Shadowolf64 wrote:I. Am. Breaking. From the inside. It's too much. I don't know if I'll make it. It just hurts. My friends have all ditched me except the wonderful people I meet online. My dog just died on the 17th which is the 4th person close to me I've lost. When I lose someone, all of my past experiences come rushing back at me. I was having trouble with my advanced math homework Wednesday night but my dad took forever to come home and my mom was at my brother's baseball game. My mom told me that my dad was supposed to be home soon when she left so I started my homework. My dad called me about 30 minutes before he came home, asking me what I wanted to eat for dinner. I told him I needed help with math which I NEVER ask for help with homework. He actually came home around 6-8 o'clock pm, dropped of the food, and went to pick up my sister which should have taken 20 minutes. He came back about 1-2 hours later because he decided they'd stay for dinner. By then mom had already come home and I was done for the night. I went to bed and got a 50 point deduction in class for not having my homework which is the policy for late homework in advanced math. I'm still upset at him. I actually ASKED him for help that night and he didn't help me at all because he was to busy doing what he wanted to do. Sorry about the rant. I just needed to get this off my chest.
I'm really sorry about your dog and other experiences you are currently having to undergo. <3 I've lost a few loved ones in the past, including a few pets, definitely feel for you there! We all have expectations of others, and when those people don't meet them, we end up being upset at them. You may feel upset with your dad because you wanted him to help you with your homework, and he didn't. That feeling was further triggered by the fact that you had a point deduction for not having your work. But picture you in your dad's shoes. Tired after a long day at work, and just wanted to have some leisure time. Math probably wasn't the first thing he wanted to do. If you need any help with maths next time, or any other subject for that matter, write a note and leave it for him to read when he comes home, so he may help you with it in the morning ^^ Or, just tell your teacher that you had trouble with maths. I'm sure your teacher will understand c:
angelpal wrote:I need something to relive the pain in my heart every time I think about everyone who's left. I just... Want to cry... Please... I don't want to lose anyone else...
Don't feel down! Be yourself, be optimistic of the future. Life is never easy, it comes full of hardships. All those who have left you, only prove how strong you are! Despite their leaving, you're still here! So smile, for you have gone through a lot, and no matter what the future brings, realize that you have become stronger in the process.
a winking skeever wrote:every single damn night. if it's not tranny dysphoria it's anxiety over every minor social detail imaginable.
if my sentence structure is wrong, i panic. if i use one word wrong, i panic. if it's a minute too late or early, i panic. if i do one thing before the other, i panic. if i put anything in the wrong place, i panic. on the rare occasion when i think i did everything right for once, i start panicking over things i did days or weeks ago instead. logically, i know it doesn't matter. but i still get this repulsive gut-feeling that someone is going to see something out of place and think i'm a total narcissistic assquat.
i just had a nervous fit over the countdown on a frigging easter banner.
what the damn hell. please stop.
Panicking is okay sometimes. It allows you to be the best you can be. Don't mind what people think of you, for those are opinions, You know who your true self is. Perfection is almost never achieved, so don't panic over a wrongdoing you have done. Let it go, and be proud of yourself, for you have come so far, and there will be so much more for you to achieve in the future!
yacht. wrote:Today was a horrible Monday
and let's just say I feel like a stupid awkward loser right now that nobody likes (which is true, I already got all the boys and half of the girls in my class on my back already)
I mean I seem to mess up
every
single
day
with me being a stupid shy idiot that gets tense easily and has no idea how to interact with others without writing off as a scary or closed-off person
I mean I just want friends, is that so hard to ask for?
Why am I even asking this question? EVERYTHING I ask for is hard to get
This might be the last year I spend in my worst nightmare school if all goes well and I pass my exams
But I feel as if I can't take another day of embarrassment and laughter directed at me
I'm planning to play Toontown later today but now...
I don't even know if the remedy that works best will help right now
ok sorry for ranting I'll head off now
I'm sure someone out there likes you. I assure you someone out there likes you. You just don't know it yet! <3 No one is perfect, no one, so messing up is perfectly normal! (I've messed up loads of times, some messes probably larger then the ones you've made P:) With this in mind, no one has the right to laugh at you. They aren't perfect either! Don't mind what the others think. You're perfect the way you are, and if they can't see the good in you, that's their problem, their loss. Just be yourself, and sooner or later, you'll find yourself with a friend in no time
Nothing in life comes easy, but the struggles you overcome show how far you have come to achieve what you have achieved. Smile, and be yourself, and let life take you to your destined path <3.Я e a ʟ I ϯ У wrote:Unless I raise my hand to answer do not freaking call on me, put yourself in my place, do you really want me to have another breakdown? The last one was your fault anyway.
My teachers are idiots! I get they are trying to get me to be involved. but I have to be comfortable with it, not you. I can't stand it when my teachers pick me when I don't raise my hand. People are raising their hands, pick them, they want to answer.
Sorry, just needed to rant a bit.
If you are uncomfortable with teachers calling on you, you can always tell them so whenever you feel comfortable doing so. From past experience, those who usually don't participate in class get picked on most, so if it gets to the point where it is needed, raise your hand and try out an answer! It's okay to not get it right, but it's not okay to not try! Hopefully your teachers will be more understanding in the near future! c:
And she did it front of other family members too which just added to the embarrassment. 
