Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Nawratus]

Dear... I'm not sure who,

I'm so scared for tomorrow. C's Mom found the mad lib we made, which wasn't appropriate for children. So now she thinks that I'm the cause of C drifting away from God and now I'm scared about tomorrow. I'm trying to avoid my problems, but nothing's helping. I just really want to not exist right now and go away for a long time and never have to deal with my problems ever again. I have to make a good impression to his Mom and I'm afraid I'm going to mess up. So if I don't show up, this may be the end of me and C being together. Which for some reason feels so relieving to me, but I'm not prepared to give up on the relationship. I just... I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm going to cry, which I might if I don't stop thinking about this topic. I'm not a bad person and I wish C's Mom would know that. I'm not bad, I promise. :C

Sincerely,
a scared and really really stressed out Nawratus.

[Fenyx]

i don't know if our staff will ever see this but still^^

dear cs staff,
i guess i just want to say thank you.
thank you for creating this site, thank you for all the amazing pets, thank you for all the effort you put into this!
cs has helped me through some hard times and during the last for years it became a part of me and it will have a special place in my heart forever.
i met so many great people here and had so much fun and found a helping hand whenever i needed one.
you guys are great!
this thanks also goes to the community!
you guys are all so helpful and nice! whenever i had a question or needed help, there was always one to help me!
this community is fantastic and so are you guys!
and though this user will probably never read this:
thank you for pointing out the otherkin community to me when i posted on the mental illness thread because i thought i was driving crazy.
you were so right, that's exactly what i meant! i found people like me, thanks to you!
and i finally know who i am :')
so, a great thank you to everyone on here!
(oh and- Tess? great job! )
luv ya all
your Kin

[Fox,]

d---,
I messed up. So damn much. I'm sorry.

If only I could go back to October, I would change everything. Heck, we may have had our first kiss by now. But no, I was stupid enough to change this all. After that, I thought id repaired us: we joked, poked fun, and were best friends.

But the dance changed everything. Secrets were spilled, people were hurt. And we were hurt.

When B dragged me into this, I immediatly wanted to leave. I mean, he can be a jerk sometimes. And J told E everything, and I was put to the responsibility to tell you. Gosh, why? If id had just stayed with you, none of this would've happened.

Now you hate me.

-from, your overwhelmed 'gal pal' :'c

[acatalepsy]

Day VI
I'm spiralling. Not just because of my missing you. I don't know. I feel a tight feeling in my stomach and I don't know I don't know I don't know
I want to paint. I haven't in a while, and I know that you don't want me to, but I need to, you don't understand. I haven't in a while.
I'm numb but I hurt but I'm numb.
I hope you're doing well, babe. I hope you're doing well. Because I'm not, but I want you to.
-abject

[yeentei]

Dear myself,

Stop hating yourself and stop being awkward. Seriously dude. It's not gonna get you anywhere.

From, me.

[Fenyx]

dear Jessi...
why?
you know you can tell me everything.
don't you trust me anymore? and if so, why?
did i anything wrong?
i just want you and mirko to be happy again...
but instead you prefer to isolate in your little lonely bubble of despair...
i know you're suffering, i see it in your eyes, in your faked smile, i feel it like waves crashing into me.
and i am suffering, too.
i'd like to tell you so much...but how? you are right next to me, but still miles away...
why dont we support each other anymore?
i miss you!
Rahel

[Cloverwoods]

Dear me (again..),

Go ahead, cry all you want.. You deserved to go to PAX East to meet your hero, but instead you have to watch that dream vanish.. Nobody can understand the pain you're going through, to have your only dream be taken away from you.. You deserve so much more than this, you don't deserve having your dream being taken away from you.. So go ahead sob for the rest of the day, because you deserve more..

From, heartbroken you...

