Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[sparrow;]

Dear E,
Stop being so attention seeking. I know you're faking it, and so does everyone else. It's so irritating to see you acting like a drama queen at every little thing so please just stop it.
M

[anathema]

dear m______,
i doubt you'll ever know how much i love you

[_flooof_]

Dear toast..


Pls stop being burnt :T

[Sad Café]

Dear _______,

We both know how this is going to end
I'll be waiting

[sentinel]

____,
[[Yeah so I'm having one of those days where I can't human properly. I can't talk without tripping over my own sentences, and you probably saw that, which is why I chose to keep my mouth shut 99% of the time, plus I felt like a bother, so...
I know I made a fool of myself but that's basically normal, anyway. I could feel you judging me for hating dresses and social situations, lol.
Thanks for the subtle interrogation, it's nice to know someone cares about how my family treats me.
I could've told you more but at the same time, I couldn't. My brain wouldn't let me. I'm not very trusting... sorry.
At least maybe now you understand the reasoning behind the way I act. I wish I could've explained the rest.
I kinda went all stone-faced too. It's nothing against you or anything, today's just been one of those days, you know... and it's what I revert to.
There's always the parade, but you probably still won't get much more conversation out of me, heh. I prefer to remain mysterious...]]
–1-L-20

Guy in my 8th hour class,
[[You must be truly desperate to come to me and ask me that question.
You know how I feel about dating in high school, or... well, perhaps it's better to say romance in general.
I only state my opinion on the matter about, let's see, seven to ten times per day, and I know you've heard it plenty.
Not my thing, pal.
Were you thinking I'd make a special exception just for you? That's cute, but actually... it isn't, that was sarcasm.
Please don't try to sway my opinion, I don't need the extra migraine. 8th hour is the end of school, when things are supposed to be winding down and not getting any worse for me. If you intend to continue that conversation on Monday, I'd strongly advise against it.]]
–1-L-20

School counselor,
[[Please don't get the wrong idea, I'm really not trying to get out of that project, I just can't talk about myself in front of the class. Doing anything in front of class is hard enough, but I don't trust people with that information.... any of it. I haven't even told any of my friends, over the years I've known them. Not even the one I knew for over 10 years. I'd rather not think about my childhood, anyway, but if I must present the information to you in order to get something better than a 0, I guess I will.... perhaps.... but then, perhaps not; I don't remember it well, the bits I do remember are depressing, and I really don't want to talk to my parents... at all. I didn't really appreciate you laughing when I said that I hate them and they hate me, because that's actually how it is... well, I don't really hate them, I should, but I can't, and I don't know why.
Look, I know your idea is to get us talking to our parents and reminiscing, and get us to have more 'family moments', and that's really nice of you and all, but my family isn't like that... I'd rather focus on the future.
Maybe I'll just take a 0 on the project, I have extra credit in that class, anyway....
....Can I just do a presentation about my favorite TV shows? Or Explorers? That's kinda about me, right...?
Fair warning that if either I push myself to do the actual presentation, or if you try to force me to, I'm likely to panic and literally run straight out of the school, building and all.
...Ugh, I just feel like you've got the wrong idea, since I got through Communications with good grades, but I didn't have to talk about myself.... and even then, I screwed up like all heck, especially on the slam poetry. I think the teacher just felt bad for me.
This is seriously tearing me up, I can't even think about the stupid project without going into panic mode, just please, I'll do worksheets, quizzes, tests, anything. I can't handle this.]]
–1-L-20

[costanza;]

Dear Wes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! It hurts to know that you aren't here to celebrate it with us, but it help to remember that you are celebrating up in Heaven. You're 15... and I couldn't miss you more. As you get older, we will still remember you. You will be with us, especially me, as long as we breathe. I love you so much, I miss you so much. I hope, I pray actually, that you're having an awesome time up there having a huge party! Say hey to Jen too, tell her I remembered her birthday, I was one of the very few. I hope you two Heavenly party animals are having a great time up there with Christ.
I love you so, so, so much,
Em

[moonflovver]

Dear, V.
I know we don't talk anymore, like at all, but I think something must be addressed. We used to be..friends? I'm not really sure what it was, but you and the group were the only people I talked when I first came to our school last year. It was all very scary; the school was huge compared to my previous school, I had just been through a very emotional breakup and was still upset, I was sad about leaving my friends, and overall was feeling terrible. People probably thought I was the creepy girl who never talked in class and sat in the back of the room, but I just didn't feel like trying at the time. I remember when U. and K. came up to me at lunch, while I was sitting all by myself as usual, and asked me to sit with them. I was happy someone noticed me in this place, so I went with them and you were there too. They had so many friends that kept coming over, and it was a little overwhelming, but I remembered you from our latin class. We started talking, and I slowly became part of your group. But still, it just didn't feel right. I still felt like an outsider. Like the quiet girl just watching and taking it all in, but I was never truly part of the group. Still, you continued talking to me, and then you gave me the note. Yes, that note you gave me that one day after class. You swiftly put it in my hands and said, "Oh, here, have this." and left for the bus. I stared at the folded notebook paper, wondering about its contents. I dared not read it until I was home, so I held onto it on the bus ride home. I had quickly set all my things down and unfolded your note. I was met with sprawling cursive letters, that I must admit were hard to decipher. But the message was clear: you had written me poetry to confess your interest in me. I immediately texted you my response, and I regret my answer. As you know, I ultimately said no. I said I was just not looking for a relationship, that I still liked you, though only as a friend. What you replied with made me feel horrible, "It's okay. I'm used to it." I really want you to know that I never meant to just brush you off so easily, and I'm sorry that I abandoned you and the group. I did it in hopes that it would release the tension between us, and because I never belonged in your friend group. I truly wish I had said yes, because I did really like you and now we aren't even friends. I was just scared that you would find out you truly didn't like me anymore, and it would all be for nothing. I am always scared of commitment, and I am sorry that I couldn't tell you the truth when it wasn't too late.
Love, M.

[wonpil]

dear biology teacher,
i s2g if you send me to the counceling office one more time foR DOING NOTHING

dear b,
haahah aaa ur cute

dear k,
okay make fun of my laugh ok thanks yUR IS WORST BABE

dear j,
LOL WHO NAMES THERE KID THAT

dear f + l,
your the laugh of the town i cant get how you guys could be twins though ??

dear photo,
I LIKE HOW IM 5'0'' AND EVERYONE ELSE IS 5'5'' GOD. I LOVE. BEING SHORT.

dear l + c,
HYPOCRITES IM SC RE AMING

dear user on youtube,
YOUR MY NWE FRIEND

dear unknown number,
new phone who dis

[lion's tooth]

V.
Tell me all about your sign! I really don't want to have any misconceptions. Also I'll be honest, it could help me get to know another one of your sign. I feel like I ought to know more about you, my best friend is your sign, but they seem to have changed so much. I don't even know anymore. Also I know we don't talk much and the last we have I've been evasive, but I do appreciate your company. It's funny, you really are open. Unfortunately, I'm about the most reserved, closed-off friend on can get. I wish I wasn't, but I'm afraid I am. Anyways, I do enjoy speaking to you.
-The kid who believes in cusp signs.

[specters]

dear m.f,

omiGOD. you are so fricken adorable idek. you just ugh you make my heart spin. and you give really good hugs I just discovered that tonight sigh I'm kinda glad you're a nerd so you hopefully can't tell that I have a major crush on you LAWL. anyways yea love you nerd

~cuffs aka your admirer