Midnightleopard wrote:My problems are not as bad as most, but since this is the thread for that, and I kind of needed to rant, I thought I may as well. Also, if anyone just needs to talk, or anything of the sort, my PM box is always open!
Well, here. Do not read if you do not feel like it.
1. One of my friends that is like a little brother to me has this huge, heartbreaking crush on me, and has had it for quite a while, but I can not like him back. Everyone keeps pressuring me to just 'give him a chance', but I can not. That is not how it works with me. I either like someone, or I do not. There is no 'learning to love' someone for me. I normally just mess around and pretend to flirt around with my friends, it is just fun and normal for me and my friends, but, when he is around, it is like walking on glass. I have to be careful what I say and do, because he gets jealous and does stupid things, and I do not want him to get hurt any worse than I already hurt him. He loves me so much, but I just can not love him like that. He is just like a little brother to me. It hurts him, and it hurts me, seeing him hurt. It hurts me even worse too, because I am in the same situation. Speaking of which,
2. I have liked this one of my friends for about a year in a half now, and she knows this, but she says that I am like a sister to her. I can make myself stop liking most people, but, for some odd, messed up reason, I cannot make myself stop liking her. She is my best friend, and I care about both as my best friend, and I like her. She has a crush on this one guy, and has on and off dated him for years, but he hurts her, and I do not like him, not because I am jealous, but because of this. Although this, I still give her advice when she needs it, and listen to her problems, even though it hurts me. I am not sure what to do. I mostly just try to ignore my feelings, amd just live my life, but I have been told, and I have the feeling, that storing and ignoring this could just make me hurt even more.
3. I have recently accepted that I am bisexual and biromantic, but my family is homophobic, it goes against my religion, and, though most people in my school are accepting and quite a few are even bi, gay, or lesbian, themselves, many people at my school are homophobic , too. I am pretty open about it, except for around my family, or adults in general, and have never been made fun of or been mean to because of it, but I know that I will be one day, and I know that one day I will have to tell my family, and just thinking about it gaves me a bad feeling.
Hey, people! Remember this ^? Well, again, do not read if you do not want to.
Things have not gotten any better. In fact, number one has gotten worse. Now he has jumped to the conclusion that I am dating a guy that I am just friends with, so they get into a fight every day when I get off of the bus. (After I get off, because they both know I would kill them if they fought while I was there. I still kill them when I hear that they had a fight, even if I was not there.) I wish he would just get over me, especially because I am just a heartbreaker. He knows around the number of people I have dated, and that I have dumped them all, without a second thought, (I do take love seriously, but at the age I am, I believe that serious relationships are pointless, because, at this age, they are just going to end, anyway.) and the same would most likely happen to him, except it would hurt me too, because he is like a brother to me, and I hate seeing him hurt.
Okay, enough about me.
If anyone wants to PM me to talk about their problems (or any of mine, but I do not really need to talk.. I would rather help someone else.),feel free to PM me! I love helping people, when I can, and I am always willing and happy to give advice.