Things That Annoy You (V. 77)

[hound.]

i want to jump off a damn cliff rn

[Shwimp]

You can't say anything on fun sites like these. Pretty much all of the virtual pet trading sites don't really let you speak at all. You have to learn THEIR special language or they take your voice and your memories, your achievements and whatever else you've gained. They take it all away. X3 Even those who deserve punishment do not truly receive it. You can't speak to them. Walking on eggshells every time you make a move. All these games are eggshell marathons.
It's like being chained and forcefed desserts, and people say you don't have to eat them but then you can never have a dessert again. And it's not like there's something wrong with desserts, you just don't want so many of them and it isn't healthy to only eat them.

Thisthisthisthisthis

[sweet potato]

None of my friends are really there for me.
The first friend I made at school here is being "stolen" away by my other friends.
And I introduced these friends to him, thinking we'd all get along.
But why do I feel so jealous and helpless when I see how they get along better?
I know I'm just being selfish, but without him, I'd probably be alone.

maybe I shouldn't have been friends with him in the first place.
It's heart-wrenching watching someone be taken away from you.
I would have been fine if I had no one to begin with.

Seriously, this keeps happening to me.
Why?

Why do people constantly show up in my life only to leave?
One of my old best friends had committed suicide, and the other one had replaced me.

My mom hates me, I hate myself, and everyone just leaves me.
I'm better off dead haha
I mean, this thought isn't anything new.

But seriously.
I've thought about doing that thing plenty of times.
It's not like anyone will miss me.
Heck, who will even be there to miss me?
Everyone I know is replacing me and I feel lost and alone.
Ugh I'm pathetic!!!
I'm stupid!!!
Useless!!!

Everyone, I'm sorry for being annoying. I'm sorry for being so mean. I just didn't want anyone to get close to me. I'm constantly afraid that I'll get close to someone and then they'll leave. Haha it's inevitable though. Throughout my whole life, that has been happening. It's tiring. I'm always hopeful when I meet someone that manages to somehow get close to me, but then I end up disappointed. I become replaced. Forgotten. Alone. It hurts so much to see someone I love be taken away from me, whether through death or by simply replacing me with a much better person. But I really need to stop being selfish. I know I'm being selfish, and it's stupid. But my whole life growing up, I don't remember when was the last time my mother gave me a hug or said "I love you," to me. I'm just craving to be loved by someone. Anyone. Please. I can't stop crying right now. My chest hurts so much from this pain I'm feeling. My eyes are swollen from crying so much. All I ever learned growing up was abandonment instead of love. Haha this is just becoming really cheesy now. Sorry. Sorry for being such a disappointment in all of your lives. Maybe if I had been a better person, you guys wouldn't have left me. I was just so desperate that I couldn't think straight.

Sorry.

Haha it's funny how I can't say this to anyone in real life. By tomorrow, I'll have a smile on my face, and pretend as if everything in my life is okay.
I'm really sorry for deceiving everyone like this.
I really am a horrible person.
I don't deserve "love" from anyone.

Gaahhh I say I want one thing, but then I say I don't deserve it.
Sorry.
I'm just so unstable right now.

Things will be fine tomorrow though.

[Jhemalynn]

Good grief youtube takes forever to edit videos.

[native.]

friend has to go at nine
sobs

[jésus]

Have fluid in the lungs and gear it swoosh around....

[toemoemi]

when my puppy wont stop humping everything.
its extremely degrading on both his part, and mine.

[asta,]

> My signature's finally done, which is fantastic because I'm actually happy with
it for once.

> Trouble is, now I'm bored.

> Egh. Guess I'll go see Artie.

> Or just mindlessly name all my 'waiting to be sorted' CS pets.

[Rei Cloudshift]

How can you have a cold for a week? ;x; This isn't a good sign...
I hope I'm not sick on Christmas...

[Tom Bombadil]

Mom i don't like girly clothes. I want to dress either in just plain colors or dress like a boy. Why is it so wrong for me to want to cross dress? Not like it hurts anyone.