CarmillaTheCreampuff wrote:I get back from the hospital at 3 a.m
I get a lecture all the way home from the hospital that my panic attacks are getting out of control, and I should have just "calmed down" when my mum told me to.
I'm so sorry that I was panicking because I lost feeling in my hands and legs. I didn't even realise it was the result of stress and lack of nutrients.
Now she's being awful to me. Because apparently me being on the computer is to blame. And she didn't get sleep so she has to wake me up eight times until she finally makes me stay awake.
Theres some concern I think. She won't let me leave her sight.
But no other than that she's just yelling at me. Im freaking exhausted too mother. I was the one who had to go through all those tests.
They put me on mild sedating medicine to calm me down. I hated it. It felt so fake.
I still am grasping the fact that all the crap going on stressed me to the point of a hospital trip.
And now its just adding on top of everything else.
My arm also hurts. I hate needles. They leave such inconvenient bruises
Can I just have a hug?
Ive had an awful past 24 hours
-hugs- I'm so sorry dear if you need to pm me please do❤️





















