by exixst » Fri Nov 28, 2014 4:20 pm
I wish I could see the rest of my family for Thanksgiving. I see my parents and brother all the time, and while I love them, it's just no the same with the four of us meeting up with a bunch of friends every year. I don't even talk to half of these people, and I get really uncomfortable and awkward eating in someone else's house. And when I literally just eat food and then go play Super Smash Bros because that's what all the other people near my age do, it completely destroys the holiday.
I want to see my family. My family. Not someone else's family. But they all live eight hundred miles away, or they're overseas. If I could have Thanksgiving with my older brother, that would make my day. If I could see everyone laughing and having a good time, I'd be happy. I get to see my grandmother, aunt, and cousins maybe once a year, sometimes twice if I'm lucky. I won't get to see my older brother until God knows when. Maybe I'll have graduated by that time. Will he even come to my graduation ceremony? I better not get my hopes up.
I just want to be with the people I love on a holiday like this. To make it special. I don't even care if they pester me with questions like my future plans, or which boy I like. At least they'd be here... But they're not...
I guess I'm just lonely... Must be because I'm tired.