I don't feel... right

[Montyblanc]

Every big holiday, easter, thanksgiving, etc, I go over to my grandparents for a family gathering out of requirement (because my mom says I pretty much have to go with her), and every time its the same thing... They think I can't hear them, but I can. They think something's wrong with me... they think I'm some sort of problem child because I don't talk often...

I'm just a very introverted person and with such big family gatherings I usually feel uncomfortable and very stressed out in social situations, so I tend to spend a lot of time on my own to avoid melting down. Its not like its my fault for not being an extrovert.

With this Christmas coming up really soon, even with how well this season has been going, I really don't want to go this year.
I lost my job (I was seasonal help and I took ill and got an injury really early on), I've become even more invested into online friends and talking to my half-sister who lives in Washington over Skype, and I just don't want to be anywhere near my 6 younger cousins who will have brand new toys and will likely spend most of the day arguing which means noise and lots of it. What should I do?

[Wolfie...]

That is the same as my oma and opa they think it is weird that I am quiet and don't talk very much it annoys me because they talk about it in Dutch behind my back!

[Wolf freak...]

I think my dad's side of the family thinks that because I have herd them say to each other taylah is nice she's a book worm because I stuff my face in my book and pretend that I can not hear them (funny)