"Is anybody there? Does anybody care what I'm feeling? I want to disappear So nobody can hear me when I'm screaming."
These lyrics sum up perfectly what I've been feeling for the longest time ever. I just feel so hopeless nowadays. Like I have no close friends to talk to anymore.
Well, I have one close friend but I really don't want to burden her with my problems since she has problems of her own. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. Ugh. I want to feel numb again. I can't even turn to my mom for help, since she'll most likely think I'm just "joking," then she'll proceed to scream at me because "blah blah blah I'm an ungrateful child."
I want to go to sleep, but nope, my brain decides that now is a great time to attack me with nostalgic memories of random bits and pieces of California.
Gosh, I feel like crying with a feeling of hopelessness right now.
I can't get that wig. I keep trading-in my tokens to get it but I always get the wigs I don't want ;W;;;; ------------------ Also...Now that I think about it....Most AKB48 songs don't have much sense in their lyrics, thus making it hard to make the signatures. I hate this </3
> We have no food and no money. > I haven't had anything to drink all day because whenever I put anything in my stomach, liquid or not, I puke it right back up. > My sister called last night and asked my mom how to make her homemade Alfredo for six people. > To make that dish for three people it's thirty dollars. > So to make it for six with leftovers it's about seventy or eighty. > My mom told her that we have no money, no food and that we're all slowly getting sick from being without food. > My dad {sisters stepdad} has cancer and is weak when he has food, now he's getting even weaker. > All my sister had to say was "that sucks" and then she couldn't wait to get off the phone with my mom. > That /words I cannot say/ is spending seventy dollars to feed her boyfriends family but can't be bothered to send us twenty dollars so we can buy a couple boxes of cheap mac and cheese. > What I've learned from this?
> Family is worthless.
> Thankfully if the check doesn't show up tomorrow, my brothers friend is going to send us money to get us through.
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