[.nora]

dear me,

you have four weeks of school left, and you're flopping every single subject. you're not even trying. finals come in two weeks, and you haven't studied a single thing. this counts towards your future, you are literally blowing this for yourself. not only are you disappointing yourself, your disappointing mom and dad. seriously, you're going to regret this for the rest of your life, if you don't get your act together.

sincerely,
yourself

[paper planets]

Dear G,

Seriously?! That's the first thing that I thought when I woke up this morning, and your words are what made me toss and turn all night. You don't do that kind of thing.. Like you know how I feel about him and then you go and ask this stupid question about "if I like him" when he's sitting right there! Right beside me! Then you had to go ahead and make every single dare you gave either me or him in truth or dare about us. You aren't helping anything at all! Why would you do that! Things were so awkward... Even hours after you asked... And just when things were getting back to normal he had to go! Now I have to wait two weeks to see if things will go back to normal! He definitely knows how I feel now, if he doesn't then he's more oblivious than I thought. I'll forgive you, of course, I already have... But seriously! What was going through you head when you asked that? Did you think it would help me in some way? I'm already shy as it is, you really didn't help.. At all! I just... Don't know what to do... I feel so anxious a this happened yesterday.. I wish I could go back though.. And actually answer the question, but even now I'm terrified. Anyways, we'll just see how things go next time..
P.S. I'm just letting our all of my anger and annoyance, I might actually thank you for the later on XD

From, J



Dear A,

Why..... I really hope we can go back to normal. Well, kind of.. Maybe you feel the same way, maybe we'll end up talking about it. I doubt it though. I'm super shy and you're super oblivious to how I feel. Don't you realize how I smile when you show up? How you brighten up my mood when you say hi, or even wave? How you make butterflies flutter away in my stomach each time I see you? How I fall furthur and furthur each time you smile or laugh? How my eyes brighten when you decide to sit by me? To me it seems pretty obvious, but maybe it isn't. I just want to know how you feel about me... Do you smile when you see me? Do you sneak little glances my way when I'm not looking? Do you memorize what my smile looks like, how I look when I'm happy, sad... Because I do, but with you.... If you feel the same it would make me.. I don't even know, I would freak out. But I'd keep my cool around you, just so things were less awkward. Though, thing were awkward with us yesterday.. Hopefully the awkwardness will fade, even if that means I'm being pushed back to the friendzone. It's alright, I'll tell you eventually.. I hope.

Sincerely, J



Dear AD,

Sorry about that really girly moment you had to witness... Seriously, though... Anyways, don't know whether to be angry or fine with G's question/truth he asked me. I might just have to wait and see. I'll be sure to catch you up on anything interesting that happens on the weekend that you're away. But, it was kinda crazy.. To me, at least... *cough*totallynottheclosestI'vecometoafirstkiss*cough*
It got old quickly though, I mean, yeah, the dare for a kiss on the cheek was fine *cough* but, umm, after that it just got annoying. He wasn't helping the awkwardness between us at all. But guess what? He kissed me on the cheek!!! Ahh! *cough* sorry, it happened again. And then he helped me up into that trailer we were sitting on.. After the awkward question and the kiss in the cheek, he helped me up twice! I felt so giggly.. It was weird... But I felt happy, until G kept giving us those kinds of dares, but my annoyance faded quickly. It was so nice to have a weekend with you and him and everyone... See ya again soon! Hopefully I won't have another freak out (well unless something big happens, then everyone has to be prepared)...

From, J


EDIT;;

Dear A (again..),

I wish I could just throw away all my nerves and my shyness, just for a few minutes, to talk to you. I swear, sometimes I think I can and then I see you and all that confidence is gone... I wish I could tell you how I feel.

Sincerely, J



Dear me,

Just talk to him! Seriously! Suck it up and just start the conversation!

From me

[tresme]

dear me,

you have 5 weeks of school, pull it together.
you have been assigned in the program, and
you know that a friend has too, so there are
no more excuses. let this last semester count,
get a's and b's. achieve your goal. p l e a s e.

sincerely, kenai

dear j____,

I'M STILL SCREAMING
YOU'RE ACTUALLY HAVING A KID.
can't wait to be in the room next
to that annoying demon spawn.
and when you come back, help me
clean the bathroom.

sincerely, kenai