Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Fox,]

dear team,
really? really? you expect us to say GG and be happy. after you cheated. really? how do you feel?
some of us are crying. not me, nooo, my heart is hardened. but some of us are crying because you cheated. woooooow. let's talk about being low for a moment.

dear s,
stop. I'm serious, stop. following me around, wanting approval. making jokes that are filthy, but i laugh to make you feel good. stop. being a hypocrite. seriously, you make us all mad. just stop.

dear b,
really? I know you can fix it, but at least keep your tone straight. i m slightly dissapointed, how it takes us moments to realize our strengths. I play my heart out, but some of you don't. Just get your act together. Concentrate. I've tried my hardest. Now its your turn. My throat burning, killing me. Help me instead of just standing in silence. Just gst it together, ok?
Ugh.
~

Needed to vent, sorry for the thoughts~

[Blue_Lagoo]

J~

Thanks for always being a great friend and you may not know it, but I really really really like you. You made my world into a better place on homecoming night. Thanks for dancing with me even though I really stink. I hope we'll be friends for a very long time, if not more.

~S

[anathema]

dear halloween,
omggg hurry up pls
i just want to party and then go trick-or-treating like a 5 year old already

[cat&bear]

S.,
Oh great employment gods, I need to get one of these jobs I'm applying for. I gave my two weeks notice without another job in line to go to. I have an interview tomorrow, feeling good about that. But honestly it's not the job I really want. It's the furthest away out of all my options- but it looks like my best chance of getting a job. I'd need to leave my house to get to work 25 min before I start my shift, and the other ones it's only 15min tops to get there. I also don't know if they could give me the hours I need to have a job. So, if they can't give me the hours I need- do I still take the job if it's offered? I might have to. I still have a few applications to work on, but if I get this job, and it gives me the hours... maybe it'll work out well for me. Working there was a spur of the moment idea, but it's looking brighter than any of the others. We'll see how things are looking tomorrow.

C.

[Noni Gailin Ayrenin~]

Dear mother,

.........
I'm lost for words right now....

You've been out since probably noon (it's 11PM), WITH my sister who has school tomorrow...
.....
To get a KITTEN?!?!?!
YOU CAN'T EVEN BRING HIM HOME!
((The step-unit-thing has said no more pets))

And what about Oliver?
You know, your 12 year old and probably dying cat?
I grew up with him.....
He's older than my brother!!

I just....I know Oliver doesn't have much left but.....
It feels like you're trying to replace him before he's even gone.
And that hurts.
That hurts, so much.

I'm not even going to pay attention to that kitten.
You can't make me love that kitten.
He's not Oliver, and never will be.

Now, If you'll excuse me, I have tears to stop before the step-thing see's me crying.....

[topazius.]

Dear Mrs. F



Why are you mean? We never do anything. The two girls who sit behind me at Science, just because they don't have homework done doesn't mean you call Mr. D over. He's a nice teacher and doesn't really care if they miss homework unless you call him. I can see why everyone hates you. Today, my brother overheard me talking about Ms. F to my mom, and he said, "Ms. F? Oh that's right everyone does hate her."

[sentinel]

____,
[[I still don't have the guts to talk to you about this, so.
I know that you meant well- you were just trying to get me to think about my decisions, make me aware of the dangers and everything.
The thing is, the way my mind works... Well, it gave me the idea that you're trying to make me rethink my decision and do something else. I know- I know, I know that's probably not what you were trying to do and that wasn't your intent, but you wouldn't believe the mind games my family plays. They always twist everything to make it sound like they're just concerned for my well-being, but really, their intent is to drag me down or make the situation worse. Truth is, you really started sounding like them. And they don't think I can make it. So in my mind... well, I took it that you don't think I can make it, either, and you're trying to get me to step out.
Due to my family, my self esteem's already- well, practically nonexistent- maybe you were able to pick that up from the few hints I dropped, the things I said, and the way I was acting, or maybe not.
Thing is, I already knew about the dangers. I knew what I was getting into. I was set on it, I was sure.
Now... now I have doubts. Not because I want to change my mind, but now I feel like truly everyone is against me, even you.
Maybe that was part of your intent, perhaps this is a test. I mean, I've been doing better than some of the people who've been there longer than me, it can't be that I'm failing, you would've kicked me out. I'm more attentive than some of the others. And yeah, maybe I'm shy, paranoid, and anxious, but I'm trying my best to overcome that... and I have been making progress, well, up until now...
For my own sake, I'm just going to presume that you mean well.... Please, don't prove me incorrect.
Maybe, maybe I'll tell you a bit more about my.. amazing... life the next time we meet. I told you about the Script incident, I think perhaps the Thanksgiving incident would put things a bit more into perspective. Or all the other holiday incidents... Especially the ones involving the extended family I have around here.
...Now that I think of it, hey, you got anything I could help out with on Thanksgiving? Or Christmas? ;D;"]]
–1-L-20

[cat&bear]

B.,
I don't know what you see in me that makes me worth putting up with my anxiety freak-outs (attacks), but I know you see something, and I'll certainly take it. I don't know what I'd do with out you.

This is weird though, not talking about the future like we used to. But it makes sense, we have a friend who just got engaged super young, and your sister in law just got pregnant at 22. Neither of us are in any rush what so ever. Seeing things in action so young has freaked us both out.

I really wish I could have stayed the night. Being in bed with you is all I want in this world right now. Warm and comfortable, sharing a comforter, being in your small, quiet, homey apartment... it feel like home to me more than my own house.

Oh, did I mention, I have a math test tomorrow I have to make up because I was absent last week? Well that's happening. I'm staying after class to take it. Apparently it was both harder and longer than the other test we've had in there. Great.

Best of luck getting your license tomorrow. I have to say- it would be nice to not have to be the one driving every time. But really, in general, I hope you get it! I mean for you, not for my benefit by the way.

I love you so so much.
C.

[noodle cat]

dear sam,
dinner was great.
homecoming was great.
hanging out with you all weekend was great.
i can't wait for saturday.
i'll get to see you c:
-emily

[forecast]

dear me,
you are not grumpy, you are not mean. you are reserved and quiet, wearing a mask of indifference. you can fake emotions very well. you are talented, but can also be manipulative. that you need to improve on, and need to stop altogether. you are very observant, hence why you are quiet. you are busy listening to everything, watching everyone. you have a pretty cute face and a small physique, giving off the impression you are 'weak'. you are very swift and can run quite well, and can squish through smaller spaces.

you are great.
i am great. and nobody can tell me otherwise.

love, me.