video of you..the only one.
http://youtu.be/eRLsEYKWuWU

[noodle cat]

dear mr. roberts,
please be okay.
you're a really good teacher and often motivated
me with your crazy speeches. you never really told
us anything about yourself other then hinting that
you worked for nasa at one point. we didn't even
know you are an experienced hiker that has
traveled all over the place. that's so neat.
over the weekend you were hiking with a group at
the grand canyon and went missing. you still
haven't been found and this scares me.
i really hope you're okay.
-a very worried former student

[raisins.]

Dear me,
Stop doing things I shouldn't do