The Snow Queen wrote:*sighs* Go ahead and ignore me. Im just venting. <3
Sometimes I really hate myself.
I couldn't be what I'm supposed to be.
No, I turned out flipping lesbian.
Not that perfect little Catholic girl my parents want.
I live in constant fear of them finding out.
Let me tell you, the results wouldn't be pretty.
I mean, they already hate the fact that they found out I support gay rights.
I mean, I know they love me.
But its sorta that knowing that it won't last.
They told me.
They told me I would not be anything to them if I turned out gay.
It hurts.
It hurts so bad to know that they won't be at my wedding.
Or there to support me.
But aside from them theres school.
My "best friend" is turning into what she was before.
And I'm getting all her crap again.
Not to mention my grades are slipping no matter how hard I try.
I am just so tired of all this.
I want to just curl up and cry.
*Hugs*
That's awful, I'm really sorry this is happening.
Don't hate yourself, you are who you are, and you can't change that.
If your parents don't love you for who you are, then they don't deserve you. You'll find a whole bunch of friends who support you for who you are, and I know this doesn't help, but not all Catholics are homophobic.
That sucks, can you talk to her? Or try and make some new friends, it doesn't mean you have to abandon her, just hang out with others sometimes.
All you can do is keep trying, make a schedule, and if your school has after school help, go to that. Just keep trying, you'll make it through this.
Anyway, I'm sorry if this advice sucks. But I'm always here if you want to talk, just shoot me a pm.
Well, feel free to pm me.