Wanted to go out today. My body decided to make everyone late by putting me in extreme pain for a good thirty minutes, and because my family is awesome, they refused to leave without me and waited patiently, but they shouldn't have to be thirty minutes late because of my body's stupid pain.
Then at dinner I finally asked my mom if my dad (whom my mom's been divorced with for about two years now) was drinking again. I thought he had started drinking this year. Turns out he had fallen back into his alcoholism when they were still living in the same house but getting divorced. It explains why he keeps pushing me away, which is fine, I don't want to have anything to do with his poisonous self. I was already thinking about cutting him out because he went back to smoking and another one of his addictions, but I will not be around the addiction that makes him violent. I will not let him negatively affect my life any more than he already has. I know he loves me, but he doesn't have the ability to pull himself out of his addiction, not even for me.
And then, just to add to everything else, my friend's baby brother, whom I love like a brother, was forced to spend the night at his awful fathers house by court order by a judge who was seeing this eighteen month case for the first time. When they picked him up, his eyes were red, his eyelashes were stuck together with dried tears, and there was snot caked under his nose.
Today sucks majorly, and i could really use a hug.
